93. Doula Journal Entry: When Everything Is Working… Except the One Thing I Want Most
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Before you listen, please know this conversation includes pregnancy loss, miscarriage, and the emotional realities that come with it.
If you’re in a tender place, protect your heart first. You can come back to this when you’re ready.
I’ve been a bit quiet for a reason.
Not because I didn’t have anything to say…but because I was in the middle of something I couldn’t rush to make sense of.
In the last year, I’ve experienced two missed miscarriages.
The first came with waiting...waiting for answers, waiting for my body to catch up, waiting in this space between fear and trust while making decisions I never thought I’d have to face.
The second… was different.
I knew.
Before the ultrasound. Before anyone said a word.
There was a quiet, undeniable instinct in my body that something wasn’t right, and I tried to override it.
This episode is about that knowing. The grief. The jealousy, guilt, and thoughts I didn’t want to admit out loud. The experience of moving through a system that felt cold and disconnected from something so deeply human.
And the identity shift that comes when you can’t “fix” or control the one thing you want most.
This isn’t a lesson.
There’s no neat takeaway.
No polished ending.
This is me… in it.
Processing what it means to hold both abundance and devastation at the same time.
To build a life and business that’s expanding, while navigating something that feels completely out of your hands.
To trust your body again… and to become someone who can hold more, even when it hurts.
If you’ve experienced loss…
If you’re in a season that doesn’t make sense…
If you’ve ever felt alone in thoughts you didn’t think you were allowed to have.. you’re not alone in this.
And you don’t have to rush your way out of it.
Thank you for being here. <3
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