This was my day

0:00Hey, this is Strawberry, how y'all doing out there today? I hope everybody is doing well, if you thought doing well, let's find a way to get well, look well and be well because we all are somebody in life and we all matter. And I mean, we got to walk with our heads up, not down, and we got to be proud of who we are. You know it was funny, you know? I learned that my husband is not only demanded in the home, he's demanding out in public too. You know, we're out and we enjoy a meal. And before we get the meal, you know, we will obviously look at the menu. We look at the menu, he asked me whether I was, and you know, I'm like kind of like skipping around like I don't know. So, you know, I said, I'm like, I'm like at this or whatever. And so, when the waiter came, I switched up on this side,

1:00I wanted something different. And so, he was like, no, she's not getting that. And I looked bad, I was like, this is what I want, you know, it looks good. He's like, no, she's not getting that. So, was it something else you want? And it wasn't like, you know, he was worried about the price or anything like that. It was like, he did not want me to have it because well, I got caught saying the amount so it wasn't like something like, oh, I'm not spending money on that or whatever. So, he summed it up like. I said to myself, wow, you're so demanded. And he went, no, I'm not demanding. I'm basically saving your life because, you know, if you get staked, you're just going to be like, or at the chew. I was like, oh, he's like, yeah, I'm saving your life, you know.

2:02I'm making sure that you don't choke on something that you ain't supposed to choke on. So, I'm saving your life, you know, encouraging you to get something that's easy to chew, but it's down to sooo. But then, you know, I mean, it's all right because, I mean, but I gotta, I gotta eat it. But then, you know, with the bacon or the bacon, you know, I do kind of like choke on with different things, not giving them the props or anything, but it sounded so, wow, like, you know, the waiter standing right there, and you're like, oh, I think I'll have this said, you know, I don't know where, no, she's not having that. So, it's like kind of funny. I'm blowing, you know, when you're sitting down and you're having your meal just, you know, between the two of y'all. And, you see, people when they sit down, they sit down and conversation or whatever, or it might be somebody that's on their phone,

3:02or whatever, they're not paying attention to each other like they should. And so, you know, I took that moment out, and I don't know if it was like a selfish moment or whatever, but I mean, we sit down, we have a breakfast, we talk about, you know, whatever, what's that we need to talk about in that moment. So, you know, then he went into business mood. And then I said, oh, you know, to myself, not out loud, I was like a business mood. That's what he said. And I'm in hell and mood already. So, when a waiter, you know, how the waiter comes back over, was it anything else I could get you? You need anything else. And so, I went into business mood. I was like, excuse me. Do you like podcasts? And he was like, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. And a lot of people, you know, that I ask his question to, they'd be like, you know, it's like, they listen to the wrong podcast.

4:05And so, you know, I was like, why are you out of the mood? I wanted you to take a moment to listen to my podcast. And I was like, just put my name in, you know, Sarah Marie Anderson. And she said, where did I put it at? I said, just put it up there on any platform, you know, and it worked like that. And she's working at, you know, me, and my husband really said, you enjoy the meal. But then, you know, she asked me the question about my podcast. And we started talking. I mean, she forgot about words and I forgot that. I was simply my husband. But it was all good. And she was doing his business thing. And I, you know, he was looking at me like, this woman has to go to work. And, you know, he didn't say that out loud. He just gave me that little clap. You know, one of y'all got him. Excuse me, one of y'all got to like stop talking.

5:05And so she can go to work. And you just sit here with me, you know, and I kind of, I didn't feel bad because I feel like, you know, you know, if I didn't do what I did, I feel like I would have been sitting there like, are we out? Are we positive? Are we enjoying ourselves? And you don't business or something? And I'm sitting right across my, I feel like laws are left out, but no. I mean, in a different direction, I boosted myself. I promoted myself. I talked to somebody that was working. And then, you know, they became interested in what I was talking about in reference to my podcast. So we had a full-blown conversation where they talked about, you know, how families, you know, you have family and life. And, you know,

6:06a lot of times we have a lot of things going on with you. And you try to talk to your family and tell them what's going on. And they do that, you know, here we go again. And what the barber has to say today, or what the giant has to say today, is that you're burdened. You know, they don't have time to listen to what you're saying. So talking to this person, it was like, mind blown because, you know, just as I talk to other people, they say the same exact thing that this person said. You know, it's better talking face to face with a stranger than your own family because your family is like judgmental. They don't listen. They don't take the time to hear you. They don't breathe. I mean, they let their airs they plug them with the wax. But when you just sit there and you just talk to a stranger and, you know, it feels good. You kind of get some kind of relief inside of your heart.

7:06You get to breathe. You get to feel like you've mattered in the world because somebody is actually listening and enjoying the moment of talking to you. Whether the conversation is about crossing the street or just having a good day or just smiling or laughing, I mean, we didn't even have to think about what kind of conversation we wanted to have. And, you know, I basically just talked about what I talk about on my podcast. How I like people to be the way they're supposed to be and I hate, but find love and stuff. And, you know, we just went with that and it felt so good. And I mean, I felt like I had some kind of power that said, oh, wow.

8:07You get to talk to anybody and, you know, people ask me that question, you know, if we put a camera in your face would you freeze? Would you know what to say so no, and it's funny because my husband spoke up and he was like, somebody put a camera or something in your face, you are going to talk it's like a robot. Here's my, you know, and you won't shut up because, you know, as we were sleeping, he was like, you know, this person was supposed to be working. I was like, she was interested in my conversation. I was interested in hers. I mean, it didn't seem like a problem for either one of us and, you know, she said, she was going to listen to my pocket. So, you know, she said, I have a business card but I didn't have one because, my daughter, she made me some before

9:07but I gave them all out when I was in Atlanta City. So, I said to my husband, when he said that to the Mrs. that was serving us at our table, he said, she should have some business cards. I don't know if he was saying that to throw a conversation or for a part of the conversation, but since he said that, I was like, oh, yeah, I had some business cards and your daughter, she said she was going to make me some more. He was like, you mean our son? I said, no. Our daughter said, she was going to make me some more but she didn't get around to it. He said, my son didn't get around to it. I said, well, since you asked that question, she didn't get around to it because she waited for her daddy to give her money so that she can make more. And then, you know, all bets was all he was quiet and back into business moves.

10:08So, there you have that, in life, and then, you know, and this day is like, tricky because, you know, my daughter, her and her fiance, they planned a day to go to the movies, you know, to see two movies and, you know, they were scheduled to be on the, the vehicle, the CCTV, and, you know, the fiance, he was late because he came at the time that the CCTV was supposed to come, but the thing that, having with that, my daughter was staying at the door, and she was telling the CCTV, you know, your 15 minutes early, um, he'd be here, since it's time, so it went like this, it was like, at 11, 10, my daughter stepped out the door, and, you know, the CCTV is my own blow and the CCTV looked at it.

11:08I mean, you can see that she was coming out the door, and, you know, like with the ice-clean truck, you see the ice-clean truck, the ice-clean people see you, and you run behind the ice-clean truck, wait, wait, wait, wait, I want some ice-clean truck. And, you know, my daughter was at that position where she was like, hey, where are you going? And, you know, they literally, like, pulled off, and, you know, then my husband, right, he was pulling off, he was, he was like, um, where's our daughter going? She was chasing behind the CCTV, and not on it, and, you know, we had this plane that, you know, her fiance was laid or whatever, so he got in his car, he made a new term because the CCTV left the parking spot she was in, and she went up block from our house, and she sat there, and so, I was in to myself, um, if she was only,

12:08or he was going to just go up block, and sit there, and wait, or whatever. Why couldn't they sit in front of the door, and wait for my daughter's fiance? But then, my husband, he wrote his heart up there, up block, you know, told my daughter come back in the house, or whatnot. So, when she came back in the house, he had wrote up there, and he came back, he said, oh, she said, she can't put a room and they have to cancel or whatever. So, I was like, oh, but she's seeing her coming out the door. So, you know, I'm, I don't lost all healing processes, we breathe or whatever. I was, I breathe, moved, meaning that fire was coming out of me at that point. And I don't know, I'm called the manager. And the manager says to me that, you know, um, we, we have it where the vehicle was ten minutes early, and since the vehicle was ten minutes early,

13:08they waited, and then when 1110 came, um, even though your daughter was walking out the door, and they saw her, but when they pushed that button at 1110, that means that she is considered a no-show, and she can't get on the vehicle. I was like, what the hell? I ain't never heard of that and like that, because I mean, if they right there in your face, it'd be like a no-show. Do you become invisible, um, after a certain time in life, or whatever, so I mean, it kind of like went through me, it was like down or here, because I could not hold nothing in that I needed to hold in, and my daughter was looking at me, like, I didn't do anything, and I was like, I knew what to say or anything, but I mean, it was disturbing, because I was like, why would they hang like that? So they told me that,

14:08you know, my daughter was going to have a strike against her poor no-show, and they made me even more furious, because I was like, what the hell? What kind of shit is this? So I was like, well, she has a return ride that, you know, just for the day, because, you know, the vehicle was a taker to her destiny and bring her back, and it was like, well, if she missed it, then she would have two points against her, and if she didn't do anything and a month's period of time, she could suspend it for that month, meaning they're taking that picker up at all, and I'm like, what of, you know, and so is my blow and in, and when I'll do all that screaming, pressing, and telling my daughter, you got to get this up, you got to sit down, when you're going somewhere, you got to be on time, you got to be this, you got to be that, you know, sniffing about it. I mean, you have to understand that when you make plans,

15:09the plans are put to be important. You're put to be on the same page. I was just, you know, going through the motion, rattling. And I mean, it was like real fire coming out of me and my husband, he was like, I have one way over here and then he was like, okay, see all that, you know, he would take care of something, but, you know, it was like my brother and I'm texting him in angry voice, you know, blah, blah, blah, blah, and why I'm texting in the angry voice. I'm also fussing at my daughter that's sitting in front of me and then, you know, with dad, he was like, it's all right, you can fuss and text with me, but he didn't want to hear me fuss and text but he was in the house. He wasn't there not being in front of me while I was throwing out fire. So I'm being in the car and away from me

16:09while I was angry. That was okay for him, but to me, I mean, my daughter was left in the fire. So, you know, like a couple of minutes, a half an hour to be exact, went by. I kind of took a deep breath, but then I think I say he walked in the door and it was like gasoline was lit to my ass again, because I was like, what the fuck, why? And I'm like, as you can't be on time, I'm like, I just lost it. And then I said to myself, oh, breathe, and he was standing at the door, but there's no point in space. What, I don't know what I did, you know, he walked back out the door because, I mean, he's been in her life for a long time. So he kind of knew when I'm upset, I'm upset, and it takes me some time to calm down, but I was, I was rattled because the fact that they said it's a no-show,

17:10and she was right in their face, and, you know, I find that unbelievable, and when he went outside, he said, damn, and then my husband was like, oh, what about, I'm asking your son to take him. It was funny to me because my son, he don't, he's not allowed to drive the car without my husband's answer. So why I'm asking that, he's, my husband's on his way back from his mission, and I'm calling my son up from the, you know, where he sleeps, and like, men and women, can you take Sarah and Dominique to the movies because Dominique was late. And you know, I said it just like that, and he was like, well, I don't have no core, and I was like, you know, my husband was still on the phone while I was at him, and I was like, here, take this phone, and, and up to me, he didn't like communicate.

18:13So the phone was giving back to me, and my husband was like, what did he say? I don't know, I gave him the phone, he gave me where I was from, was he told me or whatever, so I was like, maybe I can take Sarah and Dominique to the movies, he's like, I don't have no core. I let someone put them on my back, the answer is no. And so, my husband was like, tell him that I'm on my way back with the car. So I said, they say he's on his way back with the car. I mean, we got two cars though, so I mean, that's why it's mind blowing. So my son goes, if he's on the way back with the car, he need me to take them somewhere for it. And I'm like, look, if you take him on my knock, he's like, if I got a car, I'll take him. But I'm not right, nobody on my back. So I mean, he comes upstairs in his, you know,

19:16shorty shorts and everything, and I'm like, she does mean he's taking them and my daughter, she ain't got so disgusted because I had fully gave her the blast and her fiance. He was sitting near like loss of like, what the hell did I do? I was only late, you know, but, you know, everybody day was messed up from this lateness and, you know, so then I told my daughter put her coat on and she was like, what, what's your going somewhere or something? I'll tell him, y'all could still go. It was like, I don't like disappointments in my life. And I don't like nobody to disappoint my child. So long story short, my husband found the scenario to have my son take them on their adventure, that was going to the movies to see two different movies. And I was like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm going to use this in two different movies and it worked

20:18out there had a nice time and they enjoyed itself, but they felt that tell my son that they was going to see two movies, so he used to take them up there and he waits, because the movie uses two hours and I was texting him. I was like, you know, they're saying two movies. He's like, no, so he might not come back home. I take my sister, my daughter, and I said, y'all and y'all, hey man, that y'all's wasn't too much. Oh, I was like, God, I'm telling you, I say he's on his way home and whatever, but y'all should apologize for that or whatever. But that's how my day went, but, you know, then after that, everybody was in the home world of the old gang and everybody enjoyed right and I got into my podcast. I mean, I sit there and I said, let me do something different,

21:20so I decided to have a sizzling summer podcast party. And what that is, that's when you just sit there and you just listen to the music and relax into the music and you being your own boy with him, if anybody talk to you, you don't really hear them, so I mean, I was deep into my podcast party where it's there, my walker, I walk with a walker, okay? So my walker was like my partner and I was dancing with my walker and spending the day around and holding on to really dancing and everything. And I was enjoying myself and then I said, wow, this is something that I did get into, what's time for me to come upstairs. And I also got to, you know, get on my smile, so I had a real groovy exciting day, you know, because I breathe after I finished how I went. So right now I'm gonna have no more fire with me,

22:24but it's almost time for me to get ready for bed and just be me myself because I love myself and I understand myself and every now and then, even though you're staying in your hill and sometimes you just gotta air out some of the things that you're holding in that you say, oh, this is not part of me, I'm just gonna walk away from it, I'm just going this is, I don't see it as invisible and it's kind of like, how they treated my daughter like, you know, this is a no-show and I was like, I'm no-show, they right there in your face. How can you not see them and not let them get warm when they're right there? And so, you know, in life, we all had to breathe and we all had to live and we all had to learn. And this was a lesson that was mine, you know, I learned that. It's all right to talk to people that you don't know

23:25because you never know what you're gonna learn when you talk to these people. I also learned that my husband is demanding on the outside, not just on the inside and I also learned that I let out a lot of fire on my daughter, which the fire shouldn't really be aimed at her, it should have been aimed at her fiance because he was the one that was neat and caused everybody's schedule to be mixed up and so even with that CCT really is the key punch of that lit my fire because they call my daughter a no-show when she was right there in their face looking at that glass door when they pulled off. So, they've had it and, you know, I praised my God today so here I am and I'm on my podcast

24:29and I hope everybody wake up, smell the coffee, breathe, think about what it is that you're angry about, upset about, a mad about before you get the rest of the world angry and mad with you because, you know, what they say, misery, yes, misery loves company but I don't wanna be company of somebody that's miserable. I wanna be company of somebody that's happy. So, you know, I learned to breathe and, you know, I sat there and I gave my daughter a hug and she came back home with girls' job cookings which she knew that was my favorite thing and she had me cover my eyes and, you know, and that time, a period of her coming back from the movies, she's like, oh, my God, just this girl don't stop giving me surprises. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I closed my eyes and she put these two girls

25:31out cooking boxes in my hands and I was like, oh, my God, because every time they sell girls out cookies, I'll tell my husband or somebody. Make sure you all get me a box and she brought me two boxes so that was really nice and then I had her cover her eyes and I gave her a bottle of launching detergent because see if she runs out, she's not that person. It's gonna say, oh, I ran out of launching detergent. She's just gonna start a different machine that the world take the clothes and the serval swoosh them off and pull them in the dryer and say, okay, they clean. Because they're not clothes that sit in every day, they're washed every day. I mean, take them off and they're going right into the wash machine and it's new. I'm gonna wear this for seven days or whatever. It's getting washed every day. So I mean, you have that. All those things are positive things that happen in my day.

26:31So, cut doodles, you live in your lawn and life is what it is. Sometimes it's a mystery, sometimes it's a venture. But when you got that, so remember in my life is so, so, so, so, so, so, so real. You got to make it live it and learn about it. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now.