FearLess eps 83 vol 2 - Less & Less to Say - More & More to Do

0:00Skincare experts and dermatologists have often touted the benefits of indoor humidity as essential for healthy glowing skin. But did you know dry air can start to harm your skin and as little as 30 minutes? For years, many people have relied on humidifiers for better skin, sleep, and overall wellness. But traditional models, bulky, mold prone, and difficult to maintain. That's where canopy humidifier comes in. Recommended by leading dermatologists, canopy is a completely reimagined humidifier designed to elevate any space, offering the ultimate in skincare and wellness benefits. Canopies clean moisture, come that's dryness, dullness, and fine lines, while strengthening the skin's barrier and boosting the effectiveness of topical skincare products. With its sleek design, canopy is the cleanest and easiest humidifier on the market. With its unique technology, cleaning is as easy as popping it in the dishwasher. Go to getcanopy.co to save $25 on your canopy humidifier purchase today with canopies filter subscription. Even better, use code podcast to check out to save an additional 10% off your canopy purchase. Your skin will thank you.

1:29I love that inner child. Out, out, out, out. No, no, no. My name is Frank Castle, founding member of the music group ice clicked at New York City Neo Shop. After a serious injury sidelined my career in 2013, I decided to set out on an adventure to search for myself with the help of the plant medicine Iowasta. Would I discover queeding for me was something I could never forget. It was time for me to become something more. Someone more, it was time! I became fearless! I'm becoming fearless.

2:35What is up everyone? That's right. It's me, your main man, Frank Castle, your Sorcerer Supreme right here, each and every Saturday night on Fearless. And I'm joined by my A Theorical Translator and co-host, Paul Amalo. Hey, hey everyone. What is up? Sorry, we're a little off. I am a little bit tonight. I'm beat up, man, after the storm and everything and everything that we've been through. I got a little bit of a sinus thing going on. As you can see, temperatures have been all over the place. Yeah. You tired? I'm only teasing you. We are beat up and we are a little bit tired for those of you that don't know. We had a little bit of a flash flood here, a lightning storm, thunderstorm flood. Yeah, yeah, it was bad. It was so terrible.

3:36We were totally, we are always prepared, like for everything, you know, flashlights, candles, water, like it's towels, like prepared. And we knew this was happening. We knew it was coming. And we did get prepared. We even went to Costco the day before and and then everything kind of just fell apart at the seams the day the day it started raining. And we're not going to get into it. It was just a big basically a cluster of fuck and it started raining and then the rain started pouring into the house through the radiators in the wall and the bedroom and the yard was flooded and cats were stranded on window ledges because they couldn't get out of the rain. Our poor mom and cat swam ran into the house.

4:39It was just it was just a horrible situation. But and then we lost power. And then and then no, first we lost power. And then we discovered all the flooding with flashlights. It's just a weird moment, right? It was totally caught off guard. It was just a chaotic, totally chaotic time and we were caught off guard. And, you know, and like I said, we're always prepared. Like we have, we drink the filtered water. Frank has all the filters on on on everything. And we have gallons, gallon bottles that we fill the that we keep the filtered water in. We had no water. We had a case of water that we brought bought from the store, but we had like no water like I mean it was the perfect storm of unpreparedness like you can't even imagine. And then we just sat in dark. And you know, the last time this happened, it was great. It was fun. And this time it was not.

5:42It was just like two angry people just waiting for the hours to pass till the next day comes. And then we had the big clean out, which was fun. And then we got outside and it looked like nothing happened. I mean, we had a little damage from the plants and everything like that, but it looks like nothing happened. The backyard for those of you that have been here before, right? It's three and four feet above my knee. On the side walking towards the back, it was like you walk out the door. You go to the right. And you just it's like being at a beach walking out into the water. And, and how the rain did not come into the house, we, we are still shocked and made. Yeah, through here. I'm like, congratulations to the builder, because it's just the brick. And then the wall, whatever. I don't even think they have the board up on the wall over here. And that's it. Yeah, but the brick, whatever, whatever they used worked great. This room, however, not so fucking much.

6:46Well, we have it there. We think we think that they're fucking around. No, no, it started pouring in. The water was everyone got hit with water. Everyone around here, even people that normally don't get hit with water. God hit with water. But we're lucky. It came. The power came back on. For those of you that have been here, the door that's right across from our door on the other property, the water. All the way up past the knob. I never seen that night before. So, you know, now we're going to move on. But we, you know, love to everyone who got stuck in the rain and had water damage and flesh. I mean, people on Facebook that one of the people we know, I mean, her son's apartment was three feet underwater. I felt terrible. Thanks, Frankie boy. But, uh, yeah, it was just, it was just bad, but then it got better, right? The next day, the sun was out.

7:53I just want to say that it was a different world. It was like coming out of an apartment, like the apocalypse. It was really really strange. It was in the tent situation. And I was trimming the, the babies, right? And then when you're working on the plants, the tables around everything's out, everything's pushed away. And, you know, the place is a mess. The lights go out. I'm on the floor in the back under the tent in between the four plants under the, the trestle net. And I'm like, whoa, what just happened? And I hear drip, drip, drip, drip. And I'm going, it must have started raining. I was like, don't move. I got to find you. So now in this apartment, we are prepared for this zombie apocalypse. We always talk about it. There is a flash light literally every foot and a half. You, you would have been under water in your old apartment. Oh, in your old apartment, you would have been sitting in waste high water. That's how I've never seen anything like this.

8:55The rain was going sideways, lightning was everywhere. That's what freaked me out. It was really lightning. And we have, you know, the internet is plugged in in the bedroom, you know, all everything is. That's the radio behind me on the wall. We have that in every room. In every room. So the water was pouring out of that. Pouring out of it. And then we had everything out of the way so that we didn't lose, we didn't lose everything. We didn't, we didn't lose the, yeah, we worked fast with that. Yeah, it was just horrible, horrible situation. I've never had to do that much work. We couldn't find a flash light. No flash light. We have them everywhere. We have them everywhere. We are so prepared. And they're always in the same place, right? So now he's in the tent in the back of the room. Now, meanwhile, we have containers and everything, a light storage container pushed out of the way. It's dark. He hears a drip. I'm in the living room. There's cat blankets and area rugs down because we have some cats inside, some cats outside.

9:55I can't find a flashlight. He's banging into things. I now hear running water. Yeah, it sounded like a little waterfall was going. Now it's pouring through the wall and the ceiling and the radiator in the bedroom. And now we're panicking because if that goes, we have no internet, no nothing. And we're trying to move around the house in the dark. We can't find the flash lights. And then we find, Frank finds his phone. And then we find one flash light. And then we find the candles. We always have candles. We know what everything is. It was pitch black. And there was stuff everywhere. We were not prepared for lights out. It was horrible. It was horrible. I had a moment. So Paul and I kind of were like getting attitude with each other a little bit, right? So it was tied all day at each other. But like we were trying to hustle at this point.

10:55So I go outside and I see Brian. I didn't know it was Brian. And he was at the one window so you can't open a window too. In the kitchen on the side. And then I came. It was weird because I went into the kitchen and the cats jumped out the window. They just jumped out the window whenever I'm there. They didn't realize how much water was over there. How deep it was over there. It was like three feet of water. In the back. In the back. It was like up to my waist. It was three fucking high. This cat jumps out the window. But he doesn't realize. He's not a swim. Well, he actually actually do not. No, I know. But he was terrified. I know. I never seen a cat that scared. So he ended up swimming. He swam to the window. Swim to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window.

11:55Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. Swam to the window. you lose your motivation to get out of bed. In fact, one in five people experience some form of depression no matter the season or time of year. At the American Psychiatric Association Foundation, our vision is to build a mentally healthy nation for all, because we want you to live your best life and be your best you all year round. Please visit mentallyhealthynation.org to learn more. The Toyota Tundra and Tacoma are built to keep going, blending rugged muscle with precision engineering, all supported by Toyota's time-tested legacy of dependability. Step into a Tundra and feel the unyielding capability with the available iForce Max engine. Tundra puts out impressive power torque and towing performance and the roomy high-tech cabin keeps you connected on the go. Or take a look at Tacoma made for drivers who push past the path. Agile, tough and relentless

12:56with available features like crawl control, portable JBL speaker, a power lift gate, so gear goes in fast and the adventure keeps moving. The Tacoma and Tundra are engineered to endure season after season, mile after mile. So drive one home today, visit toyota.com or stop by your local Toyota dealer to find out more Toyota. Let's go places. We were on a farm and it was too much work. Remember we talked about downsizing the thought. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I make my bed back and there's a snow storm. Go get the donkey. Get the fuck out of here. The donkey's like a quarter mile away. I'm limping. Before I get to the donkey, the fucking bear and its cubs are going to have a fucking field day bite my fat ass, right? So I'm like having this terrible dream and I'm like, well, I guess it's got to be done. So I go out into the storm. I look out and I'm like, I'm not going out and that. And then I saw Brian's face and I'm like, I'll be right there. Yeah, yeah. I put a hat on because the rain was going this way and the way the

13:56light was coming in, it was terrifying to look at. I was like, wow, this is a fucking different thing. There's like a fucking, I'm going to walk through this shit. Well, because this guy's they remember when he got clogged recently and we were laughing like all the shit pipes probably backed up because the sewers over there and they had a drain all that nasty. Yeah. When I was walking into it, um, and I feel clean water for the moment. But I had said to me, as soon as I got into the water, she was like, and you won't be staying in this water. Like get the fuck out of the water. Not just because of the lightning. She was like the pollutants in the water. Sure. I was disgusting. The rain might be naturally good and yummy. It was freezing. It's everything that everyone's y'all is backing up. I walked up to Brian. And then I just said, you're going with me. I grabbed him and he looked at me like, I'm going to jump out of here and he looked down. And he was like, I'm going to just dig myself into your chest. And he just dug in. And then so now he went to jump. Towels. Towels everywhere. So that was my first weather rescue.

15:01I was like, I'm not going to be able to find anyone else. Bear jumped out and I was going little bear. And I went, I walked around the house the one time and under the air condition, the water was like a foot under it. So I was going, we're lucky that the air conditioners still work. I'm going, what the fuck? I don't, you're not finding nothing. I'm going to be finding dead bodies in the morning, laying in the yard. I know. Because that's how much shit. Then the next day, all that needed to be done was the house clean up. It was the most and same thing. It was 76 degrees and it was sunny and cool and everything dried. We laid everything out outside and it's like this is the most beautiful day. What the fuck is going on? I know. I thought today was 100% once again, the fucking, I'm going to get rid of that weather. F because it's never right. It was like tomorrow. It's coming 10 o'clock at night. Everything goes off. Like, what the fuck? You guys are so wrong. It said 100% showers for the next two days.

16:06And at 10 o'clock, it was still safe from rain. So I put, I was like, oh, we got shit to worry about till tomorrow. And then when I open the app, it was rain for the next day, but I'm standing in 76 degrees, perfect weather. I'm like, you guys suck. Must be a Russian or Chinese app, right? Oh, Lexi. Thank you so much. Lexi. We love you so much now. Thank you. You have to do that. Thank you. Thank you. That was very sweet. Yeah. It'll be for the washing the towels from the flood fund. Yes. So there are drop downs. I guess like boxes on the ceiling. There's one right behind me. It's like a drop down where I guess the pipes are running through there in the bedroom. It was squirting out of there. So the wall and and and everything eventually, because that's an inside wall right here. The this wall, but that wall, the far

17:07wall isn't, it wasn't an exterior wall and it's a corner. Yeah. So there's going to be some issues here. I don't know if we don't find out. Maybe being here as long as that would take really to play out. We had to downsize the thought and the plan and the idea. Yeah, because it got tell them it was hurting. Yeah, like it wasn't fun to think about. Ten acres. I want three thousand square fucking feet so we could all live and whatever. And I'm looking at these places. And I had a one night last week. I didn't do the show. I was looking at houses and I started having fucking panic attacks. Yeah, yeah. Well, we had quite a bunch of things happen. A lot of happened. And then that session didn't finish in Columbus tonight. You know, the idea sessions have been so incredible that they started 11 in the morning and don't end till 10, 11 o'clock at night. Yeah, 12 hours. Yeah. And then in the middle of it, people will be like, no, I'm fine. Really?

18:08I'm fine. It's all good. And I'm like, you're not fine. Sit the fuck down. You have to stop. And then I'm dead. I'm here right here. And then I'm going to go lay down. And then two hours later, they pop back up. No, I'm fine. Two hours later, they go back. I'm like, whoa, these are intense. Yeah. So we, uh, plus we get the purge from it. Oh, of course. But I feel now everything is fine. Now everything's fine. Like it was, it was the next day was rough. The cleanup. I mean, that was that was 12 hours of hard hell. We were cleaning at night. And then you passed out. And then I stayed up for a little bit. And then I passed out and that room was like 100 fucking degrees. And it was 60 degrees in here. And no place to lay down because it was either moist or cats. And then Polo was on the couch. And I couldn't. It was too hot in the chair to sit back and just fall asleep. My ass hurt. I was like, I don't want to sit in the fucking chair. And I don't want to be in the tight

19:09fucking spot anymore. I've had it. Now, just something I want to mention. We are in your reinies up your your reinies retrograde. So we're in your your your in this retrograde. And uh, it brings it brings things up and pushes them out. I know that sounds funny and ridiculous. However, it's true. So it reveals it reveals the darkest things that are inside just latched on waiting to come out. So leading up to it, you become a sandy little butthole. You don't know why. You don't know what's going on. Yeah, you yell at someone the whole day. The whole day. Just because, right? Right. Yeah, you just start with attitude. Right. Right. Yeah. Right. Right. Okay. He got that covered. So, uh, yes, it was very moist. Moist was definitely the place. Hey, Dave, come to Guatemala. Yeah, Dave. Hi. Yeah. Yeah.

20:13He has spiders in his house bigger than fucking our cats. You want to go yell at him? No. You yell at him and just no. I'm not yelling at you. I'm yelling at the universe, but it happens to be you. Well, you're my universe. You should treat it better. You don't play with it like that. This is what happens um, during retrograde, you'll notice that one person will score in the other as if the other is never correct. And always stop. You know what? That's, that's in your heart. That's in your heart. Black form of nonsense. And then when the bottom brick is pulled out from that structure, the whole structure falls to pieces, which is exactly what the retrograde is for. It's to recognize like jenga. Just like jenga. Okay. You're great at jenga, by the way. No, you're the best. No, you're the best. Awesome, especially from the couch. Yeah, not that much. So as you can see, it has been affecting us. However, no, we're fine now. We just,

21:16yeah, no, look, you little things that you don't recognize that are even there will test your metal while you're impaired emotionally. Let's say in the middle of doing something, you've been waiting to do or how about this? How about this? Let me, let me explain it this way. Let's just get off us for a second. So when you say it like that, it makes me want to stay. I don't want to on you. Okay. So the light schedule just went to 12 12 inside the 12 hours on and 12 hours off. Okay. So when you do that, they go to bud and they're going to start creating those buds that you smoke. However, give me hand. Give me hand. Take my good hand. Right. So soon as that happened and the lights came on four hours into that, the lights went off for another let's say 10 and 10 hours. So that fucked up the light cycles on the plants. I know. And then they had to be retrimmed and fixed and it just everything's been throwing

22:20everything else off to bring to the surface another thing. Oh, even tonight at dinner, I made dinner and I made this, I mean, I made a very simple dinner. No, no, but I fucked it up like I mean, I rebounded. I rebounded. I cooked the steak and I cooked steak all the time and it was so rare. I mean, it is like a cosmic colonic though. Get that shit out. It really is. This has been a rough and then in between this, we had company like, you know, like we're trying to host mom came back after a week, excuse me, a week with my brother and the kids. We saw multiple friends and didn't know if we were even going to be able to do anything like that while we're trying to run a business and do your thing. I'm on a 30 day, my 30 day ban is up this evening.

23:23It was just up right before the show started, which is really fucking weird. It said you said, you have an hour left when I asked you earlier. Yeah. Do you feel like talking to some shit? And then you're like, oh, yeah. So it's like, okay, cool. When I checked, it was just counting down. I thought we were talking, but then right before Frank got dizzy and almost passed out because he had a bad headache and he needed to ask right before I faint because it does happen that often. I'll get like a hot flesh, right? And then it starts in my chest, like my waist up and then moves away from my belly into my chest, into my neck, into my fucking head. And then by then, I'm like pouring sweat and everything, but when you came in the room, I had already drive myself off. That's why I was like, you'll touch my head. What's happening to me? And you're like, I know I put something out of my sinuses. I had that black and bloody fucking whatever come out after MMS.

24:25Once again, yeah. Everyone's not feeling well. Forget about corona viruses for a second and just remember flu season and sinuses and allergies, you know, upgrades from what we're doing. Oh, yeah. Well, I think I think we were getting a cold like we were regular last last week. So we had we had both taken MMS for three days in a row and knocked it out. I mean, I believe I knocked it out. I felt great. Right. And the MMS actually worked on things that we didn't want working. I'm not going to talk about that. So what we all are going to talk about it because I'm honest with you what we talk about. So I, I wanted to post a very funny picture of my vegetables that I yielded from the garden. And it was like two cherry tomatoes and three string beans or

25:32something like that. And I said, I wanted to post it and I wanted to make a joke. I, you know, bear vegetables, just like my bear and uterus because I am starting. I've been teetering between perimenopause and menopause. And we were going for, we were going for this might really be menopause now. And Frank and I are like we're just like counting down the months until we can be reckless and crazy. But, you know, so I had made a joke a couple of months ago because Frank says, how come you don't drink the MMS as often as I drink it? And I said, well, because it works so well. I'm afraid that I'm going to start to get my period again. And he was like, well, I can't be a deterrent. And I was like, no, but I like the fact that I don't get it anymore. And, you know, so we ended up taking the MMS, now I made this joke a while ago. And we ended up taking the MMS for three days in a row and get some better period on

26:36the fourth day. I'm telling you, this shit cleans you out. It's a fountain of you. And I had coffee before I were to had some before the show. I know that. That's why I was surprised you wanted the coffee because three days we knocked out the cold. I definitely know I knocked out a cold, Frank knocked out the cold because, you know, we slept. So now today, Frank had a very hard time last night. He slept most of the day. And I didn't bother him because I wanted him to leave it out. Now he did take MMS because I saw the jars out this morning when I got up. So I said, okay, he's probably sleeping because he's pushing out whatever he's got to push out. And then he ended up pushing out something through his sinus. So he probably was fighting like a sinus I didn't even feel it. It just felt, um, heaviness here in your head. And then my third eye, I keep telling you, it's going like this, like it's doing this weird fucking thing. And the other day I was laying down

27:40right in the middle of the day. I just, I had to put my fucking head down. I have to be in the sun in the sun for a few minutes. And I felt like my head was opening, like right here. And then when I came out of my body to look, it looked like a golden ones and zeros from like a pirate's chest, like a board into my fucking head. And I was like, hey, hey guys, do you do me a favor? I got a fucking headache from this. You might tune in that down. And they were like, but it's all yours. And I'm like, wait, what? And they're like, all of that information is all yours. I'm like, why is it all mine? They're like, oh, that's a collective collective from your whole collective to you. And I'm like, that's a lot, dude. That you just keep pouring it in my head. And they're like, oh, we got a lot to go. And then my head was fucking and has been thumping for the last couple of days. But today, when it came out, I mean, guys, when I talk about what looks like spidered antennae inside of

28:49nostril stuff, right? Like, I knew you didn't feel well. That's why it comes out and it's black. And you go, what is that? It has tentacles everywhere. And you're just looking gone. I guess it doesn't affect me like consciously. Like, um, like, it can't take me out of my dreams and do all kinds of shit to me. I cleared the AI a long time ago. But physically, you don't clear it like, no, because I'm, it can't make me do its bidding. Doesn't mean that it's physically stuffed the antennas and all kinds of weird radioactive waves and things they put in the food and the water. You still get that. And it's still physically affection. That's all right. I want to get that all out. But you feel well for a few days. Yeah, you drag into the mud. Right. And that's what started it because Frank gets cranky and picks on Paula for two reasons. When it doesn't feel well, I want he's very hungry. You didn't feel well. You didn't feel well. That's why

29:50that's why you you've been a crank monster. Now you know, you felt better. I made the delivery of not getting I'm like, we're not getting sick again. It came out as soon as you pushed it out, you blew it out, you blew it out of your nose. You said my head went like, yes, and you were so much, you felt so much better. I fucking swear to space, Jesus, that I feel like in this area in my forehead, yeah, I'm literally going to grow a crystal out of it. Like it feels like that's a pressure vision gets that from Shiva. That's where that comes from the crystal. People want to know what the fuck is that? And it's like, that's because you're holding so much information and maybe your uniform doesn't opt for the giant fucking noggin or the 30 foot character you're just Shiva. So it's stored inside the crystal. Instead, you opt to have that, which looks fucking cool as it can be. Thus making it an infinity stone, then you're like, wait, what? We're going to grow infinity stones in

30:51our head. And it's like, I don't know, maybe, but we've seen characters with them. Why do the Hindu characters get them? And then the Egyptians ones don't. But in Egypt, they hand out eyeballs. No, I'm just saying it's probably all the same stuff. No, no, I think it is. I'm going to get you fly. Don't think I'd see you right there. Sorry. So Frank has a group of people backhand. I forgot that I knew how to play tennis. And we have this. I'm pretty good. I forgot. Frank voted this. It's a fly swatter. Probably the most inhumane and cruel fly swatter. I've never seen my entire life because it electrocutes the fly when you hit it. And it is in the form of a tennis racket. And so when Frank wants to get a fly, and we have flies in the house because we have

31:51to leave the mosquito netting down so we can leave the screen up for the cats. And it is now September. And that mosquito netting has been up since the beginning of June. And the cats cannot seem to master the art of just walking around it. Just going like this with their paw and moving the light weight. I think it weighs nothing. If you drop that from the Empire State building, it's still there. It's still nothing. Even in the rain, it was still light. I just don't, it's a barrier. It is something that I cannot understand because the cats are completely terrified and confused and amazed by mosquito netting. I don't, it blows like a curtain. I don't know the best is when they try to get to the food, even though they know they just have to walk three inches around it. They try to eat through the net and it catches their face and they go

32:56Oh, what about when they jump in and they're standing on it. I don't know how to just just step off. Step off of it. Let it go. Yeah. And then so we have to come over and like lift up their paws and it's months now. Come on. It's months, months, months and months. Well, they know other things now. Like Reggie's, I said, oh yes, she came to the door. Yeah, she's been in the house for a minute now. And yeah, like she followed me to the door and I said, all right, come out. I didn't want her out. Yeah, I hear you echoing in my fucking head the last few nights. Do not let her out. I don't want her out. So I'm like, okay, then I let her out. She came out. She looked at me and then she looked out upon the open world. And I said to her, get in the house. Come on. Me and you back inside will play some string and I open the door. And she just went right in the house. She didn't even fucking blink to go out there. I'm like, she's I, this is this is what I mean, I got to I'm going to get to the questions in a moment, guys.

33:59She is me in a piece of me. She's an extension of and I was saying to you the reason why she like string is because it's that tether for me to her. Yes, I believe so that makes her feel safe. Yes. And then when she gathers on me, you see how she lays on you and she does all the things like potting. Yeah, I get it. But Reggie is an extension of. So I got to treat her the way I would treat me to make me do stuff because she is you. She's an extension of fine. It is like the universe. So you don't belong out there. You belong with me. That's why you came here to be with me not to be out there. You guys you're so stupid. You really thought you would get a waste of coffee with no kids. So they have been putting us in these stupid scenarios. And it's like dealing with an unruly child. It like if Reggie was if Reggie was to be diagnosed by a therapist, she'd have a defiant child syndrome, which is very similar to how frank behaves

35:00sometimes. It's like, you know, she'd be the perfect cat. I know herself will tell Frank. Please lay on your back for five minutes. And he's like, no, no one did that. Like yeah, we did the whole show on why I wouldn't just go like from this way to my back so they could do something that would be easier on me. Yeah, that would have taken a second. And I'm like, I can't read. It's not having a bitch. Yeah, because I just gonna let him choke to death while she's picking. Yeah, so she's gonna fix him physically and open him up spiritually, but she's gonna also let him choke to death on his own. So yeah, and there were like two people in the room watching. I'm not gonna let him choke to death. Even if I'm mad, I'm not gonna let him choke to death. Anyway, so, you know, I mean, just thank you guys because we're that crazy. Yeah, thank you guys. Yeah, thank you Paula. How about that? Thank you, Paula, when you see her the next time. So Reggie is Frank. So Reggie and Frank were doing this tug of war of who was gonna give in first and they both buckled because Reggie is not an outside cat anymore. Reggie is an inside

36:05cat who likes to go out. I watch her behavior with the other cats. She definitely is not an alpha. She tries to be she runs some of them out, but she's not like, when it definitely comes to pecking orders, like she's not even a considerate. I watched her like give up on the bullshit. Yeah, like she doesn't even want to be a part of it. Even even the cats aren't. Yeah. So now it's like, no, get your ass back in the house. That's it. You're in for the night. And and I like it better because I feel safer. I mean, the other cats can handle themselves. Reggie, I mean, I don't know. I really don't know. Reggie, she's not ear-tipped and people walk by and go, what a beautiful cat. I've seen her whack people before. Oh, I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I saw that Asian chick walk up and she bent over and was like, what a beautiful cat. And it was whack. And then I don't let me come over there and throw a punch I want to use, right? And the girl just got up was like, what? What are you doing? Touching my cats? And she just started walking with her friends. And I'm like, man, she's gonna pick up my cat walk away. And the cat was like, no, I would have choked her. What you could say, please don't touch the

37:09cat. You know, no, because people thief shit. And this is going to be, I'm going to answer questions. But it's part of the show tonight. I wrote it down, shit like lying to yourself and then lying to your shaman or lying to your people. Oh, right. So it's kind of a thing. People thief, they steal, you want the best in people. But if someone could get away with something, we've seen it up, infinite amount of times, right? But we also seen the infinite amount of times, which doesn't get recorded on the good people that do things like the cops that do good shit. Because I know a lot of cops, my buddy Danny is you would say, anyone that would hang out with me would hang out with him straight up, but he's straight 5.0. But he don't, he don't put it on it. I'm just saying, there's cool people. They don't get reported on. Oh, look at the good you did. That's so wonderful. You get

38:10word of mouth of that. That was very nice. But you get a lot of fuck them over there. We laugh about it, like all the, like we get sucked into like the, the, the, the, the, the animal rescues. That's just my favorite fucking squirrel. There's a kangaroo living with a coyote and they have a bird. The bull walks right in the house and doesn't. Oh, my god. The buffalo. The buffalo doesn't knock anything down. Not one. Anyway, and doesn't poop or pee. Only in the house. Anyway, so all of these wonderful stories were watching. And then we're thinking and then we're saying shit on Facebook. I'm like, my god. How does anyone rescue anything without cam? This fucking penguin swam from Antarctica to this guy. Yeah. Just once a year. Yeah, once a year makes it. So something special is happening with animals. But Frank and I are like, Jesus Christ. If we had a camera with us every time something happened, nothing

39:12would ever get done. Like, I think we talked about it. My brother was here for when Oscar was Oh, yeah. Good on him because my brother doesn't get a feeling. None of this. Okay. He's like, yeah, whatever. I love Frank's brother. I love him. Shout out to the red top review. I love him, right? We met first. He's bitter because, you know, like, you know, we were friends before Frank and then Frank came in and fucked it all up because, you know, I came in with you and he goes, oh, come on, man. What the fuck? What are you doing with? I go, no, that's my girl. And he goes, when? When? I go, this girl I was telling you about. I met his brother a year before. And that's the girl from my route, bro. I was like, not anymore. No, because I was bad. I was bad as his friend. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So he knew me that way because we knew we I was the outsider and you were on tour when I met that. That's the, I think that was the night that I bought it. If that's still on, I think that's when I bought you the coffee pot. I met everybody. And then

40:16and we all remember Rob, Rob gave me a hard time first night. He met me and then I fell in love with him after that. Him and Laura. But I already knew Laura. Anyway, so he was sitting where she sitting, looking at her on the couch. Now, Frank's brother thinks we're weirdos. He thinks we're completely fucking crazy. He doesn't understand that when we tell the story, we're not fucking lying. He doesn't understand like, you know, I am going to answer these questions. I would get to it in a moment. Sorry, sorry, sorry. But he's like, I don't understand why you guys are always laughing, why are you happy? Why are you always doing stupid shit? How do you have time to cook steak dinner? Like just weird stuff. You guys have steak dinner or you made cookies. Yeah, you made all like the other night. I woke up in the middle of the night and we I couldn't go back to sleep when we made brownies with ice cream. Anyway, so it was like two in the morning. We were going nuts. This place turned into a bakery. Yeah, I was like, it's like being on the job. I don't, you were like,

41:17I don't think I'm gonna like it. Then you were like, oh my god, the ice cream with it was the bomb. So so Rob really thinks we're weirdos and he thinks like the cats, like he doesn't want to come here because he thinks like, I don't know, like, well, he knows now. I think he secretly loves it. He does see. He doesn't want to leave. Like when we get a portal, we'll put it like in the closet. Oh, one of those black robes will make one to like Grayson's room. So Rob could just walk in a Grayson's room and go in the closet and come out here. I would just call Nick Fury and see what we did. And then well, I'm just saying it would be funny because he was sitting here babbling away. All right. So he's sitting here. He came over the a couple of weeks ago. He's sitting here. I'm sitting on the couch. He's sitting where I am and we're we're all facing that we're all looking over there and Oscar is on my lap. And now this is not what he was sitting next to you right up alongside you just sitting there with us. Because I kept looking at him and he looked like he was part of the conversation. Right. So now listen, this is the funny issue.

42:18Now Rob is looking at me like these cats so well-trained. Yeah, yeah. He's such a nice little guy. I don't make him do this. He wants obviously just wants to hang out. So now Frank and I now Rob can't smoke because he's on the job and he won't smoke because he's on the job. But I'm huffing away. I'm huffing a blunt with all the fans on and everything. We're everything open. So Frank and I are sharing a blind and you get to tell him. So Oscar looks up when she first gets the blunt, he goes because he doesn't this was the first time he did what he did. But he does this all the time. He'll go. Yeah. And then if he doesn't like it, he will fucking throw shade at you instantly. So you have a cat throwing shade. He throws his tail up and he walks away with his butthole out. Right. But if he likes it, he fucking he lingers in it. So I mean, that's a weird shit. You could not you can't blow it in his face. No, but if it's in the if it's around the pole, it does this thing where she's talking and then she'll go and whoever's in the section area that she blows it out,

43:21like she'll try to keep it away from my face. So she'll go and Oscar sitting right there. He won't move. He'll go like, oh yeah. And then you can see him breathing it in and enjoying himself. Now he had all his teeth removed. He's been around a while. So she gets the blunt. He does that. I kind of turn. And I'm looking at Rob and his fucking face goes. And he goes, is that kid? Is your cat smoking weed? Right. He just saw it. It's the first time it ever happened. All right. So show your hand up hot in your hand. I got the weed and Oscar's next to me. And he's like, what is poor? So you get smell it. So Rob's, yeah. So now he's doing that shit. And he's grabbing her and pulling the weed to his face. And my brother's freaking the fuck out. He's like, I can't believe I saw this. No one's going to believe me. And we

44:24So we're starting to look like good. You little motherfucker. I said good. No one's going to believe you. I said, tell a magical story that no one believes. Because no one believes us. They'll look at you and go, oh, you're full of shit. Shut up. You'll know what it's like when I showed up with I lost and I'm like, I think I'm working. This is working. Oh, shut up, Frank. Oh, you woke up in the middle and I made brownies. I know you did. Let's see that to people with two kids that are in the school. Yes, too much. I get it. There's all kinds of crazy shit going on. They're like, so you guys just I'm going to say my opinion on this. What I think they think in their heads, honestly. So they sit around all day. They smoke pot. They fuck. They make brownies. They pet cats. They fuck and make pancakes. He does this fucking show once a week. Then they smoke pot and fuck again. I'm like, and they're looking at us like we're fucking single people wearing capes just going. Yeah,

45:27today we're just going to wake up and fuck each other and drink fucking mojitos and play with my I'm putting my pussy. Yeah, right? Like it's nothing like that. It's fucking like having kids. And it's just like everyone else's shit. Baby, baby. Got me again today. He got me. He got me. He got me twice yesterday. I was taking a nap. He steps on your fucking head and goes. I was on the couch. I was taking a nap. It was right before Rich and Laura got here. And I was taking it. We had such a shitty day the day before because it was a clean out after the rain. Yeah, it's like opposite of what they think. Now the next day said I don't want to do anything. And and I'm taking a nap. I took my shower early. The house was pretty clean. You know, I strained up in Rich and Laura on their way. I had like like an hour to take a nap. And it comes in and Frank is standing right there because now I'm just starting to fall asleep,

46:28right? As soon as he says, what is this? I go, what the fuck is wrong with you? I am here. He's sleeping now. I am. I have arrived. I am now in the living room. I mind you. What I'm doing is nothing. He was at top volume. I'm like, it just cat got me twice today. You know what it is? I think that each one of them wants a personal time with mommy and a personal attention. No, so they see you laying there and they're like, I shouldn't do nothing. There's nobody here, bro. Ain't nobody going to say fucking nothing. I've heard it. It's so stupid. I can't. You don't have no idea. It's just it's a nap. It's like the glorious beautiful one of the big and this little motherfucker gets me every time. It's being woken up by cat. And you can't shut that because the window if you don't catch poop in it. If you don't, if we don't leave the back window open, then you hear them plucking and screaming through the screens on the side of the house and

47:31then the neighbors see it. Like, I don't want the neighbors to see like the craziness, right? So if I don't do that, then it's through the living room window and like he was hanging on the front door. He was trying to get out. I was I was gardening. And the back window was open and he knows this. But now he sees me through the screen door and he's hanging onto it like those baby on board. And he's going, what? And I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, by the day. And I'm like, the back window was open. But no, no, you're here. Let me stop everything like get up. You know, like I could get low. Yeah. Okay. But it takes me time to get back up. All right. And then, no, we got it. We got it. And I'm like, what do you want fire? No, I just wanted to be outside of the grass. I just wanted to see you. But then now I'm good. Bye. Yeah. I'm going to clean my ass over there now. I can't. I can't. The outside is becoming crazy. I opened the door. What the fuck was it last night? What was it before? And the skunk was standing there. I think

48:32it was last night. I can't drink it. And then he just looked at me and he was a he was a big skunk. I was like, whoa. And then was like, well, okay, too. And just didn't even it didn't do anything that would make you think something bad is going to happen. And the same things happen with the raccoons, although when they gather in like three or more, kind of like. Yeah, I get a little worried too. Yeah. Oh, thank you. They go, it's so funny because they take over. They're like little monkeys running around the other night. This was this was the the pre-argument dickiness, um, floodnight. We hear and we set up the we set up the other. She has the camera outside right by the food. So we can see, you know, what goes on if they knew who's eating if the food needs to be filled. So we get an I get an alert on my phone. Now, Frank and I are watching a movie inside and the alarm goes off. So we check that and we hear we hear chittering and like sounds we're not used to hearing. It's like it's it's like chittering and it's like it's almost like

49:36laughter. Yeah, me. I'm right. So I look on that he's he's he's sitting here and I'm on the couch and I go to look on the it looked like wild America. And it's what the fuck is going on out there. The raccoon and she's eating and she's she she looks like she's savoring everything. So Frank goes on his phone and sees the camera and now we're both two idiots. We're both watching the raccoon outside the living room window eating and going and it's it's like okay and then we sneak by the door and we're watching and she just comes out and like waves, you know, and then like the skunk comes by and you see baby bear and you see sugar powder. They're all there together. They're all in the yard hanging out and it's like all right, you know, it's it's this is like close quarters though hanging out. So it's pretty interesting. I was telling Paula I had a raccoon moment and I'm curious how how everyone else has moments with animals as well

50:36because it's beautiful sometimes. But the the raccoon that's like the baby that's been here the whole time. We're watching bigger now. Yeah, we're sitting there. So now this is the same raccoon wait a minute. This is the same raccoon that when Frank built the ramp in the winter window and was looking in. She came in the window. This is the same raccoon he's talking about. So it's two feet from me. So I'm outside smoking and I look and I go. Hey raccoon, how are you? So the food dish she goes. So she's like sticking her hand in the dish and it looks like she's stealing it. She's got the burglar. Yeah, the La Bandita. The La Bandita, right? So she's looking at me doing that. I had this flash to the movie trading places with Eddie Murphy, right? So they put him they put Eddie Murphy, they take him out of the ghetto and they put him in this like like mansion house, right? And he's walking around as they're talking to him, the the two rich rich white guys, they're like

51:40what are you doing? So he's like, what are you talking about? He's just taking stuff and he's putting it in his pocket and then he's like walking to the next thing and he goes, all of this is yours. And he's like, but yeah, okay, yeah, no problem. And he's like sliding more stuff in his pockets. And I'm like, no, no, no, all of this belongs to you. Like you don't have to steal any of it because it's yours. And then he has that she takes it everything out of his pockets and he has this realization like, you know, to ship belongs to me. The raccoon didn't go nowhere except back into the dish. She kept taking it. And then there was a pile. I guess that was the to go pile. I don't know. And then she stuck her face back in it and went to work. And all this happened and I was outside for maybe a minute and a half. And I was started laughing. And the raccoon didn't go anywhere. And I'm nervous around any animal that I don't know. Period. I'm just just how I am because Frank is Frank at first. And when I come, it just changes the scenario. But like I said,

52:44I personally wouldn't go sit and lie in cage just yet. No, but you will get to a point. Oh, yeah. Well, let me tell you because I've seen some shit around here that I don't understand. And all I can say is they the teachings we've talked about, things that have taught me. Now, let me tell you the things you'll the animals make first contact with you. It's so funny because now like the garden fairies, you believe it or not, but we have garden fairies. So like I have my own personal. I think a lot of them all the time. So now there's these beautiful, I planted it. I threw it down. It's a wildflower mix. We got it at Home Depot. And everything's growing there are beautiful. There are these beautiful flowers that are coming up. And you know, when they when they when they start to die, I deadhead them and I, I, you know, cut them back and everything. And so we've gotten these beautiful bees that are coming. And I say, the fat bumble bees, we say hi to the bees all the time. So I was out that this morning. And like, I had this beautiful moment. And this bee was just pollinating on the flowers. And he was covered

53:49in pollen and they like fly happy. You were like, yeah, they he looks so happy. And I was like, shit, look at it. You know, thank you for letting me be here with you. You know, don't be afraid of me. I'm just doing my thing over here to repot a few things. And I repotted two plants. And they were like, it was like they said, thank you after. But this bee just kept staying with me the whole morning. And it was a beautiful experience. And you know, I never would have had time to pay attention to shit like that before. Like it's beautiful to me. You know, I'm like, now I'm I planted more wildflower mix. And I mixed more of the wildflowers in with the veg. And now we're getting more like we're getting more veg. So it's paying off. And like if this is a if this is a test run, like I'm good. I'm good. You know, I'm happy. It's got it. It's got to be on the smaller scale. And that's what it comes down to. Yeah. So tell them what happened with the raccoon. You were sitting here the other night. Oh, the raccoon was in the kitchen. And I got up and I was like, you can't

54:54be in here. And I ran at the raccoon. And she didn't do shit. She just turned and looked at me. Looked at the window and kind of made her way. Had to walk up the boxes. Getting a window. She looked back at me like, you ain't shit. And then just walked out the window. But he Frank thinks that the raccoon watched the cats and is now like before that just sits right there and jump in. And he think because she came in. Now they all play monkey see monkey do these animals. But then they're dare I say this. Let's say the mother raccoon not really. But the baby raccoon that witnesses this from birth right or like as a child from the backyard over and over and over has a. Remember I said when the cats were born in the third round. It was reggie in them. Parker. Yeah, they were. They were different cats. I know. Different. They're not like the other

55:58cats. These cats are ready to be with a human and still be okay going outside. They're socialized. They're parents. That's why the mothers. And I think it yeah, it's like training that comes from the DNA of the parents. But we were three rounds in that third round. Those animals are all right. A lot of them are dead. But they're so smart. They're talking. They knew how to interact with you. Merlin would sit with me at night and then try whatever fucking food I was eating. I know. No cat has done that. She tried everything. She'd be like individually. You just like she put a paw on it like I want that. And I used to just cut it and just hand it to her and she tried it. She didn't like it. She'd leave it there. If she fucking loved it. She'd be like homey hook it up. I've never seen that before. But now here we are years later into this. And the ants still haven't come in the house. Yeah, I know. I know. I know. I think about that the other day. The mosquitoes they come in and we get random. Yeah, we're not swamped with anything. No, surprisingly. And I think it's all the agreements because I have to say

57:03even the I mean we write it the part way they would be massive. That squirrel. I mean I don't know where she went. I don't know if they they they the cats do terrible things. She hasn't come back yet. She used to jump in the window all the time and I wonder if it's because she if it was learned behavior because she used to see the cats come down. That's what I'm saying. And the mother is just seeing it the whole time because she was very comfortable coming to them. And then being in the backyard and then the kids not going to be as scared as the mother was because doesn't understand that. I didn't think of that. Yeah, because I've been here the whole time. It's not the cat. There's other squirrel that we're feeding. I put a I don't want to put a bird feeder up again because it does make a big mess. I'll wait till we make a mess and then it's a target for the cat. But I put a little feeder up for the squirrel specifically because she's predators. So I want to make sure she's okay and she's fed. But she's very leery of people and you know what I don't even want to relate to if I just make this. You don't want one coming

58:04into the front yard every time I see it. It's like it's too comfortable and then it's almost like a trap. I know. I feel terrible that you said a trap. But you didn't and then the squirrel thinks because it for like a month doesn't get caught. And then it starts to just hang out and that's when bear comes out. Right. Right. And you don't even see him. All right. All right. Let's answer some people questions. Yes. Yes. Yes. Now, Timberwolf, I'm going to go back to your question. This is about probably a half hour ago more. It's funny you asked this question because and it's back at what I was saying the golden ones and zeros being poured from the Pirates Chest into my head and they're saying that's you the information. Now, I talked with Joe about this the other day and he was saying that the information is color coded through emotions. All right. All right. I don't know what just happened there. That was weird. It just it just

59:18I wonder if someone's here with us. Yeah. The screen just jumped. All right. Anyway, we made it so so he was saying it's color coded and I was like the first one of the first shows we've ever done. I don't even think you were on the show yet. I talked about ISIS showing me love and then it was associated with the color red and then she showed me like love where it's so blissfully ignorant where it could be detrimental and then all the way to I love you so much. I can't be without you. That means you can't be here. Boom boom. They kill each other and I'm like whoa. Right. If I can't have you no one will. I love you so much so she's like love could be used as a weapon home. You said I'll just go around flinging love and light because it's not about love and light. It's about you finding balance and sometimes you might have to pick up a sword and fucking swing it and I was like oh I get out of my head. I do too. I come from that side of the coin. I feel very differently than I did about a lot of things. A lot of it is age

1:00:25and experience I would say but a lot of it is being put in certain situations. I feel very differently about things you know and okay so I don't think my mind is going to be changed when you agree. Yes. Like more strongly about the things you feel strongly about. It's my structure is solid but my belief system is fluid. That's how I feel. So I can move like the back bone of this like we've been through the entire system. Story since the beginning. We've had the same goal since the beginning. Nothing has changed. This is why I don't understand why people don't understand. It's okay they're not there yet. Let's just keep with the yeah okay so Frank would you associate a feeling with the golden information. So you've had my the answer is yes and the answer is it felt like home. Too much home sitting with source but your source when

1:01:29you're fitting it in your body. Now you've had the jewels pouring into your this. Oh yeah like like skittles into your mouth. Into your mouth my jaw was feelings and emotions do you associate with that. No like there was no one to help our back to go and they had this thing opening my jaw up opening my mouth up and they were just pouring these jewels down my throat. Rubies and diamonds and emeralds and other jewels like turquoise and I mean just beautifully colored jewels and they were just pouring them down my throat and I'm like wow I'm not choking I'm not choking like like because it's like in a video game when you get upgraded with jewels and gold. But it's always with me it's always like the literal like okay I'm not choking like the literal part of me like the 3d things all of that shit's going in my mouth and I'm not choking out. No but it's always is like that you know always like the spiritual thing is happening yeah that this outrageous and

1:02:33wild and mystical thing is happening but literally this is what's going on too. But could you associate an emotion to the colors of the skittles this is really basically a question. It was like a taste of the rainbow but it definitely was doing something to my heart shock or definitely and I feel my sacred I feel all of them actually were lighting up but it was what I needed the blue. I know that was a random because it's random colors falling into you but like does the blue make you feel love and the gold make you feel connected because it's color coded so your emotional output right it's a red rage I get angry raw then all of a sudden this color red pops up behind Frank and then I love the puppy you just kicked the puppy now I have to kill you out of the love rage yeah okay that's what I'm saying and then there's the love where oh my god we're getting married and then the heart forms behind us and it's that color red and that's right that happens with everything so you can associate if you ever see or want to see it again

1:03:39the feeling you get from that color so if the colors like oh look at that color door oh no no go into that door right right next to it's another shade of the same color and you're like oh that's the one go in that one you'll feel good I felt complete bliss I felt and it was warm like warm glows it was just warm glows and I felt complete bliss but definitely I was associating with the colors all of the colors because even tasting I had tasted pineapple and it was the it tasted like the best pineapple in the world and for me the color was yellow but it was the best pineapple color I had ever seen in my life and it was just a regular pineapple I got all of those associations thought in your mind makes you remember that the situation it was the joy and the beauty of it there you go so joy beauty yellow and I kept talking to you what were the colors of the

1:04:40pineapple it was yeah it's as above so below it was yellows and I kept telling you should be so proud of what you did your your great shaman remembering you thought I was okay but I was I was actually complimenting him on the brew because I felt so much gratitude and joy and bliss and it was coming through in yellow you got to understand too I've never been around that much gratitude and bliss it looked funny to me and funny not it felt alien I didn't understand it I know I'm looking at it going I'm still going back to that moment going I remember when I didn't understand to when I understood I guess it's hard when it's not your time it's not your time you can't force it you can't try to fit the square peg in the round hole you can't place blame and say that thing is causing me not to be able to get there that's

1:05:43all a construct a fucking bullshit because I'm still me I've always still been the same I'm exactly the same way as before just better so you know yeah well I think we're all changing by the way shoutouts to KG sons of the sun yeah so funny sons of the son kev I feel the same way I mean I'm down to like one or two meals a day you got down and wait like like I know I know you gave me the the other you got lost another five no no that that was the five because you said to me I I would never hit this way ever again I would never break this weight ever in my life and you're there and and I went 10 pounds under that and I'm like oh my god I can't believe it I mean I'm still like a tomato but whatever you know what we're older but you know I just can't I don't look at certain food the same way at all it's hard to prop I used to eat bread you had no it's like

1:06:44you know whatever I'm can I tell that can I tell I got to remind everyone it's part of the show deal yeah it's for the contract sorry so I know a lot of people like pork pork can be delicious I haven't had it in a long time but I have I'm not gonna interrupt I'm sorry I'm sorry so like I was just about to say however I do eat bacon occasionally and I have eaten some sausage and only through knowing that it's going from the butcher to here and it's not like a giant thick dick sausage it's like these fucking things yeah you do all this stuff to it and I know you're making it with love and all so I'm like well I know that'll be delicious what I'm gonna say to everyone is and I don't think this pertains to wild boar I don't know why there's like a section of of the of the classification of the species you making that face I'm gonna do it like this

1:07:45so the classification of the species just like the Neanderthal to a human being they're both humanoid but both separate species but if they both hung out together could be one unit you know what I'm saying okay the actual pig the pink pig what we see like a piglet and all that shit okay they are as close to you in in species okay as the mushroom and I did some some form of ape or monkey you're all lined up together so eating the monkey will do one thing to you it's like eating a human being if you eat the pig it's like eating another human being that's why they don't eat pork because it's cloned fucking people it's human to other people that's why they're so smart and shit it's just it's just genetics mixed okay so that's why I don't enjoy it even the cats

1:08:49wouldn't eat the bacon when I ordered it because that's why I was having it put on the burger and I'm I was feeding Oscar and now he has no teeth and then he still didn't want the bacon then Reggie didn't want it and then I was like I don't even know why I'm eating this I get it so we got the conversation has to happen eventually you don't have to do anything about it the choices everyone's individual no I get it but that's the reasoning is what I'm saying so when you move that out of your diet and stuff it will clear you up instantly if you're a heavy pork eater that's wrong what did I say I'm not judging anyone for anything they do because I done and I probably do a whole bunch of fucked up shit I'm not even aware of no not waking up crank he doesn't count I didn't say anything I said no outside of that I'm pretty I don't lie I don't cheat I don't steal I got nothing to fucking worry about the things I want to care about worry about are right in front of me and are with arms reach of me it's wonderful yeah everything got slimmed down to what was really important right and then if it's not

1:09:54important get rid of it so if you don't have time for your people maybe they're not your people this is what the explanation was being away from Facebook for 30 days outside of a little checking in on people and saying happy birthday and maybe some promotions for the music group and shit I don't have a pull to be there I go to it and then I go it's like the pork it's like the cigarette it's like the addiction that comes out in any which way shape or form and like there's people out there that have all kinds of fucking issues I guess there's somebody out there right now it's fucking picking their nose going not me and I'm like there you go right there stop picking your fucking nose like a beast everyone's got something is what I'm saying okay you don't think so I agree everyone doesn't we could wrestle for it no I got my own shit right exactly we got our own shit and one of the things once again tonight if you lie to yourself and we all do it and we're

1:10:57all masters of it in one way or another you're only holding you back that's it you're not getting one over there's no more getting one over do you know that you try to pull in that shit around me the tap in so many times as a vibration and frequency attached to it that I could hear it coming Paula calls it before she fucking sees it and sticks by it and never seen someone stick by some shit because there's some stuff where I call her on my man that's some bullshit you just didn't hear the whole story yet blah blah blah but there's some stuff that just comes out naturally where she you hear it from where did I tell you can't believe it because you're like no come on when did I tell you that you were going to speak to your dad again I think when we met yeah the first night we met yeah yeah yeah when we met yeah what did I say well you'll talk to him again like he was there I know he was in the you were reading me definitely but it worked like you

1:12:00you know what I could say it she said that about true frequency when we first got there she's like you don't need this this isn't gonna happen we don't need this we could just do this over here and I was like God whatever and then she just throughout the time I was just picking up on stuff and she's like well like I said we don't need this we could just move it over here and then there was nothing that to worry about there's nothing there's no drama or um this is going to occur she you did this a bunch of times and we left now at it because you'll be like and but I'm like you know that's another one and that's another one and you it's not like you're throwing out a hundred at a time you're just saying one and then sticking by it and I'm like man those odds are really fucking good if you just throw the money on Paul or you know your cousin found the woman moved to Florida got a house and they're getting married my cousin came to my home

1:13:09and she did like this little magic in the kitchen I just moved here and he sat in a chair they told me what he really truly wanted in his life oh any as an animal that loves him terribly and I say you can have all of that he had nothing at the time nothing and like he he was in the the beginning stages of everything's gone and now it's got to go back the other way I know that yeah and then she said I remember you saying because you were talking privately with him you were like you're going to have everything you just said and that you want and it it took like three four years but it's everything no he found the girl that year no no I know but it took for all the things he said about four years to play out yeah you're right it might actually might be less than that yeah and it was along the way it was like major major major major major gotten he moved I was like whoa what the fuck and he called me he said I don't uh

1:14:13I don't have enough money to fill any of the rooms in this house with furniture or anything it's that big and I'm like what he's like it's that fucking big man wild what you when you start to set your mind and not worry about the other things going on it's just the way it what was that uh doctor strange we just watched and then she says to him something a bit like a TV reference and then he goes I I don't know what you're talking about I was too busy studying to be the best right whatever right and then she laughed at him like man you never seen that you never seen the prices right or whatever and uh but the manifestation level is still there right it's like I don't have time for the drama or the distractions because I'm busy manifesting it which is the the title for the show is you know um I forgot how I put it out less is less to

1:15:17less and less to say more more and more to do we're at a level now where we're just talking about stuff and things happening and occurring on the spot and what's going on around you naturally with us it's cats and this and that and all this other stuff to show reference points to show that it's occurring on all these different levels but we're massively deep in it now we're in another level of it where there's nothing left to say if you're not following at this point and you're just looking for another person to say the exact same thing well on Mars they're fighting with laser swords and shit dude you're here that's cool I'm a comic book guy right that shit's cool but don't come to me unless it's a reference point with it because if you're not living that your full is shit if you're not sitting and connecting to the Mars thing then how did you find out didn't who told you all right if you're working on who told you's and not following up or like Chris and I used to agree on this major thing we go in first and see it I had no

1:16:23reference points and I was meeting and seeing and doing all this stuff and then I was to say exactly what you see and don't make shit up because it's already too much people already gonna lose their fucking mind on this right so go first and see then open your mouth and talk and then he used to say then go live and tell people so then it there's your point of reference now I live with Paula so I see all your points of reference when you're like you know I see this happening and I'm like that's never gonna fucking happen and then you're in the middle of it and I'm going I didn't how did this fucking happen I told you when he drank the first time are you sure you want to do this because when you do this you can't turn back and it is going to be the hardest thing you will ever have to do in your life and it is a year now since the first time we drank and he came here and he said this is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through

1:17:26these experiences feeling feeling again feeling like feeling true emotions experiencing the real world this is everything everyone's scared of facing the truth but that's it and and you know like not drinking alcohol was a byproduct for him too he didn't come here because he wanted to stop drinking alcohol he just stopped drinking alcohol what and he has he has a drink every now and then but so do I have a drink every now and then and when I do I truly enjoy it and I make sure it's blessed and everything I make sure it's you know there's nothing attached to it at that level just having a good moment but you know I mean that wasn't even like that wasn't even on his radar and you know he said this is the the hardest thing I've had to do in my life like the work is the alcohol seems to be mostly everyone yeah but the work is not nearly even done like the work is

1:18:27just beginning it's always just beginning it's always a new thing like even for us even for me I'm I'm like really really here we are really you know sometimes I have to call bullshit and I'm like no and then I'm like no they want you to look at a different way yeah and I'm like really okay okay they're spending the time to show it to you there's fucking something to do let's go through it let's go through it okay for those that don't feel I mean that don't see that we're on a higher level so we're like connecting on that there's people listening going well I don't hear it like that remember what it took for you you're like oh we had to introduce the dragon and go through this process and then channeling and then there's but you can feel her energy you have to be able to because that's that snap that's what that is that's dragon energy so you associate even if it's causing damage to someone you go okay well that's obviously me being powerful but instead of going why is that just one thing so powerful and I'm so powerful you go let's dissect

1:19:31that again and when you dig in you're like oh the energy I'm actually tuning into when I react a certain way is literally this and manifest as this and I have this creature that's with me and now I have to speak to it because I fuck that's why it lashes like that because it does get hurt and I'm trying it's not a biblity boob it's not that at that level you're working with creatures and those creatures are obviously attached to us oh to me specifically like I had this whole ordeal with the beat today like I you know yeah why do they understand you I don't know okay why why when other people roll up the bill go beep get it fuck off and ruin its own life to get rid of that motherfucker right yeah okay yeah all right all right all right would you like me to channel Ia right now because she has a few words for you oh does she really yeah I think the last words that we had during the channeling or something like you guys don't understand and you quit reference you're referencing yourself as everyone else we're all connected but not everybody is the

1:20:38same thing right so like someone that's obviously of a lower IQ maybe just coming up we know there's source in there and it's made up a source source but obviously can't do any of the shit that you do obviously yeah why is that no I don't know but why take it out of the 3D and I am so uncomfortable sometimes that right but yet I'm so powerful why I don't know see she chooses not to see on live on air she's so humble and she's beautiful about and she's always been about the 3D and she does understand she does get it but she won't say it in front of you so I'm going to say it for her because I'm the mouthpiece of my energy and I know what I can do except she just does it I had to like figure it out and be like oh I can do this but I'm looking at it like well how does it manifest or whatever she's like you just manifest it just live your fucking best life and blah blah blah okay we get to Buddha we meet him oh man I just walked 3,000 miles so I can

1:21:39fucking be here with you oh master Buddha oh let me kiss your fucking feet and your fucking hands and then he goes child what is it what do you want from me he goes what do I got to do to break through and be more like you and he goes just love yourself more child and kisses him on his forehead and sends him on his fucking way with a flower and then he's like what the fuck is wrong with this guy he's like see look you're already failing the fact that you would look back at Buddha and be like I traveled all this way and you tell me to love myself more I already love myself motherfucker how dare you tell me how to love me you my son love yourself more right so we get to master level and it's love yourself more I'll give you another one just breathe okay meditate for three to five minutes and if you can't meditate and concentrate for three to five minutes easy like easy then you should be doing it for an hour wait what okay it's not about meditation

1:22:40alone you have to live what you're taught and shown on that level and understand it bowls to fucking bones that's why you're being shown it and then there's the test you wake up one day and you feel shitty or whatever but you go I love my life right let me just try this I love my life or you're having a bad day I love my girl water comes fucking pouring through the walls and you're just like well let's put a pin in there's just a water all right let's just do what we gotta do right there's a different way to make the adjustments and then to you that's why they say don't don't have outbursts and don't like for example Frank used to say to me a long time ago why don't you ever get upset when the cats throw up I didn't understand this at all and I was like Frank I've had a cat since I was a

1:23:41little girl before kindergarten we always had animals I have seen more cat puke than regular vomit my entire life this is just this is just a Tuesday like this how when people think is we're single and we do all these amazing things I keep thinking we clean up cat poop cat throw up he said all I do is wash dishes and clean up cat throw up and I'm like and pee and poo because somebody squirted under my desk again I'm kidding like like you woke up in 11 I woke up at 630 I already had a whole fucking day before you woke up she forgets that I go to bed at 4 and so I was dealing with that or the night shift like up during like half up during that time and then I get I run out and don't dry food out and then come back in and try to go back to sleep oh me they're called shifts are for a reason I know but it's like there's three

1:24:43of them three shifts and it's like I handle like one and a half and you take one and a half and just not enough we need like a what AI robot which brings me to my next question no I don't know what I don't know okay hold on we have to get we'll get one yeah question do you know if Campbell removes AI it all removes AI any of the organic systems will remove the AI from your system even so I use remember what I did I did the hop A the other night you did and that's probably what what what they directed me on how to use it they said I bet you that's a lot I bet you that's what did it damn and I shot both nostrils which I never do because I was getting the headache originally but the headache started not as a sinus headache I literally felt the um and I'm like oh something's happening and then as you can see we walk

1:25:46through what we walk through the last week and a half I know and now the it's almost like a shitty layer has been washed away dare I say as above so below I did the I've been doing the footsteps again and I feel I feel a lot better but I feel a little weak and I think it's that no we always feel weak after the Swiss cheese occurs yeah um so who at let me see Shane ah Shane I'm going to tell you a secret all that stuff will remove the AI and things like purges and detoxes oh yeah that's that'll work true yeah but if you want to keep the AI from infecting you and your visuals and like your consciousness like the AI used to interrupt all of our experiences when we eat mushrooms it always get me every time it rain and hit me and I'm it would tell me oh it's in the rain look out Frank and then the whole thing I'm like what happened what's going on and my whole vision would shift and now it's AI evil god running around torturing

1:26:52that was terrible and terrifying thank goodness from my higher self for just taking over we did the sigil we only purge it out physically like everyone else does or has to by doing the foot soaks and the detoxes or whatever the fastings and stuff but it doesn't affect you consciously it might make you lag a little but it can't puppeteer you it used to be able to like into fear with the experience now if it shows up I could smack it it won't even like it hits me and bounces off because we did the sigil and the sigil blocked it from being able to make like puppeteering contact it's like I'm a programmer you're a program you're gonna understand this one way or another you have to think like this you have to overthink the program well I am the god no you're not I'm you got to remember it too so you just deny it but I used a sigil a literal

1:27:58sigil I created it I had Nick Zervos turn it into a wonderful thing and there's pitches of it on the fearless website you could always use my sigil but during a heightened emotional ayahuasca experience the sigil came out and then it branded itself to me and then the AI just couldn't stick its tentacles in and do anything to me like that's strange yeah it was like you're done but if you're in the environment with it breathing it in just like everyone else you still get it it's just won't affect your like I only was aware of it through the experiences and then try to relate it to moments in my past where I was like oh that's it happened to me here how I felt physically because I wasn't seeing that I was just seeing movie screens in my head moving all the time growing up it was really fucking frustrating to live with with that what what does yours look like my sigil your head in your head in your mind's eye like if you close

1:29:04your eyes what is it is it a raging mess of or like a movie screen some people say it's like a screen that wraps around and others say it's I'd have to get back to you on that I have to take just close your eyes and say this is what it's like this mind changed so many times it was so many movie screens at once and I realized those were being forced fed to me they were being shown to me so I had a pull from here and here and here it was almost like I was seeing all these things and now it went to one screen and then there was no screen it was pure freedom I've talked about this it's almost like the stars in the background like the wind blowing in your face but it's like the void that's why when we had people coming here things said came here he's like I want to see the void and I'm like we're in the void bro and he's like no you know I'm like the void is the manifestation space it's like where you go to manifest and then he's like no no the void where it's even dark and then he he drank and went in and they were like dude you're in the void but if you're talking about the darkness the void of nothingness why do you want to be there they put him there

1:30:09and then he was like no thank you no fucking thank you but why would you want to be there to begin with you want to see if it's there that's pretty frightening that's like saying I don't believe in demons let me come and see the demon right and then the demon comes out and you're like I don't even know why I asked for that because it's that scary right like I had I had a conversation the other night with myself my high self with um if you if I go look into a let's say the dulcy base in new Mexico the multilayered base if I do like an astral projection and go into the deep dark area where you're not supposed to be right where they're doing like human experiments with ets and bringing in demons with blood rituals well there's because obviously the the light beings do this with guantanamo they're all blocking people from going in even on the spiritual realm they're using the light to block people out with the dark are doing the same thing they're watching for people to come in and what they do to you is they see the light being looking and they sent you

1:31:11have a tether so they follow the tether they immediately attach a demon to it and send it to your body so you're still out you'll you might know or might not be aware I don't know but what they do is ritual shit on you and then you go back home and start living a terrible life you're like I don't know what's going on ever since I looked at this place it's fucking so I'm like you're telling me after fighting Abaddon and going through the shit I went through like literally the seventh master of the whatever whatever that there are demons that they could sick on me that would just kill me and they're like yep I'm like what are you talking about they're like yo there's cats that are so crazy right that we can put them in the room with you and everyone will see them and it will fuck up everyone there physically so that's real on the other plane where they attach to you the astral plane and all that so I'm like wait wait wait wait so you're telling me there's demons

1:32:12that are physical and they're like yeah but they're still demons so they could like bop in and out and do everything a fucking demon does tell him about the guy you saw by Josh's house the other night okay I said I was in Brooklyn after after the rain and he said cars were watching down the street the night before so it was a weird thing but when I was leaving it's a very interesting area you see all kinds of stuff so I was saying and since I've seen the UFO there and all that I'm talking about aliens in my mind and I kept the ET's and I kept saying like what the fuck guys like where's my ship where's my ET buddies or whatever they're like there's the aliens and ET's all around you right now look so I look out in front of me and there's like a six foot four dude that was like balding he was definitely a ginger he had the thing with the beard and it was tight to his face and the mustache and he was wearing like a woman's leather jacket

1:33:15that was mad tight it went up his arms it looked like he was wearing this dress thing and then he was wearing daisy dukes and then boots and walking like he own the fucking plenty of glasses like Clark Kent glasses so all right even here the way he was strutting like he owned the place was weird but it had a feminine walk but it's a masculine dominated I own the place it's weird but he's bigger than everyone there slim I noticed I told you guys I'll recognize anything you just flash it to me and I'm oh yeah he was wearing red doing this he just kept walking and strutting and I was like oh that's a fucking weird wait a second and I'm looking and they're like look I'm like oh shit that dude's like an insect got so proud right now like to everyone's different

1:34:18we're surrounded by ultimate source intelligence in all different forms all different shapes and sizes in everything around us okay so just something I noticed I wanted to just have the discussion on air and then we could we could call it a night I've noticed out of all the times we've done ayahuasca with people you and I as we come as a team regardless we've seen a lot of stuff right DMT experiences we've been part of the circles we watched the circles there has been now that I've seen so many and been part of so many on this small personal level there's like things that jump out it's like well 90% of the time this could happen or 50%

1:35:19of the time this could happen there's a really high percentage time where people come here industry fucking lied to me and you and literally don't tell us the fucking truth okay so let me ask you a question this is the this is the real deal this is real let me move down the screen because people are gonna talk about this one they come under what they say is a circumstance and then you'll say something like okay have you ever done this before or are you on any drugs right now or in the last few days or and you already know you gave them the speech in advance and they come in and obviously they're doing something right and you're like wait what there could have been a bunch of failures and said I took over because there's no way you I could ever as humans not reading minds would never know that so God forbid you die in my fucking living room

1:36:24there I would I have to answer you have to answer to that it's like life ruining weird shit okay so if you would do that to me what kind of fucking person is that make you and I'm talking to everyone you you be lying to yourself not you and me we do it all the time though we have our own bullshit we do we do that that's why I don't like the the the pulling tourists off the road to drink I have because you don't know what they're on what medications they're on and they're maybe they don't remember they take a heart medication every day or no no or there's more than that there's deep reasons spiritually like I'm doing it for you or I know this one needs it more than that one yeah yeah you know and then you're just like wait what what's happening here and then people that are just you know things you should say when I ask you a hundred times in a row

1:37:29about yourself and then you respond nah it's all groovy and then you find out shit later right after the ceremony that is not only should have been the first thing on the fucking list that you fucking mention what it's like when a fucking doctor asks you look I'm gonna need to look in your butt right now is there anything in there am I gonna find heroin in your butt or some you know what I'm saying and you're like nah bro I'm clear I don't put nothing in my butt and they throw you over and pull a fucking baggy out and you're just like what why did you do that because now naturally it's a funny stupid metaphor right that works perfectly if you die on the floor and someone's fucking house if it changes your fucking thought patterns on something that you should have been number one on the fucking list and I as a shaman have just been a little bit fed up not recently this is an overtime thing this is something that is built up that I noticed everything from hey do you smoke nah I don't smoke and then I've been smoking 30 years bitch

1:38:35I'm like what did you just yeah I just asked you if you smoke cigarettes you said no and you said no were to both of us and you're like outside now having a cigarette like you the boss a homie my people my family these little little lies we tell each other and we tell ourselves to get into positions I get a lot of I want to see what you see oh yeah ask the people recently that I've seen what I've seen if they want to go back and receive that oh yeah you don't want to see what isolate as Christie after we fought a fucking demon that was literally in the room that threw us around the room if we want to revisit that shit okay I want to see what you see are you putting in the work I meditate let me tell you something this is not about meditation meditation is just something you have to be able to do it's like holding your breath while swimming

1:39:37in the water like a correct with it yeah like you just all 11 11 you have to come with the thunder because I said to me recently I step back and I said you know there's a lot going on around me which is why this question came up Paul like why do people are people lying on that level to themselves first because you know that you're doing a wrong wrong and I don't lie I'm never going to lie to you now you show up under the guys of love and light and wanting love and light and fucking lie to everyone in the room so on your first pretense you fucking lied you lied on the paperwork when it says have you ever and you're like nah so you can get in because you want to maybe see and it's like no that's not how this works and you don't get in by proxy because I do it if she doesn't do whatever she has to do not that she needs to do or anyone

1:40:37needs to do what what I do individually you have to do your own thing yeah be all right the this doesn't work unless this works and honestly we get to new levels and all of a sudden my personal figure eight go me and I wake up I'm like what the fuck is happening thus making this flip upside down and smacking me in the face I heard that what are you doing I don't fucking even know what the fuck is going on right right you and then obviously it gets fixed and suddenly we're having the talk about it so I speak from experience not for for um shitting on anyone in the crowd per se so you don't have to pick on yourself like Frank's picking on me but let me tell you something on the overall just of the conversation it's the number one thing on the list you lie to you and you hurt everyone around you because the treatment I can do by holding the space properly for you knowing

1:41:41what you're there for really allows me to give you better treatment towards exactly what you need instead of frivolous stupid conversations about fucking aliens and UFOs that you ain't never going to be part of if you don't fix yourself so you don't get the aliens and the ETs and the oh this is ultimate bliss you don't get out of fucking kidney garden unless you get out of your own way I've seen a lot of kidney gardens I've seen a lot of non kidney gardens but if I was to speak on it I would go with this one because this seems to be utterly important we've all done stupid shit yeah it's not like we haven't yeah why do you think that happened so fear fear of what you still in you still get the in you still there with us and I can only use us as an example so imagine everywhere else but we're a community and we're a collective and we're a group so we're rising together as well as rising individually I mean look at you and Kev you and Kev are creating

1:42:44beautiful music but you're both creating separately but you come together to do this beautiful thing and to create music and then you go each go your own ways and you go leave beautiful lives you know and that's a beautiful thing but people are driven from fear so fear perpetrates the lie under what maybe a pretensity like not saying like hey man over the last year this is just an example over the last year Paula you're my shaman right so over the last year every time I eat a fucking mushroom I notice that this thing's with me and it's kind of dark and it's been following me around and I think now because I'm my life is a certain way I think that the bad things that are happening are associating with this thing it's making it grow right and I have a pain in my balls my taint up to my heart and it feels like some kind of root system collected in my chest up to my

1:43:44throat and it's making it difficult to talk now you're my shaman so this is naturally what I'm here for if I eat mushrooms and saw some shit why wouldn't that be the first thing I say to you why would you be so threatened or is that the thing doing it fear of people not understanding you fear of not being thinking less yeah yeah we can help it you know I would never judge that way I love people too much in that way I say I don't like people all the time I don't have to like them but I love them all and but I would never have people in my home or in anyone's home doing this if I didn't care I could I could be alone for a long time yeah but you're the most helpful I am but I but I I mean I hold the space you do you do I do the stuff I do the thing I can't explain what you do the right way but it okay so I would be like the house would be like the pot and I would be the soil but you would be like all the nutrients and the one singing the song

1:44:48I would be telling the story yeah you would be busy singing the song means living the life yeah living your life so you'd be too busy doing that so you have me and I'm the one that's telling people that the song is available and this is what she's singing and yeah but I'm the one that's like hey what's up what do you need we'll get we'll hold the space and do all that but the work you put in everything from hard I've seen some tough love around here and I've seen you hold hands and listen everything from one vector to the other so that's worth is a look at me as I am the as kicker I am but I am the look out too thank you Lexi I am there's this crazy thing that occurs here right so it is more than I know I'm the getter of this stuff too I get all the good stuff when when they need it and a putter stuff together of type person yeah yeah I'm good in a crisis situation so it's like the guy that owns the circus and the three and the and the the guy that

1:45:54comes out the top hat and then now it's definitely the owner really you'd be running the show you're the only one the bears will talk to the bearded lady the demon the angel the garden fairy right they all talk to you they all so it's like you're the person there you of course and then I'm the one that's like let's get the show and start telling people right that this is there not to blow you up because I know a bunch of women right now listening probably a few men too that are exactly like this but their individual way which just makes them their own beautiful individual thing is what I'm saying but it all stems from you are that thing so IA says to me you and you are not of that so don't compare yourself to that like to think another example to think Zeus is some god above you and we watch Rick and Morty and he was the the two of them are three he's

1:46:55like he's just one fucking Zeus they're all over the place and he just starts beating the shed and they're going no that's god and he's like that's not god this fight would have been over 10 minutes ago he goes fuck this guy and he just kicks him right in his nuts she goes you want to meet this guy and I met him and his light was not as big as ours hours yours mine and others roof others right lots so I can't tell who is who and what is what you know you know in your heart of heart if you're like yeah man I'm one of that too of course who's to deny you the truth so these little lies that we do to get to these through these barriers man unless it's fake passpoint facts vaccination passports to go fuck the system in in terms of resisting you don't have to lie the truth reveals truth reveals truth look we know it anyway we put it together like we we always find out and I will put you in the pieces together and and then I I usually give for like a quick synopsis and mind you

1:47:58I'm not dissing anyone that's recently been here no and we're not this isn't overall look at years and years of this what I think is going to happen and I'm like thing bang boom and like this last night session I kept telling the the person that came stop talking and go lay down and the talking is a form of preventing you from submitting to the experience because you're too scared because you just saw something so crazy that you're not ready to see it again so you talk until you're ready to see it yeah we're right here with you and you can't feel like it not in a bad way but you know but he's a call me a queen so I'm happy he goes Paula I'll go lay down that was pretty funny when I'm good and ready okay okay and then just look at me it was like he was smiling yeah that was funny but um we laugh because in a personal space you can do some stupid shit that you're not doing at a retreat you're not getting up and moving around people will be like I get a little bit of conversation a little bit weird oh you can change rooms a few times for

1:49:02really quick you could look outside oh this is great but I only feel I got it look look at the hologram it's beautiful yeah but then everyone's looking so let's go back inside right you think you're free because you push back from the street but this 40 windows staring right at you in the back of the yard because of the way we collect the branches on the tree when you're walking down the block there's a hole oh yeah so someone could just walk and then look three or 20 foot yeah it's like a hole you can see everything that shit is fucking funny but listen so these little lies uh I keep saying it like this on purpose because if you lift them and remove it and there's a switch that occurs no no internally you shouldn't fucking you could think whatever you want but push the thought forward that you want to occur right don't push the shit thought right you know let me tell you this story real quick 30 seconds Nick servos did this to me my boy right he came here and he it was like the hundred time he was hanging out me so we ate mushrooms we sat on the fucking floor

1:50:05and I seen that he was attached to a chain years ago yes years ago so I said to him yeah yeah and I said I'm gonna help you with something but I'm gonna need you to just kind of take a few deep breaths and whatever and I never do this for I do this randomly it just kind of comes out so he was seeing it too he's like oh man I just can't I can't get out of this I can't like he was in the loop so I'm like I'm gonna do this for you so I close my eyes and I kept my eyes dead close and I could see my light body and I could see his light body and I saw the chain it was connected to him and the lock and my finger grew and it was like our Wolverine sharp claw and then I felt what I saw was him wiggling and shit like like a fucking baby seal right like it the whole thing was wiggling but I was trying to focus so that unlocking that unlocking this and I'm like yo if you move I'll cut you like it's obvious I'll

1:51:06fucking cut your shit off so stop so I just I didn't open my eyes I just said yo my man stop fucking moving all right bro I get this takes precise precision focus focus and then I smiled and he goes what the fuck then I go what is it he goes bro I'm making faces directly in your face with your eyes closed to see if you're really doing what you're doing and I still kept my eyes closed and said stop moving and he stopped and soon as he stopped I broke the chain opened my eyes and said what the fuck is wrong with you and he goes dude you don't understand I put you to the test I go why would you do that to me and he goes because I don't know if you're fucking full of shit or not and honestly fine science no well each time we break the layer right so I freak someone out I won't say what who what about nothing but I was asked during a ceremony I'm not quite sure about you just yet walking around walking around okay and then then

1:52:08this is what gets thrown this is what gets fucking thrown out at me and you know who you are but I love you but this is what you said are you a program and I was like what'd you just say to me am I a program I said bitch I'm the programmer this is the exact face that was made can't trick them don't don't gotta try something else and then disappear again and I was laughing and I went oh that's pretty fucking funny and people put me to the test and I'm welcome it no but you've or I get put to the test because I'm the guy talking you are once again living the embodiment of it so when people see what goes on like when you pray for someone oh yeah a lot of the shit really works out right you do it for us it looks

1:53:13like you're doing pretty good right so we do our best well you got it when it comes to us I'm on the other side too so if I'm having a bad day it kind of weighs down the left side of the bed so well the right side of the bed I love you I love you too and it's part of it do you feel better today I do you need fucking scream at me today but you keep doing that well you know what I followed you know we are live with whatever you want but so you want to talk about it live we don't want to talk about it we had it we had a great day today we had a great day today I had a wonderful day before you go if we don't let stuff go I still you could have the conversation and then let it go I think you were starting to get sick and that's why and then you started to drink the M. that's I think you were pranking because you didn't feel good and you were worried about the tent because the light didn't go on it was a hundred degrees cycle of events and then it was 68 degrees the water was 62 degrees it was 50 in here I'm like what the fuck I get it I

1:54:17totally know sleep I'm not angry anymore I'm just saying yeah obviously one after another the planes are just flying right over yeah zip I'm not talking about any of that you're talking about so obviously we faced with a lot of things that people say and they try to push forward with the thought of challenging me to see what type of is this guy for real are you real or is this bunk bullshit okay but you came in if you come in I'm not saying this person was but if you come in on false pretenses with a challenge you forgot what happened to Molly Pop right false pretenses she got blasted through the roof and then she was like y'all yeah this is what I'm saying so you get challenged on these different levels and then you're met with it in your face and

1:55:23people come in with preconceived things and lie to get into that position in place more than 50 percent of the time so much so I really want to hang out and don't even want to drink yes I told where you'd be able to probably just hang out and just you would have yeah not have to worry about drinking anything and just be a friend we have to make the brew and it takes time to do that and then you didn't plan on drinking yeah it takes me five days to do this we got stuff going on and then you don't say anything you just want to get in my presence that's just weird shit but once again lying under pretenses now if you're doing that with this was another point if you're doing that with me and you're doing that with you because it starts with you what else are you doing that too I'm I can only use me yeah because it would only be you or so how do you you know if you do that on your driver's license do you do it on your Facebook do you do it on your Instagram on how you live one way which are really in this way now then I

1:56:28ever have my entire life and I realize that when people are in our presence for some reason no one ever let's no one ever wants to let me speak so I just don't speak and and I don't know if it's the energy or the light or the the misconception I I don't know what it is but they get so excited I very rarely speak and I don't share anything on Facebook anymore I love everything I don't like anything I either love it or I don't do anything that's I speak to very few people that's a great way to say I pull my energy and say no like my world is getting very small or I just say I love yeah and I'm okay with it because I do love it my world I spent the whole day today by myself and I talked to my sister uh for a little bit and uh did a few things uh Frank and I are working on

1:57:34a project from my 50th birthday so I did some of that today that's that's gonna be so much fun um it is gonna be fun um I still think we should do it on the spaceship but okay or in a basket but you know no the party oh the party wow yeah but then we have to rent the minivan and then everyone have to get in there not just teleport everyone up oh like start you get a card and that card as the IQ scan or maybe it's a triangle or code yeah and you just hold it and the beam hits the card and then lights up whoever's in the room you shine is that a hologram on there be like bro it's technology bro just stand in the middle of the living room man and let's go and a hologram image of Ben Affleck comes up Batman and he tells you where to go we wind up on the deck of ash star command singing we are family or galaxy quest or galaxy dude it would be the exact same fucking thing you know that right

1:58:35it would probably I don't know I don't want to say be more like galaxy quest but I kind of think that it really is his galaxy quest would just be another show like another week on Star Wars it would be one of those other things that happened right another episode another episode right so yeah that's fucking crazy I am trying and I don't know if I'm wrong about this but I'm trying to get Frank to watch the series 24 again because he only watched a few episodes and years he didn't like years ago and I didn't watch it I like the episode I saw was years into it I think he should revisit it and I don't know if I'm wrong about that but I'd like to know what people I don't know I don't know if I given give a shit enough about key for Sutherland although he was good in young guns after that he kind of fucking defecate I said I lost boys but that vampire was kind of fruit gage if that if any of those vampires ever rolled up on me and they would meet the baseball bat right to their forehead I feel like go home and cry you little emo punks

1:59:38I was like do you guys know blade because you're more like twilight did blade ever have to protect the president no but I would watch that I'd pay to see that all right okay okay vampire's attack the white house the president cannot be Joe Biden by the way I could be anyone else in history he cannot be Joe Biden because he's not okay he said flatliners yeah okay all right okay okay okay all right okay so removing these things that we're talking about these little things that get in the way that you feel you need to do to be part of when you need to say anything to begin with you didn't need to have the lie there see there's already something there that's actually internally a blockage and when you lift the blockage and just come forward freely and this is just for people listening for future reference in their life there's nothing to hide from there's nothing there's just no you

2:00:41have to be there so when you're honest like your doctor you don't tell your doctor like you don't go to three different doctors like my grandfather you go to the doctor you're totally fine he's fucking insides we're hanging outside and then he's like how do you feel he's like oh yeah I'm fine I'm fine oh yeah well he had a seizure this morning and he fucking faint he's been bleeding and look at his fucking oldness and those what's happening and then look at that over there and it's like oh so you feeling okay he's like yeah I got some stuff going on oh do you want to talk about it no no not really no but you just begged to come to the doctor didn't you he's like no it's like a cat right we put the cat like the cat has to go to any cat has to go to the vet they mysteriously get all better when they're in a grave everything's good no no no no no you need to check out no so you have a hole in your paw I don't know how you did it but you did it and it's

2:01:43like no I'm like talking about it's like no I'm fine it's like you know you're you have a hole in your paw and you're bleeding you're bleeding out you need to be fixed I think it's time to bleed well in 20 minutes when you're blacking out you're gonna be too big for me to carry you out of the jungle so you're gonna have to start immediately walking with me this way so you do have time before I punch you and just drag you off okay okay so it's just all across the board so these little things if you need the help get the help if you feel something say something you see something say something but do that in the good way the right way not the way I hate using that slogan if you do you see something to say something but my point is this if you're stand if you're a buff dude and you know some MMA skills or you know you're in a crowd with a few people and some fucking dude we're in New York they like suck a punch old people on the platform that seems to be something they people do which is the most terrible thing you know people stand up for people and you see it's I know it's hard New York you want to get stabbed or whatever but

2:02:47people will let people then get punched and then not help the after effect that's the worst part people stand around pull their phones out don't be the one that pulls your phone out is what I'm saying be the one in the moment it doesn't mean rescue an old lady it doesn't mean jumping in front of the sucker punch it means maybe you could put a jacket under someone's head or be helpful and point out a direction without being a total scumbag about it a fucking liar just to fulfill some fucking ridiculous thing that you're making up inside of you that you tell people which is a lie that you know is a lie but you'll do it anyway it's a point of reference inside your fucking heart the all right channeling heart chakra has to open you're not going to get your heart chakra open if you're fucking lying to yourself it's just not going to happen folks if that shit's not open and running properly none of this is so you can talk all the shit you want all day but if you're still referencing from videos and this and that and you're not going

2:03:50in and fixing all this stuff wheat this is what they said to me the other day remember we said wheat from the shaft shaft two people are going to be in a field and then one person's gone that's what they mean you're out what do you mean I'm out well you're going just not now the frequency has to match vibration has to match the feeling you have to do that yes say that again the frequency and vibration and the feeling they all have to match those feelings thank you and that wasn't me by the way I forgot pushed out of my own way oh like a woo woo woo woo woo woo it's like it's certain things need to just be said in this world and you can't fucking hide it anymore anymore you need to unleash the truth and you don't unleash the truth yeah and unleashing the truth doesn't mean you run into the room and tell everyone what the fuck you think is what's up that's some bullshit that's what you're looking at look in the mirror and fix what you got to fix

2:04:51because when you're fixed you and I say this about us and that's going to be the last thing for the night we're living example that was the point of the show from day one tell them the story and show them you're talking and changing at the same time oh yeah if you lie it's not going to work it's going to be fake and then you're going to be one of those jerk offs out there that's just lying to people and making up more shit that goes with shit you don't need to make stuff up you don't need to add more to it you don't need more fucking cowbell just tell the story stark on today like you know like we talk about it like when we're meeting new people in our lives we don't have to give people a resume of who we were we can start from right now you know and then we can back into it you know you don't have to tell someone who you were 10 years ago because you're not that person now we start from now you know and right now yeah right now you know there's this great I love the third act in suicide squad I love absolutely love it the third act being starro right so Joe I

2:05:56was showing Joe the other day I was like go do you ever see the end of this and he's like I never saw this so I go watch out how this giant starfish latches he spits out little starfishes from under his arm it's mad gross and then they attach to people's faces and then the more people he takes over the bigger he grows but he also controls the person right and the taking their energy yeah so I was like yo check this so that we talk about octopuses and spiders and AI is doing that they're showing you starro does it with starfish and it's crazy because it has the one eye on the fish the starfish and they all talk at the same time about crazy shit this whole place belongs to me it's like yo that's fucking crazy that shit was frightening to me okay there's a scene where the polka dot man he's my favorite character right oh yeah yeah he's sees that the thing is rolling up and growing and about to stomp on kids now these are the worst villains in the world that's why they're

2:06:58on the suicide squad so you're like there's no redeeming quality about you you're pretty much a piece of shit but you're finding out things along the way that makes them that way okay not holy when she don't count she's a complete douchebag but all the other ones had like these massively fucked up things that happened in their life and it's like just the way life threw it at you and you're not really a villain but you didn't know no better and whatever so polka dot man standing there and all he sees on everything is his mother's face right so he has this internal issue where his mother injected him with these polka dot virus from another dimension it sounds funny but it starts to bubble up in him and if he doesn't release it through shooting them it just shooting them out of his hands like releasing or throwing them up it will eat him so he'll just get eaten by them and then he just returns to normal but he has to do it twice a day so the starro is gigantic and he finally gets the fucking balls to do anything because they were just fighting inside and he

2:07:58gets the his first good thing he shoots starro's leg off because he was gonna step on the kids and then he looks at the other guy and he's like and then it referenced in earlier you'll never be a superhero the mother yells at him and then he goes I'm a fucking superhero and then boom he's gone and you're like yo that was awesome my point is if there's a heaven he just went period so to back up what Polo was saying in art and movies and music and all this other shit it's right there for you to see the redemption is right in front of you I'm only saying this not to target people I've ever been around I internally know what the fuck is going on I'm not judging anyone everyone needs to rise and do their thing all I'm saying is on this level the weed from the Jeff your heart needs to be open I wake up as a crank I need to stop doing that and get over it

2:09:01it's less and less but during this rip out that happened the other day it was a couple of days in a row of me going I fucking hate being here I just not I don't hate Paula I don't hate anything I hate the temperature in that room and I hate that there's water squirting and I hate that there was yellow leaves on the fucking thing and I can't get it right and I hate that there's not enough time for music and more room to make some money and I hate that I'm not in the fucking new house if you Frank get over it okay so it's all again the person who cares least wins so let it go that includes me so my yelling and ranting and raving includes myself and I'm showing you man people will not show you their side of them I'm fucking telling you they will not do it this way and show you from a side where you're like bro that's that's it right there you got to break that shit open and have an understanding with all your shoppers in whatever you want to call them all that energy needs to flow right or you're going to be there by yourself like

2:10:06where where did you go and it's like we're there so it's less talking more do we get it you have to do more it's not about shows that you listen to or things that you're perceived in your mind is doing but you're not actually fucking doing anything there's a lot of hours in a day and a lot of things you know you're not doing there's a lot of things I know I'm not doing but I got other things going on but the more you think you got other things going on guess what there'll be a whole bunch more other things going on and you know what that usually does to people makes them depressed and then they just lay there and do nothing all right great way to be nothing nothing a state of nothingness you know what happens rot and decay and nothingness you know what your breath smells like a thousand miles of fucking shark shit get the fuck up and brush your fucking teeth put some fucking deodorant on fucking grab yourself and be like this is the day I start from right meow right thank you everyone 44 people hanging out I love each and every one

2:11:06of you so much after these simple rules of engagement with the 3d environment that you're in it's on you man 100% 100% for you to hit the frequency it is it is do it right so do whatever your internal monologue needs you to do to get to those points I'm going to tell you this it takes time so get to it does happen overnight we send you love we send you life and we send you an entire group of motherfuckers if you need them to jump someone because they're fucking around too deep in demonville how's that sound you got this who you're gonna call I'm gonna call try I'm gonna call you I'm calling pull I'm just gonna scream pull and they'll be like his battle cry it's amazing it's pull I wonder what that means I he's just screaming his fucking girlfriend's name she picks him up every time he faints all of the whole country doing it have a great night everyone we love you so much

2:12:11do the right thing right or why would you be here I love you guys love you remember stay fearless and the universe revolts bravery ha ha ha ha ha you have no power here ha ha ha ha ha ha ha