Vault: How Did The Bert Show Do After Giving Up Their Vices?

0:00How did you get your website to look like that? Mine's so basic. Thanks. I just used Wix Harmony. What's that? It's Wix's AI website builder. You just tell it what you want, and it builds you a whole site. But you can also switch back and forth between chatting with AI and editing things yourself. Ah, so you're not stuck with whatever the AI gives you? Nope. I mean, the results are pretty nice, but you can jump in and mess with whatever. Oh, that's neat. Try it for free. At Wix.com slash Harmony. Finding great candidates to hire can be like, well, trying to find a needle in a haystack. Sure, you can post your job to some job board, but then all you can do is hope the right person comes along, which is why you should try Zip Recruiter for free. At ziprecruiter.com slash zip. Zip Recruiter doesn't depend on candidates finding you. It finds them for you. It's powerful technology identifies people with the right experience and actively invites them to apply to your job. You get qualified candidates fast.

1:00So while other companies might deliver a lot of, hey, Zip Recruiter finds you what you're looking for. The needle in the haystack. See why four out of five employers who post a job on Zip Recruiter get a quality candidate within the first day? Zip Recruiter, the smartest way to hire. And right now, you can try Zip Recruiter for free. That's right. Free at ziprecruiter.com slash zip. That ziprecruiter.com slash zip. Ziprecruiter.com slash zip. The virtue. I got to tell you, in one way, I'm glad that our vice week is over, giving up our vices for the week is over. And in another way, it just doesn't matter, because I'm not planning on going back on this Lunesta. Good job, man. But I can also tell you, it's got progressively worse during the week, which is weird. Oh, really? Yeah, and I think it's my anxiety level. Like, it's really prepared for it on Monday. And I slept okay. I got five, six hours of sleep, same on Tuesday. And since I haven't been taking those Lunesta pills, it has been worse and worse the rest of the week. Like, I hardly slept at all last night.

2:00Got to bed about, I guess, about 10.30. It was a real light sleep. And right now, it's sort of a game of psychology for me. I got a couple of emails about this. And if you're not sleeping well, rather than me read the email, because it'll be too long, I put the email from this virtual listener up on my blog. That sort of spoke to me the last couple of days. When you have these sleep disorder, a lot of it is just in your head. It's the fear that you have that you're not going to sleep that is actually keeping you up. Okay. It's almost like a mini panic attack almost. And you have to sort of start calming yourself down. Like, it's okay, not to get seven hours of sleep. It's okay if you get six hours of sleep. And you're going to be fine if you just get five hours of sleep tonight. And I feel myself fighting that anxiety. I didn't in the beginning of the week, but towards the end of the week I have. And I have been fighting it as well. So the last couple of days have been really tough for me. But I'm not planning on going back. In fact, Melissa, I'm going to ask you to keep the luneses for through the weekend. Okay. Because Melissa, you're going to the cat show

3:03when you want to be really rested for the cat show. Well, I'll sleep right through that. If anything can give me sleep, it would be going to a cat show. It's the international cat show. So I'm going to ask you to hold on to those prescriptions. And if I like start to get sick maybe at the end of next week, because I'm not getting enough sleep, maybe I'll figure out something else, but I don't want them this weekend. Because if they're in my house, I know I'll take them. I'm like the resident pharmacist right now. Because I've got birch pills in my filing cabinet. And I've also got Wendy's, you know, diapills in my filing cabinet. So yeah, I can make a little money going on on the side here. Wendy gave up her diapills for her vice week. It's not been going so great. It's been kind of a rough week. I don't know if it's coming off the diet. I'm sure that's what it is, but I haven't been sick for two and a half years since I've been on diapills. And it hasn't been like I've taken diapills starting two and a half years ago, but I've like every like I'll get off of them for two and a half weeks to go to a different diet pill. So there's been sometimes where I'm not on it, but pretty consistently I've been taking diapills

4:05pretty much every day. So this week I've battled being sick. Like I haven't been sick in forever. My glands have been swollen. I've night sweated. Like you know when you get those night sweats and you're sleeping and you wake up, you're burning up and you're sweating. I've had that this week. And last night I just had a breakdown. I'm like, I'm like looking for my pills. Like I need to have a pill because I'm like in need of them because it gives me so much energy and just makes me feel a whole lot better about myself. I don't know what it is, but it makes me feel a whole lot better about myself. And I guess I get down on myself like hardcore sometimes. And I'm like, I need this pill to make me feel better. I was begging my friend to fight me one because I don't have them in my house. So you're almost using this pill like an antidepressant? Almost, yeah. To me, like it makes me feel better because I mean, I think it makes me, it'll make me thinner and it increases my energy level which always puts you in a positive mood. And I'm pretty positive person. Like I come across positive, but like when I'm alone where I'm with my closest friends or my mom, I'm in a really down mood. So these pills like kind of make me in a better mood. So yeah, sort of they're my antidepressant.

5:07So I was looking from all night last night. I'm so glad my friend was there because I mean obviously I don't have them but I needed one last night. Like you hear the problem here, right? Oh, absolutely. I know I know the problem. So after this week when the bit the segment is done are you planning on going back on them or are you gonna? I haven't decided. Like I'm gonna let Melissa hang on to them for right now because I haven't decided. I'm making a little money, I'm telling you. Sorry, count pills. I need some, come to my desk. I haven't decided yet. Like I know I should but like they give you that, they give you that feeling of like, I don't know, like happiness, you know what I mean? That's speeding everything up. Sort of making me feel a little bit forward. Yeah, your energy levels up. You feel great all the time. There was a listener we had on yesterday that you had a reaction to that said what was it her or her friend had some digestive issues after the fact or whatever and it made you think, well you know what, I should be off of those. What happened between the physical side effects that could come from this and then last night? Well, I'm already seeing like the physical side

6:08just because I don't feel very well. But I don't know, like I think I get so down on myself sometimes, especially when I'm alone. I get so down and these pills are kind of like a pick me up. And I think that that's what these pills do and I'm obviously I'm seeing the problem. But I don't know, I just think that pick me up sometimes and I don't know, like I think even when I drink though is probably, it gets a little worse because then I'm even harder on myself. So I probably need to cut out both. I mean, doesn't this sound like, I'm not a doctor or psychologist but it sounds like you're a depressed person. And taking the pills isn't going to do anything. You got to see somebody about that. Absolutely, I agree. And I would say a compounded upon getting off the diet pills not to minimize that. But this is a strange time of year for people. Like it gets dark earlier, it's colder out. Everybody's inside more. I have a lot of friends right now that are struggling with just kind of feeling depressed or out of it or just kind of like not in touch or I just kind of bummed out. And I've taken more than just the diet pills. I mean, I've taken that St. John's War which has been like, it's a mood lifter I guess.

7:10It's supposed to enhance your mood and make you in a good mood. I actually had to get off those pills because it was making me even more depressed. So I had to completely wipe that pill out. I threw those away a long time ago but I think that's probably added to like my whole hormonal change and all that kind of stuff. So yeah, I'm definitely going to see somebody about the whole hormone thing because I think the pills have definitely had effect on that side of my body. So I don't know if it's me being a depressed person or if my hormones are making me that way or making me feel that way. This gets into the same conversation that we had with Stacey yesterday about how the band-aid of the medication, your band-aid are the speed pills that are giving you this false feeling of feeling great but you need to work on your head. Oh no, absolutely. And that's why I just sat here and I listened to Stacey all day yesterday and it really hit home. I'm like, these pills are doing the exact same thing for me that those pain pills did for Stacey. Yeah, so I listened to her all day yesterday. And I just kind of had a breakdown last night. I was like, I don't feel very good. I'm not happy, I'm sick. So, yeah. Hey, Brandy, go ahead and you're on the birch show.

8:12Yeah, I just wanted to comment because I'm the same as I bring. Like I take, I have to take, it's called, super good reviews, it's like an energy pill and my job, a cute team. And if I don't take this pill, I seriously, I'll tell my coworkers, it's an antidepressant for me. It totally picks me up and I'm fine. And my husband gets on me all the time because he's like, you gotta stop taking that because it's like a drug, it's seriously a drug. It's not like a drug, it is a drug, right? You're obviously struggling with it. I mean, is it the struggle of like, you're dependent on this or is it the struggle of admitting that you might be a depressed person, you might have to get some help for that? It's the struggle of admitting you're a depressed person because I can put on a great front. Like nobody has any idea, like how I feel when I go home. And you've told us before, you feel really, really lonely. It's, I mean, it's hard to admit. I don't want to cry because when he's crying, you get on the radio, here she goes. I feel a lot of tears yesterday too. I'm trying to match you yesterday. Yeah, no, I mean, that's hard to admit as a person because I'm always trying to be a good person, be happy all the time.

9:12But there's a period when you go home and you're just not happy, it's tough to deal with. Nobody will get it. No one understands the feeling, no one understands where it's coming from. So it's really hard to explain. And it's hard to admit. But sometimes I think you may not know where it comes from either, you know? I don't, like my friend last night asked me, she's like, why do you feel this way? Where is it coming from? I'm like, you know what? Honestly, I can't give you an answer because I have no idea. So I just went to bed. For a while there, you were seeing a therapist. What happened to that? It's the whole fact that I don't trust a lot of people. Like I don't even trust a therapist at this point. To do what? To even talk to you, to not leak certain kind of information. And yeah, I'm putting myself out there now. I mean, everybody knows now. But no, I don't trust people with certain information that they're not gonna go and tell somebody else. You know what I mean? And you don't legally, they can't do that. Right, but I mean, how do you know they're not secretly telling like their best friend? Because it's hard to keep secrets. For most people, it's hard to keep that one secret. You always have your go-to friend that you at least spill the beans to something about. This may be part of your depression right here. Is that you don't have the ability to trust anybody.

10:12Yeah. So that might be one of the reasons why you have to go. Therapy is really healthy. Boy, it's just to be that raw and that exposed and that, I mean, ugly, you know what I mean? You just go there. And you could say anything you want. Like I feel when I go in there, I'm not being judged. And this is stuff that I don't tell to anybody else. And I just emotionally throw up on my therapist. And I walk out of there 80% of the time feeling much better. No, I agree. It's just the whole trust issue. Like I still, I still don't trust a therapist either. And they're not supposed to tell. I still don't trust them. I mean, I trust them. I trusted an ex-boyfriend who got me knocked up on, like got me on the pills and told me I was faddle the time. It told me I was down on the time on myself. I didn't get her knocked up. He got her onto the pills. I'm going to clarify that. Sorry, somebody hung on to that. I tried to figure it out. All right, so Wendy obviously still struggling. Her struggle is going to go on next week too. Time should emotionally throw up. Yes, I agree. I Melissa yours, it has been sugar all week. Yeah, and I really do appreciate when people bring breakfast

11:15that they always bring the healthiest things. Knowing that someone is trying to fight sugar. Yeah, yeah, it's been, I mean, you know, something I need to do. It's, you know, sugar's not a good for you. And I eat an awful lot of it. But I have not had a breakdown. Even Katie was surprised that I had not cheated. And because, of course, I've told you about how my food in fidelity where I hide stuff from her. But she was surprised. I left my ice cream here at the station all week and watching everybody eat pastries this morning in front of me did not break down and have one, even though I'm starving and didn't get much sleep last night. But I did not have any pastries and then the candy and the cakes and the, you know, so it is difficult when, you know, it's right in front of you. So a lot of times with some of these vices, you have to, you have to have incredible self-discipline because you see people around you doing it, then you've got to, it's up to you. The responsibility is yours, not everybody else's to help you out, you know what I mean? We needn't the cake in front of this morning. I have a pastry right here at Jens, right here doing it as we speak. It's just a big little finger to you, and it's just. But I mean, but yeah, so it's, but yeah.

12:17So I need to, I'm not doing it anymore. And I'll try, I'll try to staff sugar as long as possible. You should blow some smoke in her face right now. I got a puff right now. You gotta get your smoke in her cigarette, take a bird's sleeve and tell us to take it when he's dying. What are you doing? Just letting him sit there. No. How'd you do yesterday, Jens, with cigarettes? Not so good. He smoked again. You've only had one day where you didn't smoke, right? Right, yeah. Not good. I don't have the self-discipline that Melissa does. And I just don't, I mean, I guess it has been good because I've cut back a lot, like probably cut it in like three-fourths, but I've still been smoking. Do most smokers, do they wean themselves off or do they go culture? Everybody does it different ways. I mean, you can talk to 10 people who have quit successfully and there's 10 different ways that they did it. So. You mentally not ready to do this? Nope. Not and you're not even apologetic about it. You're not ready to do it. I'm not. I'm not. I'm sorry. Why not? I guess I should be, not be sorry. Like when, when, because you've tried quitting before and you felt mentally you were ready then, what's the difference between this time and that time?

13:19Honestly, I don't know. I don't really know. Look, why aren't you ready? Why are you almost defined right now? Is it because it's a radio bit or? I guess I wasn't really, it wasn't, I wasn't really ready in my head or like mentally prepared for it before these five days came up and when all of us just kind of jump in on the bandwagon saying, like, we'll give up our vices together. I was kind of like, okay, I should do that. You said you could use it. It wasn't like really my decision. But. And it's gotta be. All right, and Jeff, you gave in yesterday also. Yeah, mine was just stupid. Yeah. Like all of it, I agree with you. I think your proposal isn't really advice. No, it's stupid. I think it's just an necessity to function in business. It is, absolutely is. Yeah. And I've got too much going on to not have it. I agree, I didn't like your advice either. I felt like the show was really vulnerable if he didn't have his blackberry on him. I know, I couldn't pick it up and blackberry text you. Yeah, and there's just so much wasted times. Like, I mean, Wednesday was, Wednesday's what pushed me over the edge because I had to go meet with someone

14:20and he had to do a bunch of work while I just kind of waited for him. I had nothing to do, nothing. That's annoying. Yeah, so screw it, let's do it. Especially the way that we use our blackberry is our to-do list. I know. And our calendar, and our address book. I know. I don't know how you function. I'm well aware. The virtue. How did you get your website to look like that? Mine's so basic. Thanks. I just used Wix Harmony. What's that? It's Wix's AI website builder. You just tell it what you want, and it builds you a whole site. But you can also switch back and forth between chatting with AI and editing things yourself. Ah, so you're not stuck with whatever the AI gives you? Nope. I mean, the results are pretty nice, but you can jump in and mess with whatever. Oh, that's neat. Try it for free at wix.com slash harmony. Finding great candidates to hire can be like, well, trying to find a needle in a haystack. Sure, you can post your job to some job board.

15:20But then all you can do is hope the right person comes along, which is why you should try Zip Recruiter for free. At ziprecruiter.com slash zip. Zip Recruiter doesn't depend on candidates finding you. It finds them for you. It's powerful technology identifies people with the right experience and actively invites them to apply to your job. You get qualified candidates fast. So while other companies might deliver a lot of, hey, Zip Recruiter, find you what you're looking for. The needle in the haystack. See why four out of five employers who post a job on Zip Recruiter get a quality candidate within the first day. Zip Recruiter, the smartest way to hire. And right now, you can try Zip Recruiter for free. That's right, free at ziprecruiter.com slash zip. That ziprecruiter.com slash zip. Zip Recruiter.com slash zip. Finding great candidates to hire can be like, well, trying to find a needle in a haystack. Sure, you can post your job to some job board. But then all you can do is hope the right person

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