Some Exhaustion Brings Some Closure

Hey everybody, the Lunar Eclipse was last night, around 12 hours ago, and I had been anticipating this for a while. The good thing about being an astrologer is that nothing comes as a surprise, but even if you know the relationship between the planets, their archetypes, and the power that they have, you cannot really predict. The whole scope is not about prediction, but it’s about understanding the meaning and the potentials, which is the reason why I follow the stars, or they follow me, whichever way you want to see it.

It’s been building up for a while, and I can really confirm that the release is here. I have felt it tremendously through a feeling of sorrow, loss, endings, and dissolutions. I actually would like to stay with this feeling for a couple of days if I can, because it’s within the space that I have enabled to sense and feel it in my body. I can really look back and say, “Oh my God, this was coming for a while, and it was being built. It had its crescendo, and now it’s just in the pure state of dissolution.” Not everything is going to be washed away, but certainly there was a lot of cleansing in many ways.

What I feel, other than the sorrow, is that there was a lot of confusion. There were veils that were taken off, and I could see a lot of ugly things. At the same time, I did not want to feel defeated. I didn’t want to feel depressed, like anything with a D: defeated, depressed, desolated, disillusioned, desperate.

I wanted to be able to feel more attentive to this cycle. I can go 18 years ago and tell you what was going on, or even 36 years ago, but I don’t want to do that exercise to try to figure things out. I want to stay here. I want to stay with the uncomfortable feeling that I had, this morning a little bit after the eclipse. I woke up in the middle of the night, and I had sort of apnea. I couldn’t really breathe, so I had to sit down and listen to Gregorian chants, which I will share below. This is the beautiful Psalm 91 sung by monks in Latin.

I had to run some errands today. I had to go to town and do some practical things, like a power of attorney kind of document, so I had to go to a different part of town. I don’t drive, so I had to leave the island of Miami Beach and go to an old part of town called Coral Gables. I just did what I had to do and sent these documents to my brother, there are many things that are being finalized in my family, and they have been building up. I didn’t realize how much I had been carrying. Just to put it in perspective, I’m going to say, from the physiological point of view, (German New Medicine which I have spoken a couple of times in this space.) When I did the immersion in Vancouver with Tiziano, when I came back, I started having a terrible, terrible pain on the right side of my neck, it was unbearable, and I had it for many months.

Looking at it from a different perspective, I was saying: what is it that I don’t want to see from another point of view? What is it that I’m stuck on that I don’t want to see? I started seeing, “Oh, I have to have more openness. I have to calibrate more,” and I did.

Fast forward a few weeks. I was at the big pool in Flamingo park where I sometimes go, and in a clumsy move, I hit my diaphragm and my ribs on the right side. The pain was unbearable. I couldn’t do hypo-pressives. I couldn’t really swim anymore. It was like three weeks of just waiting for it to heal. It’s completely healed right now, that was also a lesson of patience. I was thinking to myself, “What is it that I’m overholding?” The thorax and the diaphragm really help hold the organs in the body. I was feeling, “What is it that I’m holding in my family? What is it that I’m overprotecting that it is not for me to protect?” That was something to look for.

The funny one (it’s just not funny, haha, but it’s funny): a few weeks later, It had been raining in Miami for a while, so I couldn’t really sunbathe as much as I like. I decided to take two days off and just go to the beach from 9:00 a.m. until 5:00 p.m. I don’t use anything on my skin. It’s fine. I’m a carnivore. I don’t ingest any seed oils. I don’t do any creams, so I’m fine without it. I basically overexposed my skin and never felt pain or anything, but within a week or two, I started noticing that I was peeling off, especially on my face. I was like, “Oh no, what does that mean?”

The skin is the last surface of the body that meets the environment, and it’s also how we protect ourselves. I was saying, “Oh, this is interesting. I’m also changing skin. I’m changing the way I’m relating to things because I realized that I needed to have a new perspective. I realized that I could not hold and control the outcome of things that were being very difficult within my family. Therefore, I needed to take off my skin and then embrace a new me.”

All of these “symptoms” were already in a state of resolution, which means that the conflict was already carried on, and the resolved symptom appears just to confirm.

"The most beautiful part of your body is where it's headed."― Ocean Vuong, Night Sky with Exit Wounds

This is what happened with this eclipse. That’s why I feel like mourning pretty much everything that I’ve been doing since I was a child after my father died. That’s the part that is present now. I’m not sad that I feel the sorrow, but I’m not like, “Oh my God, what am I going to do?” No, no, no, no. It’s a different feeling, so I want to share that it’s very intimate. I’m not going to tell details. I don’t care to share them, but they’re not important for anybody other than myself.

I am very much improvising to what feels best at that specific moment, so I don’t have any resolution to tell you. I’m not going to do astrology today. Who cares? I’m going to share a set of videos that are beautiful: “The Psalm 91” sung by the Gregorian monks in Latin, just beautiful, but there’s this beautiful record that one of my favorite artists, Nick Cave, recorded. I believe it was 2022. “Seven Psalms,” and I’m just going to play them here below. They’re absolutely beautiful.

The eclipse fell on my Saturn’s first house in Pisces. This is where the resolution is. This is where structures are built internally. This is where my sense of authority is not coming from a father figure, but it’s been built throughout time. This is where I can actually see me as an individual, as myself, and that’s where I am right now: complete surrendering to life.

"Some nights you are the lighthouse / some nights the sea / what this means is that I don't know / desire other than the need / to be shattered & rebuilt."― Ocean Vuong, Night Sky with Exit Wounds

Have you felt any sorrow? Have you felt that there’s something that has shifted and is different? How do you feel in relationship to the beginning of 2026 and now, close to nine months after? What are you looking forward to in the future? As for me, I feel excited when I see the future, but I think there’s still a process to be received in the next two weeks before the new moon on September 10th. I will probably speak more about the upcoming retrogrades with Venus and Mars, Venus supporting intimacy with relationships and Mars discerning about what we choose in our lives to embody our own sense of self.

Addendum:

This morning, a day later, I woke up to a huge thunderstorm. It has been a while since I didn’t have such an incredible show of light and trembling so close. I grew up with a lot of thunderstorms and we learned to count the seconds between thunder and the cracking sound, apparently it determines the distance.

Today, the average was 2 seconds, quite close, it was not frightening, the rhythm was soothing, thus I was like, “Okay, so today’s gonna be a different kind of day.”

I want to keep focusing my attention on the little things; perhaps shifting it less on regulating my nervous system since now I know how to respond when things get a little bit off course.

Now it’s like, “All right, how do I transform and receive this opportunity into a creative encounter with the light?” It is 11:30 in the morning, and it looks like it was midnight because it’s so dark. I’m going to spend the upcoming hours doing something that I love doing, which is studying and revisiting ancient history. By doing so with curiosity it grounds me, at the same time allows a new perspective fulfilling something that kept me going when I was young, which was curiosity, and knowledge about history that grounded meaning and direction. Seeing things differently from a point of view that I have revisited not once but many times in my life.

Have a great weekend. I’ll be back in such a different form.

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