
About this episode
When my son was diagnosed with autism at age two—and later with Fragile X syndrome—I entered a kind of grief I wasn’t prepared for. It wasn’t loud or dramatic. It was quiet, slow, and deeply sacred. It was the grief of letting go of the life I imagined and learning to embrace the one God was writing.
In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the pain, surrender, and beauty that come with raising a child with special needs while clinging to faith in Jesus. I talk about the silent ache of broken expectations, the sacredness of honest lament, and the unexpected closeness of God in the middle of it all.
Grief doesn’t always come from death—it often comes from the loss of an idea, a dream, or a version of life we thought we’d have. But even there, God is present. Even in our most unspoken sorrows, He is faithful. And even when healing doesn’t look the way we hoped, He still gets the glory.
If you’ve ever carried a grief you didn’t choose, or wrestled with faith in the face of life’s hardest questions, this episode is for you. May it remind you that you’re not alone—and that hope still lives here, too.
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