12 Minutes Dead: The Near-Death Experience That Changed Everything

0:00And now, from beyond our dimension, this is the Jeff Morrow Vodgas. Here's Jeff. Josh, you had a near death experience back in 2015. Tell us about it. I think I'll start from where I dropped. Essentially, I was at the gym. I had a couple of stints put in my heart a couple of months before. And so, once I got to the gym on November 27th, 2015, other members said that I was operating really slow. And I went and warmed up on one of the machines. And it was a crossfit gym, which I wasn't really that familiar with. But there's a lot of other people that are participating in workouts. And when I was done in my warm-up, I walked over to the circle to where we were going to get our direction for the workout of the day. And essentially, I just collapsed and started convulsing.

1:02And so, that was the beginning of 12 minutes without oxygen and 90 minutes without a pulse. In that time, a paraplegic friend of mine actually popped out of his chair and put my head between his legs because I was kind of thrashing around. And started to try to give me CPR. And they weren't really that effective. So someone bigger came in and started essentially breaking my ribs. I have a slight memory of seeing myself out of my body, but only for a moment. And then it was kind of like I lifted upward. I lifted upward kind of like an elevator, but I didn't really feel like movement. It's just kind of a way to describe it. And I came up onto this edge of something that was kind of had like a band of light around it. And at the same time as I was coming up on this ledge, I saw two people that essentially

2:04were dying somewhere in the world at the exact same time. And so we actually made eye contact. And when that happened, I actually saw how they died. It was really peculiar. So I watched essentially this guy get shot by someone else. He had already injured a woman who had a baby. And so it seems that those two died at the exact same time. And I saw that take place in the alley where they were somewhere in the world. And as soon as we came up and all died together, we were looking at each other in this state of shock. And for me, it was a little peculiar because in that same moment, I was recognizing that this guy that essentially killed this woman was coming to the same place where we both were. And we kind of all shockingly looked at each other. And the first question that I had was that there is no help because I kind of grew up in Christianity.

3:11And so as soon as that happened, essentially, they disappeared. And it was almost like I was on this black band. You know, keep in mind, I just want to say really quickly that we don't really have human language for a lot of the stuff that we're experiencing. So I'm really doing my best to paint a picture more than anything. And the way I can describe it is that when I first came up, it almost reminds me of like if you just think of a cell with a nucleus. Now there's a band around it and then like a dome, right? When I first came up onto the edge, that was kind of like coming onto the edge of this cell. And it was like this black area where there was movement. And as soon as those people left, I recognized that God was right there with me. And he seemed to be off on this side of me the whole time. He was like, I didn't see it because everything that was it was God.

4:11And as we, I was still kind of moving towards this light and it was like all of a sudden night, I was feeling this insane amount of comfort. It was like the most home feeling I've ever had in my life. And it was so like warm. It was very comforting and encompassing. And it's so overwhelming that it's like if you had tears, you would be crying. But I didn't. And then it was like we entered into this golden liquid light. And from there, it was, it was pretty peculiar because it was at the same time as that was happening. I was starting to realize that things were happening super fast. I was recognizing that I wasn't even finishing an English thought. And I was already starting to get answers to the questions that I had before I even could formulate the question within myself. And so that's where I realized that things were actually happening at the speed of light.

5:15And I was still stuck on this health thing for the first moment. And I was like, there is no hell. And this unconditionally loving father like energy, which was essentially this golden liquid light, it would smile and it would agree. And there's a detail there where I haven't shared with anyone yet. But the question that I had was like, you mean like Hitler's here? And you know, at the same time as that happened, I felt him swell and expand and just basically nod his head if he had a head. And I was like, wow. And then I was a gangous con. And he's like, yep, same thing. Anyway, so after that, I was in this golden liquid light. And before I could even have a thought, I noticed something coming directly towards me.

6:17And it was like this ball of light and it was coming straight for me. And so as soon as I noticed that, it was like happening really fast. And then all of a sudden, right in front of me was my Oma and Opa who had both been deceased. And they came directly like right up to me. And I was like, taking back a little bit. I was, you know, not in quite disbelief because at this point, I had already recognized where I was as summer. I had already been. I felt like I was home. And so immediately when these two beings came up to me, my Opa was on the left and my Oma was on the right. And they had light bodies. They didn't have physical bodies. They had the outlines of like luminescent light, but not quite like a body, like a figure like that. But in their heart areas, it was like luminescent, like a blueish white light. And it was like glowing and moving.

7:21They were, they were like almost expanding with excitement when they saw me. And, you know, they didn't have faces, but I knew they were smiling. And I knew they were smiling and so happy to see me. And we actually had a conversation about something that happened on Earth, which was really challenging for me for a little while because when I was younger, I was playing with Luigi Boards. And my Opa was essentially like my first best friend that wasn't a sibling in my life. And he died when I was eight. And so I always had a real close relationship with him. And so I started asking about this time that I tried to call him up on a Luigi board with a bunch of my friends in a field. And as soon as I said that, he was like nodding. His, his heart was, you know, vibrating with excitement.

8:23And the funny thing about that event was that when I conjured up or however you want to put it on this Luigi board and this entity told me that it was my Opa, it had asked me if my Oma was mad at him. And back then when I was a young guy, I didn't understand like, why would you ask if she's mad at you? And then on the Luigi board, it actually told me that my Opa had cheated on my Oma. And she was still alive when that happened, right? I never talked about that to anyone. Me and my friends just kind of didn't say anything about it. But here I am in the afterlife talking to my Opa about a Ouija board conversation. And he was basically saying yes, he knew that it was me. And he also said that, you know, I looked at my Oma and she was essentially in agreement with it all. And I was like, this is at a control.

9:28We talked for a little bit and that was telepathically. So it's not like we didn't really have like a human conversation at that point. It was, it was really strange. It was more based like feeling exchange or emotion exchange. And it was like all of a sudden I was looked off to the right. And then I looked back and they were gone. And I was like, okay, whatever. Here I am. I'm obviously on some kind of tour is what it felt like. And we started essentially the sensation felt like we were strolling. And so God and I were talking telepathically and neither of us had bodies. Yet we were moving. And I guess one of the first things that he said right after that was like whatever you focus on expands, whatever you expand you create. Because I was so enamored by the fact that I couldn't have a thought without

10:28starting to experience something. And it was really unsettling to a degree. It was normal. But I mean at the same time it was alarming to discover that things were happening before you could have a thought. And it was at that time where he's like, well, what do you want to do? Do you want to see something or whatever? I came up with this idea that I wanted to see for some reason. I wanted to see Mount Everest. I don't know why I would pick something on the planet. But before I could finish that thought in my mind about Mount Everest, I was already at the base of it in a way. And it did feel like there was movement. But at the same time I don't believe I moved anywhere. So it's almost like these scenes come to you in a way. But I got to the bottom of what I thought was Mount Everest. And as soon as I got to the bottom I was like, well, I don't necessarily want to see the bottom of Mount Everest. So then when I had that thought I was already whizzing up the side of the mountain.

11:33And you know it turned to snow. And I got to the top in a split second. And as soon as I got there I looked at the top. And I'm like, oh, well, I didn't want to see snow. I've seen snow many times in my life. And then as soon as I basically said that all my attention focused right through the snow. And I saw the scones. And I was like, oh my goodness. This is insane. I didn't even have the thought to do that. Yet there I am. And I've got this view of Mount Everest. So it was really peculiar. After that experience we were walking and talking in this weird way without legs. And we were discussing a little bit about like the memories of coming here before. And we ended up sitting on this ledge of some kind again without bodies. I'm using human words to describe something. Sensations that are closest to describe like sitting on this ledge

12:37overlooking all this insane new stuff that I hadn't seen. Colors are like brighter than you've ever seen. And there's other colors. There's not just the colors that we interact with right now. And so as I'm sitting there, I actually had the memory replayed before I came here. And it was really incredible to observe all this. Because it was like pretty much exactly the life had been living all my life already. It was all being shown that it was all like orchestrated and perfect. And there wasn't one mistake I made. And it was a lot to kind of ingest. But at the same time, not really. It was more curiosity and feeling good about remembering this stuff. It was like so natural to know. Every time I thought of a new question or something that related to that,

13:40it was like again, it was like answer right away. And so that is why I say to people that like when I died and went to heaven or the afterlife, for however you want to refer to it, it's like I knew everything that I ever wanted to know. But it was like I didn't even have to answer ask a question about it. So looking at all this stuff from this ledge, we started moving again. And I could see that there was like things off to my left far in the distance that I was like, oh, like what's that over there? And it was like God was like, no, no, over here. We're going this way. And I'm like, okay. So I just kind of was following along as a light being in consciousness. And I noticed something else. It almost looked like a massive valley, massive lush, lush valley. And I could hear and see activity going on.

14:41I could hear laughter and playing. And I was really interested by this. And I wanted to go in that direction. And God was like, no, no, no, I got to I got to find out something here. I want to know, do you want to return? Do you want to go back? And this is the reason why he essentially quite visibly showed me that religion was something that needed to be disrupted. And it was essentially a task given to me to a degree. And if you want to go back, basically, I wasn't going to be able to experience all these other aspects that I was interested in. And so I made the choice to return. I remember being super excited. Like the excitement of a child, like going on your first roller coaster ride times 4,000. Like I just remember vibrating so excited.

15:41I just want to get back. I just want to go back there. And that was based on the conversation of the things that was presented to me in terms of what he wanted me to achieve. And this was really hard for me to talk about when I woke up from the coma. As soon as I did, everyone just thought I was nuts. So I quickly withdrew those conversations. But essentially then, when he asked me to come back, if I wanted to come back here and I say, yes, I was dancing or vibrating with that excitement. And he was telling me that there's many other people on the planet right now that we're going to be here to, I was going to be basically like assisting with what's already unfolding. And I was aware of that. And so I started feeling movement. And I realized that I was going to be set back into my body. And I stopped.

16:43And the last thing I said to him, I was like, wait, wait, how am I going to know who they are? And the last thing he said was with a big smile. And you know, I'm talking about a smile that you feel and not that you see. And he simply said, you'll know. And I was back in the pitch black of, I guess, I hadn't woken up from the coma. Yeah. And so from there, I, that's why I say I woke to the world. There was birth to the world for a second time because when I woke up from the coma, it was very much like being born back onto this planet, especially because I didn't have my memories. I was a broken body. And you know, as I was coming aware of being, of being again, at the start, I didn't everyone sounded like Snoopy's teacher. I couldn't make out any sounds that I was hearing.

17:47You know, I was hearing before I had sight. And then at some point I started opening my eyes and seeing like pinholes of light. But not, but it was so distorted and bright that I couldn't comprehend any of it. And gradually, I guess over the 90 minutes to the two hours that I slowly woke up, you know, I started getting more of my sensory experience back. And, you know, I can finally recognize that I heard my father speaking. And yeah, it was really dramatic, to be honest. And it hurt because, you know, I actually was thinking right away, I was kind of mad because for one thing, everyone was, it was annoying me that I didn't understand what anyone was saying. I heard stainless steel clanging and I didn't like that I didn't know what was going on. And as I became aware, I realized just how broken my body was. And to be truthful with you, I actually got kind of angry.

18:50I got angry with everyone around me because I was like, what is this some kind of joke? You know, and so it took a little bit for me to adjust to coming back into my body and and you know, I didn't really even fully understand anything that had actually happened to me. I didn't really even think about the memory at the time of seeing myself kind of on the gym floor. So I wasn't able to think of that when I woke up. It was like I woke up with the intellect of an 8 to 11 year old, right? And without my memories. So it was very much like being birthed to this planet all over again. And yeah, it was by far one of the most incredible experiences in my life. There's many other little bits and pieces in between there of things that happened, things that he specifically said to me, more about the nature of the planet and the future of

19:54what's happening, what's going to what's going to happen. And so, you know, waking up from the coma with the ego of a 40 year old, but the intellect of a 8 year old because of the brain damage was extremely challenging because as I, you know, came to my first choice was to essentially like lie and pretend I was fine. And so that was the beginning of my second life on Earth. I was essentially, you know, trying to hide everything that I saw. I was trying to run from the fact of my experience. I knew it was more real than like me seeing you on camera right now. It's more real than me looking at my computer, which sounds insane to say that because it doesn't have a lot like any of the physical properties in the same way as, you know, what we're interacting with right now. Yeah, it was, it was an incredible experience, man. Like I say very often, like dying by

20:59far is my favorite experience in life so far. And, you know, I think it's incredible that so many people, I thought I was all alone, really met anyone who'd had a near death experience at all until I started really posting online back at the start of July. So, you know, I've been really excited to understand there's more people that have endured and persisted and become determined to, you know, live again after such a, after such an experience, especially when it comes down to, you know, waking up into a broken body with no memories, you know, that can be pretty devastating. So psychologically, it's been an insane battle for me, you know, alcoholism. There was even a time I was doing cocaine again. You know, I was just, I was broken and I didn't mind keeping myself broken for the first five and a half years just because I was running from having to speak openly about

22:02this stuff. I knew that that was the reason why sharing my experience, my story with religion, since I grew up in Christianity from a child and I thought Jesus was in my heart from like the first memory that I have originally. And so, everything that I learned, you know, essentially kai boh, everything that I had been programmed in religion. And so that essentially was the reason why I made the choice to return here, which has been a very difficult thing to say out loud, considering, you know, there's so many people that are tied to religion in one way or another. But at the end of the day, you know, I know that we all return to the same place we go and that there's nothing I can do wrong here. So there's a lot of freedom that comes with someone who's had a near death experience, at least like this. And you know, I've heard a couple different stories

23:03about other people having near death experiences, but I mean, I really haven't, as soon as I start hearing some of it, I basically back off because I haven't wanted to dilute my own story for when I actually start speaking it, you know, when I film it for my own YouTube channel kind of thing. So there are details that I'm leaving out in all these that I'm doing for podcasts and online because I want to share a lot of it kind of for myself as well, right? So yeah, so that's essentially, you know, that's the most major near death experience I've had. Josh, thank you for sharing your experience with us. Is it possible that the other two people who you saw that had died at the same time you died? Yeah. We're not really other people, but you are seeing yourself die in past lives. No, I don't believe so because I saw, as those people

24:05disappeared, I saw many other beings coming up onto the edge of this and I saw like many. There were so many that I couldn't actually like count them. I could just see people like, trying to think of something round here or like, he thought of like my phone is something round. It was like I was here and off in the distance, I could see people coming up on the edge of this thing and they were still in human form. But it was almost as if as soon as they get up over this band, it was almost like they disperse into like matter or energy. It was a very peculiar thing. The guy, the man was black and the woman was white with blonde hair. And you know, from my experience with death and my time there in the afterlife, you know, I recognized that I was home, but not only that, that like my Oma and Opa and me

25:08and every other being there was actually just one thing. You see, we think of ourselves as separate, but that's only because we're here in these physical form, right? So I don't really actually see like past lives the same way as everyone else because we're all the same things split off, right? Like me and you right now, spiritually were identical. The only thing that we have difference between us is our experience. The time we were put on earth. And so that was a challenge for me at the start because it was something that I considered. But in my experience, I actually can't understand how I come back to earth for a second time because there's only one of me. I only have one retina. I only have, I have very distinctive one of a kind things here in this Meetsuit. And so what I see is that you are me and I am you. And that's how it is with every

26:09single person here. It's just that we are tricked into thinking that we're individuals because we are born on this planet and we have completely different experiences. And so I really do see us all as one except for we are just tricked into thinking that we're different pieces here. So I've listened to a little a few people talk about reincarnation and I just really don't see it the same way. It doesn't make sense from my experience. And so I kind of stick with what I know. One thing I will say though is that the light beings that I did see when I saw them, I almost made this assessment. I was like, oh, aliens are just us from the future. That's all that is. And so that's my experience. I don't want to argue or contend with anyone whatsoever until I see an alien with my own eyes or until I have an experience like that which I've had

27:10funny things. I choose not to really speak a whole lot on it because it's just my experiences doesn't take us, doesn't give us any real gold there. It appears during your experience that you discovered that there is no hell. Yeah. How did you process all that? With Glee. I think it was, it made so much sense when I was there because you see, we're all one thing when we're there and we're coming, we came here to play a fun game of duality. So we don't have hot cold, we don't have uptown, we don't have good bad, we don't have all these things that we're experiencing here. Yeah, it's one of the most exciting things for us to come to this planet and experience the pleasure and pain. And it's all a part of it. The evil and good, the evil is there kind of just

28:19like religion is. It's just like those people are actually sleeping within a dream. So they have to wake up like from two different layers because they actually, they believe that they're human and that they're doing everything all on their own. And even in my opinion, when it comes to religion, we ask Jesus to come in our heart, but then they worship something outside of them. And so that just shows me that they're fast asleep within a dream. They, the way, because I've had practice within my body, I see God as this unconditionally loving energy, no different than right now, Jeff, we haven't actually physically met, but I mean, you would feel the presence of my character. You know, if I stood shoulder to shoulder to you in a dark room, you would feel me there, right? That energy exchange between us is actually the power of God. You know, and so we've seen, we've heard about religion and we talk about the

29:21power of God as something outside of us, but it's something that we all know and interact with all the time. You know, our imagination, our intuition, our insight, that's all God within us. So if all things are possible with God, then isn't God possibility in me? Because where else am I accessing possibility? Right? And so this is just some of the stuff is stuff that I've captured from my experience in the afterlife, but then also from my experience here. After talking to your OPA about the Ouija board, do you get the sense now that it's okay to use the Ouija board or it's a bad idea? I think it, like, this is a belief-based game. So if I want to have a negative belief about doing something, then that's going to be the experience I can have about it because that's our power. You see, we can create whatever we focus on, we expand whatever we expand we would create. It doesn't matter if it's good or bad.

30:25Right? Because if you look at our heart or our subconscious mind as the part of us that is creating our experiences, then the identity that I have and the belief I have about all the things around it are essentially what I'm going to experience because my power is to co-create. And so that's done through belief and identity and what we focus on. You talked about visiting the memory before coming to Earth, right? When you looked at that memory, did you also understand or realize that you pre-planned this birth and all the events that are happening? 100%. There's no doubt about it. I knew when I entered that memory that I had already known my father. And at the time, I also understood that the people that I was going to interact with, I didn't know who those people were in the moment,

31:27but I knew that the people that I would interact with in this journey at a relational level were all someone that we all orchestrated and we knew about this. But it sounds, it's tough to explain like this unless you understand that we are all one thing and we are all knowing. And so it's not like we like sign contracts because we don't have paper and pen. We actually just came to agreements on how this was going to happen. But when we're making those agreements, we're doing that as God. Right? And so it's not like we're formulating a plan. It's like this massive orchestration. It's beyond anyone's comprehension. And when you experience the afterlife and the way I did, the magnitude of it all is so overwhelming. Like you actually cannot speak. You can't think it's like

32:32you're in such awe of the magnificence, but the magnitude and you're overwhelmed with like love, joy. These are just words. I'm using their human words that actually they don't actually describe all these feelings. It's very, it's very immature way to explain this stuff. But I mean, I don't have any other language, right? God revealed to you that religion needs to be disrupted, right? Well, he actually showed me it will be destroyed. Did he tell you or can you tell us why it needs to be like what's wrong with it? Well, yeah, because essentially religion, if you want, I'm going to go back to the way I kind of formulated it back in my intellect a little bit, right? Using my heart as well, but through my intellect, once I woke up, you know, and stopped drinking, I really wanted to discover like I needed to know for myself exactly like I could

33:33wear is it wrong? Like how how can it be that bad? Because it seems that like I had an amazing childhood. I grew up in religion. And then I realized God pointed it to me. He's like, okay, but like in the Garden of Eden, when and these are stories, by the way, in the Garden of Eden, you know, when Eve essentially took the forbidden fruit. And you know, she bit that apple and Adam and Eve screed it away and they put loin claws and they covered themselves up. And and God said to them, he actually went looking for them, right? So they had think they had thought that they had sinned, they had thought that they were tied into they were feeling guilty and they were feeling shame. So that's what the whole idea of them putting these leaves on their private parts were, right? God went and found them and said, whoa, whoa, whoa, you don't have to feel ashamed. Just come back and choose the tree of life, which is essentially living through your heart and not through your

34:34intellect, right? And so if you look at all of religion, it's exactly constructed off the tree of knowledge. Because all we point out when you were there is the sin and the guilt and the shame. But see, that was designed for humanity to keep us self governing ourselves, right? We're all built with morality inside of us. You know, you can take a child from Thailand and they can play with a kid from Africa and have no belief whatsoever. They don't see color, right? All this stuff is learned. And so we are focusing on guilt and shame, which is actually keeping us from hearing and interacting with God in the way we want. And so that's why like essentially if you look at like the Bible and all this, it's really not hard to find out that it was modified many, many times. And then when you go back to like the stories of say, you know, Jesus being crucified, all that stuff was added to

35:40the Bible. He didn't die for anyone's sins. He didn't come here as a savior and you know, there's not one human on this planet that has to say the magic prayer for God to enter you because there's actually more God in every single one of us than there is us. And we don't really notice that until we're actually like without these meat suits. Now, you know, it was the Roman Empire, essentially, who crucified or killed Jesus. And that was because he was trying to explain consciousness. Back then, they didn't have the ability to describe like Wi-Fi signals or frequencies floating through the air. And so he was speaking in parables to try to paint pictures in the imagination for the people that, you know, were interested in the truth. But at the same time, it was based on like something they had no real idea about. Now, the people that essentially took over

36:41in that time, you know, the Roman Empire is still alive right today. It just moved into, I don't know, I guess we've got the Roman Catholic Church, right? And so, you know, if you look at what's really going on, you can see that everything has been modified for us. And, you know, it's all going to crumble and fall. This is the most exciting time on earth. We have the most amount of near-death experiences available to us now. And we've also got the most amount of people searching for this as well as, you know, the aliens and all this other stuff, right? And so, essentially, what's going to happen is like religion and government held hands to get where they were to essentially create the morality and everything that we have now. But, you know, religion essentially is selling superficial love. It's love based on condition and unconditional love is the acceptance

37:43of all that is. So, how can a religion of love focus on what you're doing wrong as a human? In my opinion, and that's where the most damage of this has come in the world because we've got, you know, gay people that believe and desire to be with someone of the same sex and, and, you know, the people that have orchestrated the world around us, or people in religion would call that evil or you're sinning, right? But the thing is, is that there is no rules. Automatically, we wouldn't even as children, it's not like we have this desire to steal things and take from people and hurt people, right? Those are all things learned as we get older. And that is because of the separation we believe we're separate from what God is and we believe that it can be apart from us, but it's actually completely impossible. You, like, the power of God is every

38:43neuron in our brain. It's the energy that we detect if someone's telling a lie, it's our intuition, all those things. And so, you know, that's the nature of our world right now has been created for us so that we couldn't see who we are, how we operate and discover our power. But this is the time on earth where all that's happening and it's not going to stop. So, you know, it sounds kind of crazy to think that governments and religion are going to fold in on themselves, but this world was created to not have any borders, not any governments. And so, in the next couple decades, that's what we're going to see happen from what I've been told. And so there's not just me here speaking their truth. I was actually thinking I was going to be like the odd man, I didn't have a lot of hate for the things that I've said. And, you know, I realized really, really quickly that there are so many people in tune with what I am saying, which, you know, I'm not saying I have it all

39:46figured out, I'm not saying my message is perfect, but I can say that what I'm delivering is undeniably the things that I know that I know and not things that I just believe. What else can you share with us about the future of this planet and what's unfolding? What I can share is that it's going to look insane. It's going to get weirder and weirder. But the process of what's happening is that essentially because of these new dimensions of consciousness that we have access to in our inner world, this is going to sound insane and foreign to many people because they're stuck in their intellectual and logical thinking brain, whereas we're switching operating systems from an intellectual logic experience to a heart-led metaphysical experience. You see, when I refer to the heart, I'm also talking about the subconscious mind, but I'm also talking about imagination, I'm talking about intuition, all these things that we have,

40:50these are all abilities that we have more and more access to. So, you know, if you discover more truth about this reality in you, then you can perceive that as your little light, your little divine spark that's in you actually grew a little bit. Every time we build on truth, every time we operate in love. And so, what's happening is that as we search and uncover love without condition and real truth, then we're actually adding to the available frequencies of light and dimensions that we can all interact with. I know, you know, in society today, we can measure 1% of all available spectrums of light. So, if we can think of that as the visible light that we see, but then also like the Wi-Fi signals, you know, when I was dead, I had this understanding that, wow, I didn't

41:51go anywhere. Like, it's so bright and so light and so full of information that we have been dumbed down into these meat suits with five senses, but that light is all around and in through us at all times. And that's why we don't go anywhere. We just, we just enter all this unavailable light, like this light that we can't perceive with this meat too. But in that light is the same thing as saying love, light, and it's the same energy that, you know, say if you had your spouse was being sneaky on you, you know, when they're talking and saying something, you get this inclination that maybe they're not telling the truth. Well, that's coming all of the information that's all around us that we can't comprehend with our meat suits. After this experience, did you notice that you had any new abilities that could be considered psychic? I do. And they were abilities that I had as a

42:55child already that I didn't know I was different, you know, but at the same time, I felt different and I know that everyone has these abilities. But essentially as a child, the reason why I didn't resonate with religion, my mother told me that Jesus lived in my heart. I had nothing to ever worry about. But then when I started going to church, sorry, and when she had said that, I was resonating with this voice inside of me that, you know, wanted to encourage me and would keep me safe. And, you know, I'm talking about as my very earliest beginnings of awareness. And so I thought Jesus was like this voice inside my heart. But then through religion and through my mother specifically, she was the one that was telling me all the things that I had to worry about. So I was like, well, you don't even believe what you're telling me, right? And I could feel this energy when she spoke to me that she wasn't really true and she didn't believe it. Now this was what people would call

43:59as like a clairvoyant child or something like that, right? And I had, I believe way more of us had that. In fact, I believe every single person that thinks that they have an imaginary friend is actually interacting with this same voice that I thought was Jesus. And so, oh man, I lost the question. You were talking about your, you were talking about your psychic abilities. Yeah, that's right. So, during the course of my young life, I just wanted to be human. I just, I didn't understand why no one else seemed to perceive or see things the way I did. And so I became very solitary, isolated, and very serious. It was like I was on the secret mission to understand love and truth. And it ran in the background my whole entire life. As I grew up, I just wanted to be a regular kid. So, I would push it away. And you know, as I got older and developed, you know, relationships and

45:01the enjoyment of having metal and music like that, I almost essentially like shoved that aside just so that I could experience here, what everyone else around me, my friends were experiencing. And so, it wasn't until I woke up from the coma that I realized I had this gift, but even stronger. I was able to, at the very beginning, I thought I was hearing people's thoughts and I still don't know how accurate that would be. I was on percussettes. They gave me a triple bypass and they put it defibrillator in my chest. So I was on percussette. And there was a time when I came back, I was responsible for up to 30 dogs at a time I had on my property. And there was a couple times where I was like, that dog is, I can hear those dogs like almost speaking to each other. And I thought it was really wacky, right? My best friend died 90 days after I woke up from the coma. And it was the

46:06same day as my percussette prescription for the open heart surgery was done. And so I started drinking right away, like quite literally I drove right to the liquor store. And what I noticed is that almost all those abilities that I had were gone. But I didn't put it together that it was the alcohol. I just thought, okay, it's gone. It doesn't matter. I'm just trying to live. I was faking my way through life. I lied about so many things because I was pretending that I knew what was going on, even though I didn't have my memories. I was driving to the city and thinking I knew where I was going and ending up 45 minutes away from where I thought I was supposed to be leaving stills on. So I was quite broken. And alcohol was my medicine so I could fake it essentially. And I tapered that off in 2019 by 2020. I resolved the relationship of the woman. I woke up from the coma and I had created a relationship. I believe a year or under a year with this woman.

47:12And so when I woke up from the coma, I didn't really remember her, but I just pretended I did. And so it was pretty messy. But I realized through my work with dogs that I was getting the same information. So even to this day right now, if someone approaches me and they need help rehabilitating their dog, and I mean a dog that's either severely aggressive towards other dogs or humans or has a shot nervous system, as soon as I have that dog and human together, all I have to do is ask a couple questions and I start getting energetic feedback of what's actually going on, the things that they're not telling me, the things they don't want to reveal and wouldn't talk to someone they're just having a consult with in a dog rehabilitation case. And so these are the gifts I use now in my guidance calls. Right away, if you had some, if you came to me and you had some issues in your life, I just need you to speak a little bit and I'm reading through the lines of what you're saying energetically.

48:14And when I rest on that energy, it gives me the background information of the true nature of how we resolve this. And so my guidance calls are probably some of the most fun I have because I get to exercise my unseen abilities and I get to set people on their path like, yeah, it's honestly incredible. I think it's one of my favorite reasons to be alive still to this day, but that's all energy and I believe, you know, you could call it psychic abilities, you can call it whatever you want, but I know that we all have these exact same abilities, we're just practiced in different degrees because, you know, if I was lying to you about something to do the nature of our life, you would be able to detect that. And so we're just not practiced in these things. And so it's something I want to teach eventually as I understand better, but for right now, I'm just really enjoying helping people level up from where they are in life and proving what's possible. What do you think your mission is here or what else do you think you need to achieve?

49:18I see the desire within me and the visions that I've had over the course of my life as all kind of coming together. In fact, there's different times in all our lives where we get little pictures of what we could do, what we want to do, the way that we can assist or serve humanity. And so for me, it was like going back and picking up the bread crumbs of some of my day dreaming in imagination as a child and then bringing them to a place now where I'm fully recovered and kind of putting the pieces of these bread crumbs and starting to assemble a puzzle in a way. So that, as I assemble these pieces of desire within me and put them there, I can get a bigger picture of what it is. And so I always knew that I wanted to serve many humans. I always had visions of being really giving and also being well known for my ability to see people and very loving and caring.

50:25And so in my course of time here, walking with dogs on this property that I'm on, it's kind of over time been revealed to me, creating a space of retreat, so to speak, workshops, seminars. How long were you dead for? The main one was 12 minutes, no oxygen, and 90 minutes without a pulse. So they'd broken my ribs, recestitating me, knocked a couple teeth out. And then when the ambulance got there, they were working out, recestitating me for 90 minutes. They got me to the hospital and they still lost me three times after that. And somehow when they got a somewhat regular heartbeat, I guess they administered some type of coma to protect my brain because everything was swollen from not having oxygen. I had a 12 minute anoxic brain injury. So essentially, when I woke up from

51:29the coma, you can picture your brain just with dimples all over it, like a golf ball because of where it didn't receive oxygen. So all those layers died. And I had a lot of learning to do. In fact, this five years has been a lot like getting my place for the first time, like say, moving out of your house when you're 18, you know, I've grown up all over again. And I really just feel like I'm in my early 20s. I mean, this 51 year old body, but yeah, I don't see it. I don't see age really anymore. Yeah, it's pretty incredible, man. Josh, after watching this podcast, people may want to reach out to you and ask you questions. If you're open to it, what's the best way to contact you? For those who like want actual assistance, I get an obscene amount of messages because of the nature of my story. So I will interact with people on Instagram. That's my preferred place.

52:36Next to the email, I have a stand store link where people can book guidance calls and I have a school community called Bring Death to Life that's really cheap, where I help people on an awakening journey from all different aspects and walks of life. You don't have to have a lens from coming from religion or anything like that because you know, this awakening, you'll find that there's people yeah, of all walks of life. So Instagram is the best thing. I've got a YouTube channel, which when this post, I'm going to make a comment on and you know, I'll interact with some people there as well. But Instagram is the best place. I've got Substack as well. And yeah, I'm always happy to meet some new friends. Do you have a link tree or something that has one master link to all of these places? Yes, under the photo in my Instagram, there is a link there with everything that I have right now.

53:36What's your Instagram handle? So everyone's brother with his Z. So everyone's brother at Instagram. Josh, before we finish up, can you leave us with a last positive message? I can. I really think that as humans today on this planet, we take things extremely seriously in that when we're reacting emotionally reacting to the state of the world around us, it's actually robbing us of our own ability to see and discover and start to create the life that we want. And so my advice to anyone out there who's struggling in any way is to start really focusing on the good things around your life and start dwelling and looking at those. And I'll remind you that one of the first things I learned was what you focus on and expands what you expand you create. That's good or bad. So as soon as we start looking at the negative aspects of our life or

54:36something that someone said to us and we're starting to replay that memory, we're actually, we've given our power away to something that's already happened. Because it takes matter time to form, if I have a negative association with say, you Jeff, and I'm like ruminating on something in my mind today, right? I'm recreating that same feeling and those same things into tomorrow. So the present moment is all we have and we need to start really looking at what we can be grateful for and we have to start working towards not just saying I'm grateful for things, but feeling it at our core because essentially our frequency is what's being casted to the universe and the universe is paying us in exactly what that frequency we're emitting and whatever signature it is, right? So if you want to get at a survival

55:37mode, the best thing you can do is look at all the things to be grateful for and you know, it's going to take some work. But if you notice that you spend a lot of time focused on what's going wrong and what could go wrong, I just need you to take that same energy and look at what could be right. Josh, thank you for your message and thank you for being my guest. Jeff, it's been great to spend time with you and I look forward to seeing the full episode. My pleasure.