Carbon Neutral Strike Update 35: September 18 to 24, 2026 I'm Angry

0:00I'm a lady, I'm a girl and a girl and I am here to say that we all It's just one, two, semi-layered, something new from the old. It's all okay if we go, how we go. Gentle, kind, a million-year-old, all-mise. Action, so cool, acting, the rule, riding on schedules. Yeah, these looks were improvised with a mouth in love, but that's how it came out.

1:00Sometimes it's gonna be how things come out. This is all gunning real time. September 21, 2026. It took a weekend. I don't feel like riding. I made an instrumental for a potential song, but don't feel like singing. I'm in a bad mood. 3.32pm. I'm fighting back tears. I am almost 36. I will soon run out of eggs and have to forego having biological children. I did not use dating apps to find a partner because it was against this strike. I thought it's not a good thing if it comes from a bad thing that pollutes, but here we are. A colossal bad thing. No biological remnant of my genes in the future, just me and the end. Half siblings may pass on half, but not the whole. This life is not good. I don't deserve this.

2:02Another excerpt from my attributes that I'm trying to get approved. List of things I did not do during the strike. Use fan or AC in my home. I did not have a choice about ACO at work or on buses. Leave the island of Jamaica. Drive anywhere myself behind the wheel or make any attempt to get a vehicle. Eat any animal flesh. Use Gmail. I had to manually check for new emails I did not get notifications. Buy new clothing items only second hand. Buy any synthetic fiber clothing. Use hot water to bathe. Turn on lights which is to use lights at night. I use my phone and with cheap with the fridge door open. Get a bicycle to get around due to the microplastic tomb bicycle wheels. Go clubbing outside of my neighborhood. I merely went to two or three jam sessions outside my community and one night touring Kingston with couch surfers. Make use of PayPal. Use deodorant in normal plastic. I use an imported deodorant that was fat fat fat for thallate for thallate free and aluminum free.

3:09Get an order of thallate is. But thallate for thallate. Watch YouTube with the exception of a few downloads shows we've ripped from the site and the occasional new pipe rip. This app does not give YouTube views just takes the video. Use Facebook Instagram Twitter. Buy anything from Amazon or other online stores like Shea Inn or Temu. Watch Netflix or Stream any movies such as Seemuse Anywhere with the exception of the occasional water bear documentary, a green streaming platform. Buy a music streaming subscription. Use a dating app despite really wanting to pass on my jeans to a child. Use a hair dryer or hair products. About one tip of conditioning that was used once and never again. Buy razors. Use makeup. Use condoms or birth control instead of abstinence. September 22, 2026. 227 pm.

4:10Just built a riddim and instrumental for dancehall artists to hop on. September 23, 2026. I'm very unmotivated today since I was quite productive yesterday, taking a break. September 24, 2026. 1.13 a.m. I feel ruined as a person. I finish putting out part of this story so at least I'm so productive. But ever since 2033 I have been ruined on trustworthy and unsafe place to be. My mental health and the name given to a lack of double-munits are toned in. Me and I am not someone you want to be in charge of your IP address unless you are giving pity. I have been ruined. I started to lose my mind in Germany and Jamaica finished the job. Trying to get some peace of mind and closing a chapter, I attempted to speak to the cybercrime unit to see what of my information was leaked to the dark web after I was hacked in 2023.

5:15The first time the emergency 119 number dropped. I phoned again. Got not one but two numbers of cybercrimes. The first dropped. The second rang until voicemail. The next day I went back and found a number online on one of the official websites of the number rang again until voicemail. The police call around like a lice. But when you actually need them, they are useless. This place is like a curse. It's a beautiful but deadly. And even though while I was in the mental hospital, I saw fellow patients with rich and diving love lives, I still had sinister patterns emerging and no love for me. It is no longer cute that I am saving myself for a lasting relationship at almost 36. It's not cute that I've never caused that threshold. And while I don't think it's so effective by polarism curable, it's not going to be cured in time for someone to love me and have a child with me. Stupidly because I care about planet Earth I stopped using dating apps.

6:17I lost more than a year with this striking the amount of time it could have taken to find some other broken soul to procreate with, marry and live happily. Instead I listened to the podcast for entertainment since it's compensated and make things alone. Most of my days, I'm angry. Jamaica has a facade of order while everyone here is tormented in the face of capitalist western imperialist order. Order in quotes. Just looking at our grocery store says it all. Make a bunch of stuff, start the shelves full and waste whatever doesn't get picked up in time. Eat like cookie monster with half of the plastic cup on the forehead instead of in your stomach. It's a joke. My best bet at some different kind of life is music because if it makes you dance or hum, there's no amount of skill effects it can stop you having streamed that song. Not that I'm streaming anything new because of the strike, only on bandcamp where I can charge extra to plant a tree. I'm angry.

7:18If I were still in Germany, I could have gone to any number of games in the street gathering sin network, push forward, squeeze more out of my accelerator experience. There are so many kudasho da woodas, it's too much to list. I just need better. Better governance, better grocery store, better policing, better apps, better. If we think we are intelligent, then we are blind. All of this is trash, a whole garbage bag world. And just because some of the stuff in the garbage bag isn't rotten doesn't mean that the world isn't still mostly trash. Quite literally, there's no intelligence in this. If I opted out as much as possible including risking never finding a decent partner because of how horribly my life has gone since 2023, then I think other people can decide to stop the madness too. To stop participating, to be disgusted to the point of not eating for nine days, to be so furious that they walked to a doctor's appointment across the city, to forego most social sites and lose whatever little touch there was left, to be angry enough to no longer even leave the house much instead of working with the AI.

8:22To know that the products you want to make are easily done with AI and refusing sacrificing your success and income on principle. Please stop forcing me to do this alone. I know everyone is doing their little bit, but mine seems a lot more. And it's burdensome. I would be an awesome mom even with this new nightmare disease of the mind where I cannot naturally produce joy due to a horrible living situation of a year and a half in Germany that was finalized with a horrible year and a half in Jamaica, frightened many nights, feeling unsafe and experiencing a laughably horrible repeated pain from the acoustics in the house that it was impossible to complain about in me taken seriously. I went crazy because of stupid things because of book burning the colors red, black and white together and shoddy house building stupid things. Stupid things mean I no longer have the ability to experience rewards for my brain without a medical dependency. I am angry. I want out of this crap crap world we've built and nowhere is there a proper rebuttal to it yet otherwise we would have hopped on the train instead of chipping little bits out of this existing but still keeping it going.

9:29I'm tired. Stop making me do this. I don't want to have asked this strike because oil gas and plastic are possible to fully avoid and still lose at the same time. You who are listening are the least responsible. I know that so I don't know what I expect but I am tired and I can't be trusted as a mother until I can clarify what real things in my life are an actual danger and have them dealt with. I want to know the extent of the league that happened in 2023. I want to know why that weird adopt children tag as on my shirt with jellyfish with an excellent forehead like the paints I felt on my forehead exactly where I think bug landed while I was trying to figure out water and plastic and not taking showers. There's so much I haven't told you about. I'm writing currently exaggerations and embellishments in a story but truly life has been stranger than fiction. And when I try to plead my case like a Chinese finger trap the more I struggle the worse it is. I have been ruined, ruined, I'm angry but I'm also good natured. I'll lose my last egg and in a month or so find a way to make peace with it and find a reason to laugh. I'm good natured. Just because we are good natured doesn't mean this world is good.

10:38Perhaps we should be bitter for a bit. Perhaps it's not adaptive not to hold a grudge. I'll bet you anything later today I'll be cheating about something stupid and forget I was so mad. All the while going slowly in fertile never to see my face in a child. Never. I got what I asked for. It's funny. I said I didn't want to pass on my lousy crazy jeans. No take backs. It's funny. Like this big funny cosmic joke. Ha ha. I'm angry. Thanks for listening to my carbon neutral strike updates brought to you thanks to solar punk presents podcast. I would love to see you tried out too. Not because of your footprint but to show how hard it is to opt out of oil gas and plastic. You can try it for however long in a way that suits you in your lifestyle and then you can share. And you can send the short MP3 clip of your update to high at fast forward spelled high H.I. At F.A.S.T.F.R.W.R.D.

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