so you've accidentally cursed yourself

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I know, I knooooooow. You didn’t mean to! Yet here we are, and somehow every time you put a quarter into the metaphorical vending machine of life expecting a gumball, you get served up a turd instead. Two quarters? Two turds.

When it comes to a *certain* area of your life, it seems like it doesn’t matter if you try harder, sink more money into it, or spend more time on it — things just get more fucked worse. You read the title of this post and thought, “cursed myself? Yeah, that kind of checks out.”

Today I want to (cheekily) help you reverse your self-curse.

How to know if you’ve cursed yourself

Close your eyes. Be honest. What part of your life feels like it’s been cursed by a bridge troll? Where are you running up that hill only to slide back down even faster? Where are you investing $50 and somehow losing $60?

That’s your curse zone, baby.

(Important caveat: When I say “curse,” I’m talking about areas where you have agency and control.)

Four Ways You Might Have Accidentally Played Yourself

1. You’re performing vulnerability or authenticity with ulterior motives

Are you sharing something deeply personal because you genuinely want to, or because you think it’ll perform well? Are you trauma-dumping for engagement? Are you trying to sanitize your shadow by talking about it before you’ve actually worked through it?

Listen, I’m not saying you can’t be vulnerable. But if you’re using your emotional experiences as content strategy, that energy gets muddy. And muddy energy = gunky outcomes.

2. You’re sharing from an open wound

There’s sharing from a scar (good), sharing from a scab (risky), and sharing from an open wound (you’re gonna bleed on people, and they don’t like that).

When you share something that just happened — before you’ve had time to sit with it, make sense of it, or get any perspective — you get a pretty flat, superficial take. Premature sharing can actually keep you stuck in that painful place instead of moving through it. And yeah, that can definitely make you feel liked you’re been cursed.

3. You’re building in public with the wrong materials at the wrong time

Building in public is great advice… sometimes!

But if you’re sharing your nascent idea — the one that’s still so delicate a light breeze could knock it over — you’re building with materials that can’t withstand pressure yet. One strong exhale from the internet and your whole thing collapses.

Wait until you have cement bricks. Or at least plywood. Your baby ideas need protection and nurturing, not a tomato-throwing audience.

4. You’re being weird about change

Two sides of the same cursed coin:

* Option A: You changed dramatically overnight (from the audience’s perspective) because you were hiding your evolution the whole time. Now everyone’s confused and feels bamboozled.

* Option B: You’re resisting change even though every fiber of your being wants to evolve, and that resistance is making you miserable.

Both lead to the same outcome: things feeling cursed because you’re not being honest about your becoming.

How to Reverse the Curse

Step 1: CleanseSalt bath. Cleanse your space. Cleanse the specific area of your life that feels cursed.

Step 2: Get Ruthlessly ClearWhat do you actually want? What do you not want? You need both to create a clear picture. “I want a delicious cheeseburger with no soggy lettuce and no tomatoes” is way more specific than “I don’t want soggy food.”

Be honest about your motivations. Are you sharing because it feels right, or because you’re performing? Only you know.

Step 3: Protect YourselfSpiritually, mentally, emotionally. Not all attention is good attention. Get strategic about who you want to see you and who you hope ignores you.

Step 4: Strategic Silence ProtocolThe ultimate question: If you couldn’t share this with anyone, would you still want to do it?

If yes → hell yeah, that’s intrinsic motivation, go for it.If no → good to know! Maybe the exciting part is the party at the end, not the actual thing.

There’s an art to shutting the f**k up sometimes. Not everything is for everyone. Some ideas are too delicate to expose to other people’s opinions before you’ve spent real time with them.

Write Your New Spell

A spell is just: clear intention + gathered energy + actions that align with what you want.

You can jump over a dictionary on the first day of school. You can whisper intentions into your morning coffee. You can make it up! It’s just like when you were a kid and decided that picking three flowers while spinning in a circle would make your crush like you back.

That’s magic. You can still do that. You’re just old now.

So: have you accidentally cursed yourself? And more importantly, what spell are you gonna cast to fix it?

Drop it in the comments. I wanna know.

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