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Why I Regret My Mormon Mission ft. Alyssa Grenfell ​

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Ex Mormon YouTuber Alyssa Grenfell, opens up about her experience going to the Mormon University Brigham Young University and on her service mission for the LDS church. Here is why she ultimately regrets spending a year and a half trying to convert people to the faith. 

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00:00:00 Intro

00:05:41 How Mormonism impacted Alyssa's childhood and her personal relationships and led her to BYU 

00:10:44 BYU as a symbol of Mormon culture and a goal for those outside of Utah

00:15:58 Rules at BYU that prevent students from taking tests and forming connections with other students

00:22:24 Threats of degree revocation as a control tactic to keep students within the honor code boundaries

00:25:57 The impact of BYU surveillance and the honor code on victims

00:28:10 Alyssa begins to experience dissonance with her faith and personal beliefs at BYU

00:33:58 How missionaries are viewed in Mormon culture and how it coerces LDS members to serve

00:42:03 Alyssa's personal revelation from God... that contradicts the church

00:48:10 Alyssa's first experience in the temple and how it impacted her mission

00:58:14 The implications of going through the temple and then cancelling your mission

00:59:54 The isolation of a Mormon mission

01:07:51 How the church promotes religious OCD to its missionaries

01:10:22 How Alyssa's mission affected her mental health in the field and when she came home

01:15:16 Living with a hoarder as a missionary and how the church deemed those to be adequate conditions

01:19:51 What the consequences were to raising concerns about improper housing

01:26:04 How the goal of worthiness keeps missionaries in line and in potentially harmful environments

01:28:44 Baptism quotas, avoiding certain questions and omitting the truth while trying to convert

01:32:33 When numbers get in the way of actually helping those in need

01:35:36 Why Alyssa regrets her mission

01:39:19 What to do when you meet a Mormon missionary

01:43:49 Linda, listen


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