Zmeena Confronts A Man Filming Her Without Permission

0:00being a people pleaser. I feel like I like to please a lot. I just I have a personality that I don't like to be sad and I always try to please others before myself and I feel like that's been to my demise a lot of times because it drives me crazy when I think about how many times I've literally put other people first before me and in the end like because I'm an introvert. So I feel like a lot of that has to do with the people pleasing because it takes a lot of energy and it drains me a lot. People pleasing a lot. So I rather just like stand the house and be to myself and then I have to kind of get in my zone where it's like all right Zamina, I talked to myself in third person my life. All right Zamina, the people are ready for you to come back outside again and this is how you make a living so you got to you got to step outside, you can't stand the house all day every day and you got to get into that zone because a lot of times what I find is I'm always a life of the party by default. People know me to be like the

1:07girl that's like if I see someone over in the corner that's like introvert and quiet or that looks out of place, I feel like it's my responsibility to make them feel comfortable because I just I remember I can see a part of me in them that wants to be that way but I force myself not to be that way when I'm outside and it just drains a lot of energy at times because it's like I'm trying to make sure everybody is happy and like people pleasing and stuff and then when I go in my little bubble back home I'm like okay, whoo, that's a lot. Everybody loved me and they liked me and everybody liked me. I don't like that because I'm a people pleaser and I made everybody feel good even though it took a lot out of me but it was successful. Especially I'm not as hard as you tell yourself. Yeah I mean I'm like I'm people don't know this about me they think I'm just like a life of the party that loves to be outside. I'm very introvert. I really love to be inside and I

2:11like to be in my little bubble and I don't really like to come out of it but because I do social media for a living doesn't really work that way. I have to step outside, I have to make some angle so I have to like literally tell myself before I'm going. I have to like literally mentally prepare myself to step outside and like even like I'm kind of weird when it comes to like having company too like I have to mentally prepare myself for having company even if it is my family. Like my mom like if I know she's coming over who are you coming over with. Yeah. Let me know so I can mentally prepare okay it's not just my mom it's my mother and my brother and my sister to her husband so I can like prepare to have like a crowd. You know if people if that makes sense. You understand? Because if you just show up and you have a whole bunch of people and I wasn't prepared for a whole bunch of people in my house. Yeah. I'll go in my room. I'll be like, how you doing? And then I'll go in the room for like at least 30 minutes and just prepare myself okay.

3:15My brother's here. My sister's here. Yeah they get on my damn nerves but I'm gonna smile. Yeah. And we're all gonna. Yeah we're all gonna come by y'all and just have a good time even I want to slap that on them but you know I love you guys. I love you and I'm gonna act like everything's okay. If you show up with one you'll plus you leave it. I'll play that. You know right. Am I supposed to? No. It's meant to the mile. If you come with an especially. You don't tell me. Yeah. Like I'll be like no family. No you lie so you won't even hide it. No. I won't hide it like I don't. Are you serious? No it was one time we was um we was in. So you get my introvertness. Yeah. No. I'm just like because if I invite somebody and they didn't say nothing like if you say something I can like you said prepare. But if he's just like oh yeah this is my home brother. Now this is why I stay this is why I lay my head at

4:18this is why you know what I'm saying this is why I have like my time like this is my personal stuff. And I'm letting you into my ambiance. I'm letting you into my zone my home my comfort space. So it's like you're bringing another energy. I didn't necessarily prepare for it. And I'd be like even say I wanted to have around. Yeah. And I'd be like oh no wait outside I'll be right back. I'm gonna get dressed and we'll go somewhere like I'm I don't play about that. I like that. Standing on business. Yeah. That's that part. So no people please don't want to come to people come to the house. No like not with my piece. You don't play with your piece. Yeah. I'll be playing with it sometimes. That's why I be like needing a break sometimes because it's like a lot of times because I don't want to come up as I will not stand on business. And I let things slide. And then I be like in my bubble like kicking my own my own like why don't you didn't tell her about herself. And she knew she had no business coming over here with Shakwisha. And like she knew you don't even know Shakwisha like that. You don't even know her. And she just showed up but you didn't want to be able to show you live. And and then sometimes they thought the vibes too.

5:22It's like when some people be like when we were calling content it's my brain somebody else and they just sit there and it's like oh yeah. Like you better like if I'm the awkward one at least you make sure you ain't yeah say what's so like you know what I'm saying like don't be awkward you looking moving around like I can't be I mean or I'll leave I don't even go out I give everybody like for birthday I give everybody 15 minutes all right cool yeah I'm out wait before you finish that let me tell you something really weird right. So I invited a friend over to my house I know him for a minute I invited him over to my house but thanks given because I seen him saying on social media like he didn't have anywhere to go for things given and like his mother had moved somewhere and like I felt bad because you know the nice girl on me like wants to make everybody feel welcome that's just how I am because I kind of resonate with not feeling like welcome

6:24it's done. So before I became his amina or I invited him over and you know those new glasses that they have that record ship yeah so he's like okay I'm here with door so I tell him the door and I go to open the door and I'm like going to welcome him and as I open the door the flash comes on on his glasses I can't make this shit you know you are you know you are you listen you've been weird vibes ever since then and I have that's why if you're wondering why I haven't reached out to you since then because you really yeah yeah that's that's why because we got to a whole argument in front of my family and I had to have like you know a friend of mine like kind of like I didn't have him do it but he did it you know after strength he checked him because it was just the situation so he had the the flash on and I gave him a hug because it caught me off guard I'll open the door him a hug and then I'm like it in register it was like I see it but it was like delayed so I'm

7:36like no you're not recording I said yes you are he's like no I'm actually one more time we still at the door we still at the door like he's like I'm gonna have a quarry when he's talking about your flashes on bruh your flashes on when I'm telling you the look of stupidity I immediately hit his face and I was just like yeah this isn't gonna work out I immediately want to tell him to get out but the people please are in me even though I felt violated was like how do I play this situation I let him in and then I had to think about it for a minute like in my mind I'm like I said I'm not gonna lie I said that kind of like I talked I talked to my homegirl on the side my cousin and I was like I'm not gonna lie I said well he did just kind of piss me up just now yeah and he had the nerve to get mad because I was talking to her about it and felt like I needed to like not say anything and I was just like he's like I can hear you I don't get

8:42I'm in my house this is my crib like he's like I can hear you he's like I already said you know my bad and like you came in my home my child is here my mom is here my sister's here and this is my home and you violated without even asking me if you could film me or record me and I don't look the best for one I'm because I've been cooking I did all the cooking that that thing's given last Thanksgiving and I wasn't just not in the mood to be putting on Zemina or alter ego I was in the mood to just be my homebody self who I am when I'm not in you know presentation mode for social media so you kind of took that right for me when you automatically started just recording without me even being prepared for that and I just felt like that was very like very very rude and for me like that's why I just I would never invite him over again I don't care if you apologize or not because I feel like you kind of violated me and I let you in my home and you could have at least given me a fair warning to say like hey I'm recording this for a vlog not even that he's not

9:45even a social media influencer see that was another thing it didn't know the thing you can say what I would have said you're like be nice but he gave him change like he lied three times no the lion that's what pissed me off see me if you would have got going like you got me so she's man yeah we know by accident that's a plan mm-hmm like you call me and that was the point yeah yeah yeah