794. Fired, Hired, Next Moves, Belief System, Insecurities

Recorded on: December 21st, 2025

Episode Summary by AI

I got a Sunday text from Trey saying he is moving most operations from Notion to GoHighLevel for AI automations and my weekly work will drop far below 10 hours so I treat it as basically losing that client. I spiral into doubt about entrepreneurship, money, providing with Lexi, and consider returning to FedEx or picking up hours from PT Dom. I run cash flow scenarios, recommit to finishing Blade, and rant about small talk, phone calls, and feeling misunderstood.

Notable Quotes From This Episode, by AI

• “Business is business.”
• “We're only as lone as we perceive our peers inability to relate to what we feel or see or whatever.”
• “We're only as alone as we perceive ourselves to be.”

Funny, Out of Context Quotes, by AI

• “Full of rich motherfuckers.”
• “Good salesmen you are.”
• “If I had to get out of bed at 4 a.m. or someone in my family got shot in the face, I probably would get right the fuck out of bed.”

My Thoughts & Feelings for Today - Summarized by AI

I got punched in the gut by the Trey text and my brain immediately tried to label it as proof I do not have what it takes. I know it is business, but it still stings because it threatens my stability and makes me question my identity. I am frustrated with myself for wasting freedom and sleeping in while claiming I want big outcomes. I feel alone in my head and tired of shallow conversations, so I dump it here where nobody can derail me. I am still locked on Blade and I am trying to turn this into a wake up call instead of a collapse.

What I Did Today - Summarized by AI

Read Trey’s text ending most Notion work, replied to Trey, felt down and questioned entrepreneurship, reached out to an old FedEx boss about driving work including Park City routes, checked finances and ran runway calculations, considered part time or full time FedEx while keeping Mina hours, messaged PT Dom about part time work, worked on Blade onboarding and informational pages, vented about phone calls and small talk, reflected on sleep schedule and discipline

Business Revenue Tracker (Since 12/20/24)

Income Today: +$0

Year 1: $38,859

Year 2 (so far): $0