self-surveillance is reducing your surface area for luck and magic

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Has the whimsy, magic, and sparkly intuition has been seemingly Dyson-vacuumed out of your existence?

Do you feel trapped by your own identity or paralyzed by indecision?

Have you noticed that it seems like the universe hasn’t winked at you in a while? (Rude!)

Congrats — you played yourself. This one’s for you.

Let’s talk about self-surveillance

Self-surveillance is becoming the cop in your head. It’s that voice judging everything you do as you’re doing it. It’s the part of you watching yourself from outside your body, constantly monitoring how your actions look to other people. It’s censoring yourself before you speak, curating your identity online, and performing actions because they’d look good on Instagram rather than because you actually want to do them.

And here’s the problem: you can’t create and judge simultaneously. When you’re self-surveilling, you’re stuck regurgitating old ideas instead of channeling something new. You’re closing yourself off from sensing, feeling, and intuiting.

You’re reducing your surface area for luck and magic.

Self-surveillance keeps you trapped in the realm of the known, using old materials to try and build something new. But magic lives in the unknowable! Synchronicity happens beyond the border of the comfortable! When you’re performing a human life instead of living one, you miss the glimmers of opportunity that are right there in your peripheral vision!

So, basically, we need to cool it on the self-surveillance to invite intuition, magic, flow, synchronicity back into our lives.

Listen to the full episode for practices on dropping the surveillance loop and letting your freak flag fly.

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