What if you could never be what they wanted? [Rebroadcast #246]
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Always feeling she had failed the ideals of her strict Muslim, South Asian family and community, a woman struggles to navigate trauma, shame and self-expression, when unexpected news forces her into a powerful reckoning.
Today we bring you the seventh episode of our annual 5-week summer rebroadcast series, airing 2 episodes a week. We will return with all new episodes starting Tuesday, September 16, 2025 . Today’s rebroadcast episode “What if you could never be what they wanted?” originally aired as episode 246 on September 13, 2022.
Today‘s episode featured Azzah Ahmad. You can find out more about Azzah by visiting her Instagram page @Lifeazziknowit
Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Sara Marinelli
Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual abuse of a minor, suicidal ideation, explicit language
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Intro Music: “Sleep Paralysis” - Scott Velasquez
Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere
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