The Selena Gomez Episode

0:00I don't like to gossip, but I do think that gossiping made us human. Didn't I say this to you? You did. This is the second time you said something like this to me. Is this happening? Yay! Oh my god, guys. It's a surprise. Hello! How are you? It's the four husbands that I've never heard before. Hey, I would have just done it real quick. Honestly, I finally have a girl with me. I was thinking about this today. Would you be jealous if in a movie, Dave, like, who's the hottest celebrity? Selena, no, I've told him. No, who's the hottest female celebrity? Where the fuck did that come from? Because I'm always like, you can only have a love interest if it's Selena. No, no, but who's like, like, so, okay, what would you say? What would you say if Dave goes, oh my god, I got this role. It's an amazing role. It's like Tarantino's doing this new movie and it's me and Margot Robbie and it's like a sex scene. Okay, really hot sex scene where they're like...

1:02And they have to both be fully... And he didn't write it? Yeah. Dave, Dave... Dave did not write it. Dave, Dave didn't... I don't think he got the dream job. No, no, no, no, no. No. They, like, like, Tarantino brought him in. I'll be glad. And he said, and he said, hey, I really want you to make this character your own. And like, they were supposed to have like a sex scene, but it got Dave maybe made it a little bit different. I know my answer. What? You made it a little dirty. Honestly, my true answer would be, look, you didn't... Sign up for this shit. Yeah, you got the... But I would say, being that Selena is an actress and one of our closest friends and I'm the most comfortable with her, I'd say, could you, could you talk to them about putting her in? Nope, sorry, she's alright. Yes, I could. Margot Robbie's already in it. Well, then I would, I love Margot Robbie and I would be like, man, she's so pretty. I'm sad. She's so glad that she's been mad. What would you do? Babe, so what would you do if I said... Our relationship wouldn't be over. She's...

2:02You know the question? No, I don't, I'm just... No, I think you know the question. If Benny has got cast, Steven Spielberg is like... Benny, there's this role for you and it's unfortunately, it does involve a sex scene with... Your name? Margot Robbie. Uh-huh. Uh-huh. And... She's so pretty, it's so tight. I don't, I think, yes, realistically, as an adult, oh, give you the answer of... Yeah. ...if this is what he really wanted. Yeah. I'd be a little perplexed at him wanting to just randomly do something that he wasn't in control of and just signed on to do. Yeah. No, but he would be a little... It was Martin Scorsese, your Steven Spielberg. And I didn't even... You have to be honest. Like, even if you worked with someone that was not that and you've really believed in the role, I'd let you do it. Yeah. But if you were just one day like, I wrote this and I'm gonna do it. And I'd be like, great. So, sign here and that's our divorce. Well, I'm kidding. What would you do, Chuck? Kristen's making a show right now.

3:04And like, they can't find... They can't find anyone to do it. And you have to be an actor in it and there happens to be a scene where she has to fuck MGK. Machine gun Kelly? Yeah, and she wrote it. I can't just say. Yeah. I feel like you wouldn't get jealous. You got more jealous of the fact that she has sex with her soul. Oh, the machine. That was the only time I've ever seen you, jealous. Yeah. I'm threatened by machine work. Okay. Why are you so threatened by the machine? Because I'm sexually insecure. Don't mochi. The machine has nothing on you. I would, yeah. But I know the efficiency. That's not true. That machine's got everything. No, I love him. The machine has consistency. One thing I've learned, one of those things, this is my theory on... My theory is, is that one big contributor to making women come is actually brutal consistency. I agree. It's just because it's like a build in a woman's mind and then if it's disrupted with anything unpredictable,

4:04you might be taking out. So, you know, what is more brutally consistent than a machine? Of course. Yeah, if you alter like one centimeter, no, like, a half an inch over, you could ruin it all. I give what you're saying. So, what's more threatening than a machine? So, I don't know. The machine isn't you. It's so fun. It's brutally consistent. No, no, no. It's not the same. It's not. Women like the same. What have they made a machine that looked like Dave? No. No. I wouldn't care. I mean, I just know that if it was his warmest day. This is from your person. I really trust Kristen. And I really feel like she looks at me like I'm the only one. So, I really... I do. And I think she would behave in a certain way that was so over the top, like, respecting me at every moment, even when I wasn't there. I like that. Selena and I are probably the only women. Maybe not. I wonder if we'll learn after this that there's other women's position. But we are. Can I already tell you? We have such a unique position to be with the two of you who are like your best friends, but you're like so hardcore best. Like, to the point that sometimes...

5:05I feel like it's... I wonder. First off, it exists. We're so made of friendship. Yeah, it's like what girlfriend does. I just thought of an amazing movie. What? Like... Well, didn't... Don't say that. No, it's fine. It's a first lesson I learned. I think you're right. It's a... It's a... It's like a couple... Two couples that are best friends. They get married. They become best friends. And then the two guys... Grayson Franky. Turn gay? Grayson Franky. Grayson Franky. Who do you think him turn gay? Yeah. Biggest show. What do you guys did it? But it's the biggest show. Oh, really? Yeah, John Hoppen. Grayson Franky. What's that? Literally what you're saying. They married... Their husbands married each other. And then they lived together. They had a divorce. So they just lived together. Well, maybe we can do it Grayson Franky. That's great. That's got nothing to do with our dynamic. Yeah. That's John Hoppen. That's so sick. That's so cute. That's the guy you did our show. Yeah, yeah. When are you going to do a movie? That's what bothers me. Probably next year. Okay. Well, finally. Yeah, I'm working on it. Your enthusiasm is what I do it for. It didn't feel that in... No, I know how you speak.

6:05You see, I know how you speak. You're never going to speak in a way that's going to be overwhelmingly enthusiastic as far as... Visually. But I know that it's real. That's a blanket. Can we like... Let me drive you to the blanket. One second. Wait. Should I sit, like I'll sit here? You can do anything you want. We're all rigged up. I just really got cold out. I know, should I shut the door? Dave hates for the door to be shut, but you are a chilly girl. Yes. She needs... I think I have... Get her the scar. Thank you. This is perfect. Look at this. I'm going to turn this into... Maybe the world doesn't know to make this. Look. Is this cold? They know. They know. They're going to touch you. Yeah, they know. They know. They know. They know she's cold. We started talking about Twitter and Instagram. And then me and Dave were talking and then Dave said, I don't even think Selena follows me. And then Dave goes, does she follow you? And Kristen goes, yes, she follows me. And then she goes, should I send her a DM? And then I said, oh, that could be funny.

7:06She said, I'm going to write, let's fuck. And then she said, oh, no, I have so much anxiety about sending it to her. Because there's 400 something million people. And I said, but you're sending her a DM. And she said, I know, but there's just so much pressure. And then she said, is she even going to read it? Like, or is her team reading it? And then I said, well, she doesn't even read my DM. So it doesn't... I don't, my DMs are weird. It's interesting. Because I go through phases, people who know me know this very well. I go through phases where I completely deleted it off my phone. And I've gone years, two months, today's doing it. And I like it. I can tell when I get a little feisty that I need to maybe calm down. So I will admit to that, but I'm just very passionate. Overall, though, my DMs are so random, you guys, because I don't know what is what. Like, for the hell of it, where's my purpose?

8:07There's a thing that I would really love to do. So I would love it if we could go to the thing. So you know how you have DMs and then you have that other folder? Yeah. Okay, I want to go there. That's the other folder. Is that request? Yeah, and go to top. And then I want to see, I want us to see, like, the craziest people that have DMed you. See if it's DMed you. Type in his name. Okay. And then, just, uh, hard eyes and figures crossed. Oh my God. What year was that? 22. Oh my God. Okay, now we gotta go. Wait, wait, wait. It's possible because we don't see what he was responding to, right? No, there's nothing. There's nothing. There's nothing. He just, he's just saying, like, fingers crossed, like, that you answer me back. No, I think you respond. There's no response. That's not how it works. Yeah, of course you could. Nope, it would say a response. It does say it would respond to a story. There's no response.

9:08Oh, man. He is kind of DMing you. That's okay. You know what, on this note, on this note. Yeah, it was good to say. I think it's very kind. If anything, that was very nice. It was, it did not feel inappropriate. By the way, that was the first time I've ever seen it. Okay, wait. I just want to see it. So, my eyes can see it. That a friend had him slide into her door. We still say slide. Yeah. I don't know what it is. Oh, I know what it is. You do? Yep. I do know what it is. I feel like now I'm on one of those lives, like, high. I do know what it is. I love it. You'll love it, Selena. Well, so, no, these are for my mom. This isn't. That's not part of this. You're in Fritos Delivert here for your mother? Yeah, but are you telling me we're going to have Frito Pai? Nope. What I'm going to tell you right now is. I know what it is. We're going to do a little something. That I'd like to discuss. Babe, what is your favorite thing to eat in the world? Oh, that's too hard.

10:09No, like a good thing. What's your favorite snack you eat every single night? That's salty. Careful. Dave, what's the least favorite thing you have on planet Earth? I don't want to do this. What's your least favorite thing? Well, I'm not doing it. Now, Dave. This is so funny. Now, I like the bread and butter. I instantly feel the feeling of wanting to find it. We're all going to eat a pickle at the same time. Babe, will you have a pickle with us? He won't do it. Mochili? How's Benny? Dave? They're so sold on this pickle, baby. I really don't have to. Show me, show me, show me, show me what I'm doing. I have to, like, I'm not doing this. 100% of my mouth. Hold on. Wait, you have to chew the whole thing. Whole thing in your mouth at once. I honestly feel like the feeling of vomiting. Are you about to throw up? Here, eat this one. It's better. Chuck, Chuck, whole thing in your mouth at once. Look at me right now. Eat this, it's better. Okay. Okay. I, this, honestly. One, and you could spit it out after, after, after three seconds. Three seconds. Three seconds, okay? Huh. Okay, you're ready. No. Oh my god. No, I don't care.

11:09I don't care. You have to put your mouth for three seconds. No, you have to put your mouth for three seconds. We got it. Okay, don't do that. Don't do that. Nothing to see. Do you like it? No, I hated it. You know, don't drink the thing like it's. Switching it up. Total 180. Okay. Did you know about, I've never even asked you this. Did you know you were bipolar before you were officially diagnosed? I knew something was wrong, but I think I was misdiagnosed. Yeah. I think people were just assuming, and I would try multiple therapists. And that's why it's hard. It's actually really hard when we're talking about these things. And for me to go, go get a therapist. It's, it's all of it is so, that you can complicate it. So, you have to go through like multiple different people. It's, it's so hard that you can't, you just can't give up. You have to find these things. Like, I'm so grateful I went to four different rehabs because it all helped me understand it. The crazy thing is like even Selena will have like moments

12:14where like she's, she's, she's having mania and she doesn't know. Yeah. She'll start to realize she's having it after. It's happening and sometimes she doesn't even remember when it's happening. And it's such a delicate thing because it's like, you can't really, you're not supposed to technically talk to the person really about it while they're deep in it. And it's like, I've even dating her and like she's so hyper aware. Like she'll say like, she'll be like, I think I'm feeling a little manic. But I'm equally like so proud to say that I do have moments of mania, not like ashamed at all. Yeah. Because I can catch them a bit quicker. But it is helpful to have a partner that will understand where maybe the temperature is at and meet you where you are. And then you kind of gradually understand it. Yeah. Once you found out what it was, do you now like live life freely? Really? Oh, really? Really? That's the problem with misconception. Yeah.

13:14The, the, the whole hypocrisy of shaming people for therapy or people not understanding it is that it's just not for you. Yeah. So that's completely fine. But for me, it finally allowed me to go, oh, that's why handled things the way I handled. For sure. That's why all the other people were able to get over things quickly and I wasn't. And I would act out of fear, I'd act out of love, I'd act out of passion. It was all inconsistent. It was crazy. My favorite part about being with Selena, like one of my favorite part, I don't know why I'm saying her name. It's normal to say it to your partner. No, one of my favorite part, no, because I don't say Selena. I understand. One of my favorite parts about being with you, we like take each other as we are. And I don't feel uncomfortable going into her and being like, I think I'm having a hard attack. And just like her talking me through it, or her coming to me and just being like,

14:15I think I'm like fully manic right now. And we're not judging each other at all. That's so nice. I feel like sometimes this is like not me. I, well. You're a Sam Judgemental? Yeah, in a good way. I think that it's real. No, but I think this doesn't need to be like dissected. I'm just saying I think it's hard sometimes to exist and feel comfortable truly expressing how you feel out of fear that it is too manic or you're being too of this or you're being like to that and I think there's I'm going to but I'm going to but you are. I'm going to button this conversation to be honest. All of these terms and everything can get so confusing. And yes, there's many others manic. There's manic depressive. There's all these different terms. You are not defined by a term ultimately. It's just informative to seek and talk and listen to podcasts or listen to certain things that will actually help you get information.

15:15So I would just say to the world in this kitchen that no, I still have to be me in this. And I just would say it sounds so too wishy, washy, weird, but I do believe that there is a lot of hope and you can hopefully find that in your world and if you have faith, I get it too. You know what it's just so you're saying that just there really reminded me of the insanity that when you speak, you're kind of speaking to the world. That must be super weird going. No, no, the kitchen. No, but you're I've never ever had to think that way. Even as a famous person, it's like you you like does that way on you where you feel like it at all times what you say is going to have an audience by pretty much like a. I don't know, I don't know. The numbers are never necessarily threatening to me. I don't really care. I think one of the best parts of living freely

16:18is that you don't put any sort of value behind it. Yeah, so yes, I understand the logistics. I'm you're aware that I'm followed like I get it, but I can't be what everyone wants, but I do know that if there is someone watching that follows me in a way that they respect my journey, I respect my journey too. So I would love to tell it. And I also equally love to be like encouraging someone else to tell it. So it's not weird to me. We're in. Well, yeah, we're in the outbreak. What ad? Airbnb. What about Airbnb? Have you ever seen anything better than this? What is the same? What is that? Okay. I honestly look at this house just to check in on it all the time. Really? Yeah. Really? Do you think this works for our ad right now that we're supposed to be doing? What is better than actually talking about the facts of hand-of-life, us on Airbnb's platform, booking beautiful would-be-seeing laws? Incredibly.

17:18Let me see the kitchens. We'll have a good kitchen. Incredible kitchen. This is literally incredible. What's the car ride duration? Not long at all. Would you do me a favor? What? Put your feet on the ground. It all wants to see your ankles. Airbnb, get back to the episode. We respect you. Ready, Claw! Go. Isn't your ad- Keep going. I'm in the middle. Go. Again? Go, keep going. Okay. Well, first of all, First of all, you're riding past, fine. Personally, I'm a peach guy. I'm a mango strawberry ruby grapefruit, and I'm blackberry. I just, you know, I got the hand that I was dealt and I love black cherries. No, no, what do you- What do you mean? We can't open it on the thing. Can't? No, you're not allowed to. I'm gonna open it, you can't drink it. You can't open it, but you can't drink it. Yes. I just like to stare at my peach white cloth until I'm off camera and then I drink the whole thing. Please drink responsibly. Hard seltzer with flavors. White cloth seltzer worth Chicago Illinois. Cheers! With that, we're back. We're back in that episode. Go, go, go, go! I wanted to tell a story, which I'm just gonna say it now. It's worth saying that we didn't really know each other. They went off to play the arcades and games.

18:20And you and I played air hockey for like, I don't know, it was like, oh, it was a long time. Yeah. She won, she beat me every single- I was giving it my all. Oh, you suck. No, I'm like pretty good. You must not be a good air hockey player. That's not true. Are you in a league air? I'm stuck here. Just let me have the moment. Are you in a league air hockey player? No, babe, you know what's annoying is that you're better at all of the things. No, I'm not. No, not air hockey. I think she would be in air hockey. It's so hard. You have married them. I'm not even saying this is to like, to your horn. I was truly like, this is fucking weird. She must play air hockey like a lot. I don't. That's the thing. I think something's burning in here. Yeah, do you want to make sure that's okay? Or is it the heat? Did you just turn the heat on? It's never even been hot. Okay. You want me to turn the fireplace on and it'll warm up in a quick way. Yeah, why not? What the hell is this know about? Let's get warm, I'm right. What can sound? You and Selena are the same where you would like to be. They smell like something's burning, but I think it's all good. If they do get married, Selena, and you and I have to live together,

19:20it will be hard because you like to have it. No, if we live together, we could get the beds that would be different temperatures. I'd be willing to try that a lot. Are you so happy that Benny's best friend's wife is Kristen? You have. Why are you speaking in the third person? No idea. That's just because I want to go outside. No, I want to get in there. You need to hear it. I want to get in there. I want to get in there. Because it is the best feeling in the world coming into Benny's world was really fun and exciting, but different for me because I was very shy. I didn't know a lot of people and I kept to myself a lot, which could be misconstrued. But he was very nice and introduced me to a lot of people. And I'd say Kristen is definitely on top of that list. Well, girls, we say second favorite is probably me. No. No. You're up there, yeah. I'll talk through that. You are. By dream.

20:21In my dream world, we're a four person couple. If you live together, we have a contact. Wait, Selena, we found a house next door to you guys. What's your dream world? In my dream? I think it's, yo, sorry. Yo, do you say, yo, sorry. You say, yo, sorry. Okay. In my dream world, you guys live next door to us. And we have like children. And then like maybe a few of our friends live. And it's not a commune. We just live in the same neighborhood. No, but here's the thing. A different neighborhood. I think, like for me, maybe the Bay or some, I don't know. Do you like Oxard? I do. I probably really is. Because I'm down to this thing in the night. I'm not rolling my eyes. I will say. We have our dream home. It's that I've never pictured. No, we do, honey. I'm just thinking of their personality. Unfortunately, well, we're not quite there. So I think, financially or then? I think maybe we move you guys a little bit more towards Michigan. I'm here.

21:22For you, we don't. No, do you want to know why? Because we also know when each other would need time. Like, do you think I am similar? You guys have moments of being similar. Where it's like, if I'm out, it's not because I'm mad. It's like, I don't know. You're not similar to Dave at all. Yes, you are. No, we're similar. I mentioned the sense that our conversations are done. Sorry, Benny, you're similar to me. Okay. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. We were doing that. That would be really good. If we were to dinner and I felt it was too long for me, I say it. And he would equally go, yeah, I knew too. And just be benign. I'm just not similar to every aspect. It's just. Here's what I will say, though. Here's what I will say. Yeah, that one time, three of us were in the car, and you and I were talking at the exact same time, and Selena's ears. And she goes, you guys. They wanted you. Selena really enhances my calm. When we're together, we can just sit with each other

22:25and not even say anything. Yeah, it's so. Do you guys do that, too? I think it happens and then Kristen starts to be here. Not at all. I think that's fun, though. I prefer it. I don't need sounds. Yeah, you like it when I'm talking at you, don't you? You always explain what you're making, even when I don't ask. It's so cute. I want to ask something. Yeah, please ask. We're right here. What was the best day of your life? When my little sister Grace, he was born. I know I'm bringing it back to family, but I'm such a family girl. And I, it was so gross because my mom had a C-section. And I don't know what my mom's going to be so far with me sharing this. Did you see that? I didn't see it. We stayed behind a curtain. But I remember just looking at my mom and hearing Grace you cry. And I just was behind the curtain looking at my mom. And I was like, oh my God. I immediately started crying. But I didn't cry when she got pregnant. I was very, you know, I was like, that's so cute.

23:27You have a belly. I have a sister coming, but I had no idea the gravity of it. How old were you? Oh gosh, there's 21 years. There are 22 years, so difference. And I think that was one of the best days. And then the best days of my life after would be our wedding. I was for sure. I loved your wedding. I for sure thought she was going to say like no question asked, oh, the day you married, like for sure, when she said my, when she said, I was blown away. After. You know, she said, no, no, she didn't. That was an pivotal moment for me. And that's when I realized I was like, oh, I want this. I was fully blown away. I'm just going to let you know. Did you like Dave's officiant speech? I did. Everyone did. My favorite part was this, because I have to say it. Steve Martin and Martin Short, who are on my show with me. You know, they're a little older than us, safe to say.

24:29But Dave was killing it and making everyone laugh in the right places, get emotional in the right places. And afterwards, Marty and Steve came up to me and they were just laughing and they were like, Benny's friend, like, he should do stuff. Like, he should have his own show. And I was like, well, fortunately for you, there's many seasons of exactly that. They were like so surprised. It was wonderful. I felt very good. I felt pressure, but I felt like I was born for the moment. You want to know something so crazy. I love watching you cry up there. I'm going to tell you something. So we did the, me and Sal did the first look, OK? We did the first look where we're like, you were kissing. Yeah, I'm just joking. Keep going. That's our only PDA for that. That's true. We did our first look. And I didn't cry. And I was like, yeah, of course I'm not going to go. We're just like, well, I'm not on the thing.

25:30And then I was like, and then I started in my head. I'm like, whoa, I didn't cry. I was like, am I going to cry? I was like, maybe I won't cry. Because I didn't want to, I didn't want to do what you did. No, no, no, listen. What do you do? The only thing he did where I was like, fuck, I don't want to do that. Because I know in your head you were thinking about it too. When you were giving your vows, when you like, when it was like the point where you like had like, snott bubbles and stuff. I was like, I was like, I don't want to have that. He did not have snott bubbles. Now he's talking about. No, I think yours was a, what you're speaking specifically is about during her vows when she's pointed to the ground and she said there's a little snott on the ground. I don't know. I don't know. No, no, no, no, no, yes you did. You said, you said, I think you got a little snott on the ground. No, I said, on the ground. You do. When I saw, I must have been performing. Jack, when I saw, there was though, there was a pool. When I saw your vows and I saw you get choked out. You didn't see my snott, I know where you were sitting. That's not what I'm saying. What were you saying? I'm saying, you made it, you mentioned snott in your vows.

26:33No, she, during her vows pointed out, I'm just snott on the ground. But she sang and didn't have that. I don't remember that. I'm saying, the only thing I'm saying is, when I saw yours, and then me and you talked about it afterwards, and you were like, you were like, I wish I could have held it together a little bit more. Yes, so not even to, that never happened. Yes, you did. You talked about it that way. I wish I would have held it together. I wish I cried more. Why do you wish I cried more? I don't, I'm happy with how it went. I'm just, whatever it was. You didn't want it to be you. I was like, I was like, I don't, I was like, I don't want it. You didn't like it. Just and foremost, you were crying up there. No, just let me see. Yeah, I was getting there. I said, I was like, I don't, I got to really hold it together. I don't want to cry that much. And I was like, I want to be able to like, say my speech. And, and I was getting so, and I don't get nervous about anything. And I was getting so fucking nervous. Yeah. So nervous, so nervous. I was nervous for you. In the car with her, I was like, I'm like, talking like them.

27:36And then with you back, you weren't, you couldn't be seated. You couldn't be seated, but you were holding. No, I was very nervous. Yeah, you couldn't be seated. And I was talking like, I can tell you were when we did our first look because you were just like, I'm not quite sure how to react. Like you kept saying, I don't know what to say. So basically, Selena is actually stuck in a content wormhole. She's like, I love showing people funny videos. I take a lot of funny videos. Do you think Selena and Dave, they all make suds, but they're funny. We're similar people, we're like minded people. So, we both care about art. So, we do. We do, but not the way he does. You don't like music. No, he doesn't like music. I care about art just as much as Benny does. You said you don't like museum. I said art. Oh, well, not art. Benny, would you be jealous of Selena and Dave or more like than you thought? No. They probably are. And it loves both of them. We also aren't. It's just there's a few things that are like similar, but it's just because we're like, I'm out.

28:38You're out, I'm out. My mom told me, according to the internet, my last relationship before you was Dave. Anytime I see that, I comment like, huh? Like it's ridiculous. I just say, wonderful. It's nice. I like it. I would never fall for a guy like you. You're hilarious. You literally moved to Los Angeles for me. You did? You know, you used to live in New York, Selena, before you met me. Contributing. Do you know the latest you ever stayed up in your whole life was with me? That's cute. You got to nine that? You know, let Selena and I are just embarking on our own relationship in one day. Oh, just wait you guys. When the tables turn young men. You know what's also really great, though? Kristen is that every one of my friends has the same thing. They're like, dude, you're so lucky. You have like, Kristen, because she'll be like real. I'm a writer, not that I ever in one moment of my life think you'd ever intentionally hurt me. But you and one thousand percent be like, I'm not happy.

29:38Benny, I love you. She sides with the girl in every occasion. And I love that. I'm here for that. Yeah. I side with whoever's right. No. I have a tendency to side with the girl. I don't know about that. Anyways, you were up there crying like a sheep. No. I was so anxious. And then right when game time happened, I like snapped into this like new version of myself. Yeah. It's like being limitless. Yeah, it was crazy. I felt limitless in our values. And then I go like that. And before I was saying things like, like, are we sure we printed it in like, in the right font? Yeah. You need me? I had to go up. He made me, everyone is seated waiting for the wedding to start. And he was like, just go check if my speech is up there. I was like, there's two copies of your speech up there. I put it there. And then there was already one when I put it there. You just go check one more time. And I had to go walk out. Everyone thinks the whole thing is starting. And then I had to go check it. And then I was like, wait a while, mine's so funny. I had handwritten them.

30:38They're so, like, misspelled correctly and incorrectly. And I had Ashley pass them to me as I walked on the aisle. That's so not. Those yours were so. I loved, I loved writing. The way yours first off, of course, they sounded great and they were great, but the way they physically looked. What they looked like. Ashley helped me pick the paper. A one book. Oh, she did. It was a, I can't. Yeah, it was like written with a written whip. Have I told you that I couldn't see anything for your, for your interior wedding? Oh, yeah, she had to buy the pole. For some reason, all I saw I could hear it. I was front row. So one thing and one thing only. The fucking post. Oh, I thought it was me. I knew. But I wanted to see them. All right, go back, Benny's crying. He's up there. He's sweeping. First thing I gotta, I gotta tell you another thing. Guys, can you pop my back? Right now? Do it right now. All right. I'm gonna get back in, do it. Pop. Yep, come on. Crab. Okay. Yeah. I have to do it, not on the, by the fire. No, you gotta lie down right here. It's really cozy. Oh, wow. Good use of our new run.

31:38That's so cool. Yeah, you've never seen. It gets colder when you stand. You've never seen this happen. Is this, do you guys do this a lot? Yeah. Really? All right. Okay. I'm breathing. Oh, my God. Okay. I'm breathing. Oh, my God. Okay. I'm breathing. Oh. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Up top higher. Okay. Mm. Up top higher. No. Another one? Yeah. Oh, my God. For now. It can't crack. There's no more. Selena, do you have more bones than most, than most of them? Isn't that crazy? It's a clean thing. Ideal crack. Oh, it felt so nice there. It sounded like bubble wrap. It felt so good. Hey, you could sit by the fire if you want. You could sit there. You could fall and sit there, Selena. No, I'll just stand. Okay. It's like I'm doing a tub talk. Oh, yeah. I was going to talk about some stuff. Do I really go sit down again? No, you can sit anywhere. Being filmed at all angles. So I go, it's like I'm about to walk up.

32:41And I get up there, I do my walk, not crying at all. I'm like, oh, my God. They're playing my song. I feel like so great, incredible choice. You've gotten, just so you know, you've got a big ovation. Yeah. Like when I walked down the aisle, it was silence. Yeah, I walked down the aisle. It was spectacular. It was spectacular with silence. When Benny walked down the aisle, he got an ovation. Cheers. The first section of her song starts playing. Like the first note. The curtain moved in such a classroom. Oh, my God. No, no. Something happened before. Totally forgot. We're starting again. Now. Fine. Fine. Fine. So I'm up there. It's my nephew's turn to come up. We play the Chicago Bulls theme song. He runs like he's in weapons. Like it's like full body. I know. And that's so bummed I missed that. I was behind the curtain. You were worried he wasn't even going to like, no, no, no. I didn't even think every time we practiced, he would walk the other way. Yeah.

33:41He runs full speed. And then gives me the thing that runs away, then runs back. And I was like, did he forget something? And he just handed me a bag of chips that he was either. Yeah. And then it's actually so sweet. That is true. But I thought he'd be nervous to do it. But he was, I haven't seen it, but it just felt amazing. It was amazing. Yeah, it was a laughing. Yeah, it was like Bruce Springsteen walking out in Jersey. Yeah. I heard everybody cheering. Yeah. Yeah, but they were cheering for Luther. I don't even know which app. So then, so then he goes like this. So then he like goes to the back. And like, he's like sitting in the back dancing. And they're like, they start playing Selena's song. And I'm like, I'm like, move it out of the way. Yeah, I start playing Selena's song. And then the curtains fell. So sure. And then I'm like, I'm like, heavy. And then instantly, no one was minding him. Yeah, instantly, I see you in the shadow. And I go, what's happening? And like my body, like I started doing things where I was like,

34:44I could feel it. I was like, yeah, I was the only one with my view. My view was unbelievable. I've never seen Benny's face move the way he was like. He was like, he was like, he was like trying so hard. Really? Yeah, so hard not to cry. And then, all I know is once I got up there, we just really lost it. Yeah. And then I saw Papa. I was just like, oh my gosh. And then this is continuous. And then the sun came out. Oh, the sun came out. Oh, the sun came out. The sun was insane. Papa goes, I look at Papa's face. And he looks at me and just like, look down. And I immediately burst into tears. And I'm sitting up there with Selena. It was so crazy because I was listening, but we were also having like our own moment. We were like laughing, crying, talking. Like, it was, it was. I know the whole time I remember just staring at no one else for a year and I just kept going, okay, we got this. I don't remember a single word that was uttered

35:46other than Dave's speech. Hell yeah. Hell yeah. I'm free. And I'm like, you're a vows and my vows. I'm saying like, my pastor, I'm so grateful. And I do feel super blessed that we had it, you know, the way that I wanted and we reunited. But it was just really, I just remember all I could do was look at him and I'd be like, it's crazy we're doing it. It was fun. It was the best moment of my life. Like, like, like before that moment, was the way that the curtain moved. Oh yeah. No, but also the sun, the sun, the sun, I couldn't believe it. It was perfectly framed, like right before she came out. Oh, okay. It like lit the entire, burst off raining like all weekend. I know. And then right when they get married, I have the best view. I'm centered. There's no one in front of me except Benny's right there. I have an aisle and then they play her song and the curtain moved and revealed like, it felt like a goddess.

36:48A goddess. It was a breath, she looked breath-taking. Yeah, it was my favorite moment. We finished, okay? And I go into Selena's dressing room and it's 400 degrees in it. They have, and I said, That's a fact. I said, well, why is it so hot? And I look and they have like, in a dust real like, like, like, being like this big. It was like a tunnel. And it was like, it was just going like, boom. Like it was, Well, if you see the dress, it was very, I felt very cold. I was so hot. You know sometimes when they apply Selena's makeup, it actually melts off her face. So they have to like, they have to work so quickly sometimes. I'm like, I don't care. She likes hot. And then everyone is having the best time ever. And I pulled Selena aside. And I was like, That's a lot. I was like, let's just hang this was after like, people are giving speeches. We sat on the floor when people were giving speeches.

37:49It felt like everyone was in our home. When you guys did that, I thought that I sat on the floor and washed after I saw you guys. It was just so, it was so, it felt so good. And then, The carpet in was, Yeah. And then, Ronson is like, Mark Ronson's the best DJ of all time. Everyone's dancing. I'm having the best time. I know. And I just pulled their aside. We sat there and I was like, look around us. Like, all of our friends are here to celebrate us. And I do that stuff, I mean. And I was like, I couldn't picture a better moment than this. And I was just like kissing her and hugging her. And we had like all these great talks. The editor said, you know what he said? He said, he said, honestly, he said, it's hard for me to edit that part. That in the vows because I keep crying. He wasn't, I don't even know. He said, I don't even know you guys. I love when you were up in the chair for the jute, for the horror. For the jute. For the jute. That was really fun. My mom was cool. I was so scared I was going to like break a bone on a chair,

38:50but I felt very safe. And I was very honored to be on that chair. My mom, Kristen's jaw got knocked during the horror of our wedding. Oh my god. And pretty much. Oh yeah. Didn't ruin our wedding. I got a strong jaw. I had an impact for an hour of our wedding. Your mom, I don't even think you know the extent that when she wouldn't go up. I know. She got in a fight with Jake Kong. I've never seen her like this. You got every single person on the horror that would like, Papa, Nana, you, Carson's, every brother. Yeah, Gracie. It was Benny's mom's time. And like she was like, no, no, no. And like she wouldn't go. And then I just felt like it was my duty to be like, the one to be like, Sandy, like enough. Like, and I walked over to like, put an end to it. And she gave me this look that, you made me feel like a little boy. Like she was like, no, no. I was like, do you know what my mom said? I told her after I said, mom, why didn't you do it? She said, it's my two biggest fears. And I said, what? And she said, height and motion.

39:52And I said, height and motion. Yeah, she said, she said, my number, she said, my number one biggest fear in life is motion. What do you think the motions are? I don't know. Everything we need. I don't know. There's a lot of motion. There's a lot of motion. There's a lot of motion. Just motion. That's crazy. Selena, you just don't get it. I have to be on a podcast. It's not a podcast. Oh, that's right. That's right. It's a podcast. It's a podcast that he's called dressing up as a big baby. Oh, please. You're going to throw me under the bus like you don't have the same philosophy final. So they call it the glory when it's perceived as right. That's right. He didn't even know what it was, guys. No. There it is. There's the record. There's the footage. He didn't even know what it was. He's all day right now. He's in there fixing his hair from here. Tuck, you fixing your hair? Yeah. No problem with that. You like it. That's okay. That's a question. Yeah. Don't you have to think Dave is hot because he looks identical to me.

40:52And don't you have to think that I'm hot because I look identical today? I don't think you guys look identical. I definitely don't agree with that. And by the way, I'm right there with you guys. I agree with you. I like, I love everyone. Yeah, but I'm my child. I think a lot of people love me. But I'm much hotter to me. I'm just saying people are going to take this clip and be like, they should all be together. All four of us is a four person. I couldn't do it. I love you, but we did both. So I'm not interested in you. You guys want to have children? Yeah. How many children? One, two, Max? No, I don't know. Like three? I would. No, four, but that's out there. But in honor of the person that I adored so much that made me think of my Nana, Diane Keaton. She rest in peace. I love her so much. There's a movie called The Family Stone. Of course. And there's this scene. I have it. There's this scene. It's a very sweet, like, but sad.

41:55Also, it's very sweet, touching. And she's like amazing. She's our leader. So she basically has the scene. And it's a dinner scene with all her children. And I can't get it out of my head. It has always made me feel like so good inside. But I said one day on my dinner table when I'm peraged, I want to see that dinner table. I don't want, you know, let's say whatever happens happens if we're only able to have one, none, I hope. We're talking dream, don't know. But my dream, for sure, was that scene where they're all at the dinner table. And they're just with their partners, with their significant others, or kids, or single. And it's just like beautiful cast of characters. It's the community of family. So it's actually going to be crazy hell for all those years until they become adults. A good hell, I hear. A very good hell. I would love to rewind and be 30.

42:56Didn't you? Didn't you? Just because I could have more kids, hopefully. Or hopefully, I'm not jinxing it by saying it out loud. Didn't you just take care of a kid and come to the realization that you didn't realize that you have to be paying attention to them? Yes. I did. I can be a similar realization. But I think that was still wanting kids. I think it can, because we know what they say. And every freaking movie or book, it's like you can never, you're never prepared for it. Yeah. Yeah, like for me, the thing on kids is. It should be leashed. Let me, what? No, I want kids so bad. You're not putting your kid on a leash. It seems logical to me. I see your brother's kid running around. They got a run. They're chasing after the kid. The kid can fly. It's like, I'm putting the kid on the leash, sitting here. You're going to need a lot of leashes for your kid. My mom said I was very, they liked that.

43:58Oh, don't make it a bummer. Oh no, I liked it. It made me feel good. I love you so much. I was just thinking about back in Malibu when I first saw you guys display any public display of affection for the first time. And I thought, I think this is going to work out. I try and, in interviews with her because I know she likes to keep it profess. I try not to show too much. Like, as she's such her own entity, like I want her to like, I want her to shine and be like her own independent woman. So I try so high use every bone in my body not to be like, like, googly-eyed over her and not want to kiss her and jump her bones all the time. So it's taking a lot. So to watch her just kiss my toe, just really made my day. Let me paint you a picture. Please. Do you know what her phone, like when you see her phone and it says like, like Selena Gomez iPhone, do you know what hers is?

44:59This is, okay, dammit, I'm going to change it. What do you mean by that? Oh, like when it pops up? I'm going to change it after this, but I will give it up. So basically when you do airdrop or when you look for my phone. Yeah. This was before I knew that he's a love of my life. So if anyone's airdroping on a narrow plane, I don't want people to know. Of course not. Let everyone know it's changing. So don't think it's going to be it. I can't be bothered. It was. I honestly might not change. What? It'll change. What does I'll be on a narrow plane and it'll be like, I'd get weird pictures, but okay. My thing when you airdrop, when you airdrop something to someone was shine bright. That's it. And the only reason why is because every song has that like tick and it was shine bright like a diamond. You know, obviously that's poorly said, but everywhere I went with my friends before I married the person. Can you believe that now was him? Is that your favorite in a song?

46:00He made it. It's in what's one of them. It's the top like definitely in the top. What's your favorite? I love, I'm so hard. She's amazing. I know, I have mine, but what's yours? But on the entire, I love consideration and I love stay. You know what song I love? I love stay. I love five seconds. I love four five seconds. I love that song. That's in my touch. There's no wrong. There's just no wrong with her for some reason. She's telling me when I go to Brianna Essentials on Apple Music Day, it's like no song skippable, you know? My favorite way to listen to music is I go to, I have a playlist of all my favorite Drake songs. It's about 85 songs. I play it on a shuffle. I never can be disappointed. There's 85 straight unbelievable songs. Do you know what my favorite way to listen to music is? In the morning, be like cleaning and reorganizing the house and I have such a good sound system in my living room and I'm just like going through like the best vinyls

47:01and by myself and just doing. Are you good? What? I wish I would have brought my speaker. Oh, dang. I go, sorry, I'm so sorry I ruined your thing. There's no, that was the end of the story. Oh wow. Listening to vinyls on my- I was the end of the story. There's this year be- You were saying your favorite way to listen to music. You guys have my favorite way. Sorry. You're a big Taylor Swift music fan, I feel like. I'm a big Taylor band. She's a swifty. Yeah. I stand for life for sure, but yeah. Can I just say I was fully blown away yesterday. Sleen is just like bringing over stuff from like storage and her other house. Oh, she'll love this. And she pulls out this like piece of art and I'm like, oh, this is perfect for the living room. This is like amazing for the living room. And this is like, and I have like, you know, I'm so into art. Like I love art. And I said, who made this painting? Like I thought she was gonna say like, like Basquiat or something like crazy.

48:02And- That's sweet. Sleen says, Taylor made this for me for my 30th birthday. And it's like one of the best paintings I've ever seen- So, she did it on an actual cloth. And she painted a beautiful lake. And it was at night and the moon was there. And in the stars, she painted our exact- On a cloth? On a cloth. And she painted our exact- Star science. Star science. So for hers and mine, and she said, here's to the next 30 years hand zone. And it says from Taylor, like, to Sleena. And it was all sewed by hand. So she hadn't painted or she painted it and then she would sew like to the next- Yeah. Basquiat, I will say, it's probably- Yeah, like, so she would sew it into- I forget, you know what? I feel so ashamed.

49:02It's a way of- Crochet? Crochet? No, like the neat-up- Almost neat. But it just, instead of writing, here's to the next 30 years or printing it, she sewed every- She took the cloth and she- Guys, guys. It was just so good. I think she's better art, like- Like every- It- The other day, she made like fresh sourdough bread. Like, and it was like- Look like it was from like a- Wait, I hope she'll let us use rest of this, but when she made bread, she goes, it's a loaf story. Oh, yeah. Well, she let us- I posted it. Like, can I say one thing? I was just saying it was so cute when she was like- Listening to Taylor. And we went home and we were like- It reminds us of when we were young and we like really loved music. And you're so- You're- You're supportive beyond just like- Well, the context of this conversation was- Us talking about my music and putting it out. And she was telling me about what music is like- It's like for the people like to connect with. And then we ended up talking- It's very clear that you literally connect with Taylor's music

50:05on a different- You connect with it- And then I just became a human person. I feel- Well, Dorothy is about me, one of her songs. Oh. And I feel like a lot of moments, huge moments that were self-defining from relationships to family, to love, to page and all of it in between. We were figuring it out because I was 15 18 and we didn't really know like what was going on and so we've never seen each other any differently so when I listen to it I hear I'm so I'm so impressed how it's eloquently put yeah so there's the song that Taylor wrote about us and it was called family and it was over easily a decade ago and insinuating in the lyrics without quoting it is basically saying you have these amazing dreams you want to be in movies like in every crowd I still see you

51:09and then her part was you know you believe in my stupid dreams like playing stadiums and now when I listen to that song both of those things I'm gonna cry I have to have been impressed and that's really sweet because back then she was just like I just wrote the song about us and it was just like our story kind of and it was just the sweetest thing so I love it do you guys ever like because I do this with some of my friends who I like first came up with and like do you guys ever sit there and you're just like fuck you're like I can't believe this is our life now from where you were it's more so that wow we survived as best as we can yeah because it's literally all we talk about like we we don't not all we talk about but when we talk about it we're not like look at this you know prosperity it's more so like well actually this

52:10is so cool that you get it it's absolutely unbelievable to come from 17 years of friendship from multiple heartbreaks and love stories and fond stories in life we both ended up fortunately being engaged around the same time and that was the coolest do you know I love Travis and Benny I love Benny I mean I'm close with Benny but I love Travis of course I love Salina and tell I don't know tell her that well but I just feel like you both ended up with good dudes yeah that's all I'm saying I'm saying and in the public eye and look where you are I'm very lucky I'm very lucky it's cool to have a friend just like you and Benny it's like yeah you know I used to start and end every single day of my life I'm with you talking the day oh yeah on the phone before I went to bed what better way and when I woke up every day yeah a lot of wasted hours that's really sweet they're not waste I'm joking you know I

53:11guys have helped shape each other and I love both I say this to Salina and I also say this day I'm so mad at like God or the universe for for making me wait so long to have like to be so close to like two of the people that I wanted to like it took me I it took me like 20 something years to meet Dave yeah what name what's that bad what and Salina of course you are right and I later I already knew her I know you guys know what the fuck so you knew it you met when you were 12 or something she was like 16 I was probably 21 but he also didn't we didn't like me and you were late my mom was with me like it was a total thing I would actually like I'm a hundred percent sure that I would take a bullet yeah to the head we're gonna say I would die if I knew that like I

54:20jumped in front of it and I would say for life yeah yeah I do that way too I would do I actually feel that way for the both of you I would take one right here I would honestly do for me to the head yeah and for you well cuz that's a fast I take a bullet to the thigh for you shot you in a hand it's like well I'll take a bullet I'm not dying for I would die for the two of you I really would I think that like for me personally it's been in Gracie yeah who's I wouldn't take one from me no you can't be the same but I can't die to the face I would get everything done but I knew I could survive I would get yeah I thought that I thought that I had to die for my friends well I think this is really dark but I think if they said you're paralyzed you're many guys I think I'm living the rest of my life paralyzed I have to say this and I'll say this yeah I would do that for charge of what happens to me I truly feel like if you call somebody you're a good friend yeah that you truly love

55:23and I love the three of you yeah I have no choice but to die for you that's ridiculous Kristen we're getting word it's time you know when I think back on my life few things come to mind that are more nostalgic than I would go to my grandfather's house every Sunday and watch the Eagles game and I would eat chicken nuggets about eight of them and I would always have grape soda now it wasn't Ali Pop because I don't believe that they were operative at that time it was a different probably I don't want to say competitor but Ali Pop wouldn't even want me talking about what it was but when I drink this grape Ali Pop I can't help like flashback to those lazy Sundays with my grandfather Poppy Jack or we would watch the Eagles eat chicken nuggets by any two cans of Ali Pop in store and they'll pay you back for one any flavor any retailer go to drink Ali Pop dot com slash FKS this show is sponsored by Liquid Ivy let's play a game you're thirsty you don't necessarily want to drink but you have a beautiful watermelon in front of you take some lime you take a little a little bit of

56:29lemon lime Liquid Ivy you put this bad boy right over it and did you make this up I don't know if I made it up but I was it innovated what's the reason just to hydrate what's the reason water huh oh best thing you've ever tasted tear poor live more go to liquid iv.com make it 20% off your first order with cold FKS it check out it's 20% off your first order with cold FKS that liquid iv.com and that's so good yeah it's interesting because women have things that happen in their life that I think people tend to be like get over it and the point that I love is like I can absolutely forget yeah me too but I cannot forget once you lose the trust of a man oh it's gone it's gone when you lose the trust of a man it's completely gone I feel like as a woman I love when the guys have good guys friends that makes you guys have good wife guy has a good wife you say and then they ruin the guys do what I said

57:31I'm very grateful that it's a testament it's a testament of who you're surround yourself with because ultimately you are who you surround yourself with so for me it's very nice to know that these people are who he's living life with if that makes sense because I want him to be around really cool people so it was a point it was like as as a couple like it's so nice yeah that you have anyone don't have great people surrounding you you have great people surrounding you it's nice and I fucking love everyone in your life oh it's just gonna say that it's nice when you meet someone who is a friend that's really genuine and then you're like these guys can't be that bad and man sister I think I think I think I think me and Selena I think check I think me and Selena could beat you guys in two on two she's who do you think could fight better out of you two Selena okay should we do it our wrestle because we're both like can you guys can you guys I don't want to check are you sure I'm not terrible but you're terrible too I might be you guys got to do it right here I'm the worst in the

58:34arcade okay now you get here Kristen by the way I'm prepared to lose I just know Kristen get on this side you want to I don't want to break her she's so petite break her I don't mind I don't mind okay now you guys have to hold your other hand this okay okay okay okay you ready don't break your but literally I don't care I don't care so please win if you win one two three looks like pretty no please win when you want to win she's doing something why not I just don't want you to think are you guys like even yes go Kristen go go go go oh my god it's so even it's perfectly I'm not letting it go go win win win if you can win okay go go win win I think you guys are even stranded yeah that's crazy okay I'm hurt okay I've never harmed I don't think I'm good at all check I think you should sit here I think it'll make it easier for

59:43you no you shouldn't I'm like be like here I hate this feeling I don't like it I'm so scared my arms gonna be ready yeah okay are we gonna do three two one okay now we're like I think I did strain my back muscles you guys have to count out three two I'm sorry three two one are we even strained I'm trying as hard as I can I'm just saying I agree with you Kristen my okay it's like a bone all right I don't have it yeah Joe are we even yeah it's enough it's done it's done I could have pushed you up right here maybe by the end I think I could have with I think if it was a test of time you would have won yeah it's my show yeah I think all of us are pretty lame I can't believe or even can I say something yeah do can you even can how would you deal with these two boys every day well that's actually a

1:00:44very good question I think because I'm biased to one it would be very difficult because now I'm not sure because sometimes it would be really hard I could never here's what I'm gonna say I could never do what you guys are doing in the smell with Ben why because I speak differently than he does that's how I feel no both of them you guys are in a different I have a view sometimes that is me wanting to express my actual authenticity however being eloquent while I do it and what I love and how I fell in love with Ben he is that he's uncensored and that's what makes me uncensored so I'd like to say he's peeling the onion yeah I'll be really fulfilled being fully myself but it's it's a reaction a knee-jerk reaction I did feel like once you got like the more you guys started dating I feel like I saw you coming like more out of your

1:01:47own like when we first met I could tell but he gave up the party that was a huge deal well thank god he gave us the parties like well you didn't give up the parties but like you have different ones I gave up the party there was no reason to have them anymore absolutely the parties were only a single match shut up oh no it's okay I don't mind it's the truth that's from our reservation you guys ready our relationship is probably so healthy and one of the like greatest things of life but also equally you had a life before me and I had a life before you yeah you and you and oh sorry that is how to cook it we have to kiss a fake us no it's our friend oh friends on three oh yeah okay in the center well we don't I'm stuck uh babe do you think I can jump from here to there yeah okay and let's just do friends on three Chuck what would you do if I was this tall no one's

1:02:50no one's oh did you just hit your head babe wait shall we all do her to break me okay okay stand up just just don't well how are we gonna do it okay one two three on three friends what do we do what I've never been here before okay everyone put their hands on it you know sports you know sports you're a best okay prison come on one two three friends that's it yeah oh you want to get on my back change it again no just get on my back should I say the line again nope I think this is what you're doing is right oh I don't like this is good I'm scared okay we're ending it this episode is brought to you by Dominoves you mean this perfect oh wow the crust let me give you a brand new slice oh Chuck it's gonna it's so hot huh oh I don't like the way it's been handled to me

1:03:54there's nothing where it's actually so good can I lighten you both for a second yeah the best deal ever is for $9.99 you can get up to seven toppings and even stuff crust for three dollars more you know how we always get cheese yeah we could be getting seven times your little toppings are you telling me yeah we've been doing the worst you ever I've been ordering just cheese and I could be having seven we like cheese but what if I told you that I got seven X cheese do you know what I would tell you best deal ever not a lot of cheese but it's the perfect amount of cheese you don't have to go full force on one topping I'll do what I want I might get seven times pineapple that's what I want to do can I say one thing before we go we respect you we respect you respect your time we know you don't have to be sitting here watching this and we're trying to respect you but we also know you love pizza we respect you I really do love I give me another bite I don't know I respect you I'm sorry if you feel different for the past 10