I STABBED My Abusive Ex After Torture Session: Marie Monroe

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1:00Sounds like he was steering you to prostitution. It's just so normal for girls to be total sluts now. You speak out against feminism, isn't it? Yeah, it's fucking bullshit. Men of this, men of that are shut the fuck up. It's actually like a rabid fucking dog. I just literally grabbed the biggest fucking knife. You launched on me and I just went, shh, stabbed him like that. People who were supposed to protect me and the people who weren't protecting from. He's a very dangerous person because he's also a hypnotist. He needs sectioning. The people that are smearing period blood on their faces could do with the fucking check up from the neck up too. Kia Starmer. What are your thoughts on him? I would like to fucking head-button. What air-cond? Israel is fucking. Oh! Kia Starmer's ass and their control in him. They control everything. What were you studying in Newly? Aerospace engineering. It's disgusting London now. Ugh. Ugh. Muslims who were flooding the country and just raping like it's a sport with a rape capital of Europe. As many were raping teenage girls in broad daylight and gone, oops Adesia, I didn't even know it was illegal. On what grounds did they accuse you of racism?

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3:11the devil. But first and foremost, let's talk about you being sacked from your job as a teacher. You were sacked for racism and homophobia. Yeah. So basically, a gay lad saw one of my videos where it was just a silly comedy video where I'm saying, he is the difference between gay and gay and then I was like, first example, a lovely homosexual couple, second example, people who wear sunglasses indoors and he just got so offended by it, he just blasted me all over Facebook, all over social media with loads of pictures of me saying, this teacher from blah, blah, blah, what town I'm from, she's racist, she's homophobic, she's transphobic, she needs sacking now and he was trying to find out all my details. Somebody, it must be somebody who knows me well because they sent in my address, my full name, my maiden name, barely might have been married since, well, I'm divorced now,

4:14but I've had my married name since 2012. So somebody who has known me for a long time and he put my address in everything, all over social media, encouraging people to come to my house and attack me, I've got a child at my house, crazy, but at the time I was actually off work because I had a knee injury from Jiu Jitsu, I snapped my MCL and my meniscus, so I couldn't walk, so I was on crutches, I couldn't work and then my first day back to work, I'd worked the first period and I got taken out of class and I got told I need to leave immediately. No explanation, I'll get a phone call, so I got to my car and the phone call come through when it was basically like some gay lad at that school was one of the people who'd like shared that post and even without any evidence whatsoever of me being any of those labels what they'd given it me, they'd said like no, she can't come back to this school because I'm a supply teacher, like I wasn't permanently in one school, it was the agency that had called

5:17me, the agency was pretty sound to be fair, they were like we fully earned social media, we think you're hilarious, we think you're brilliant, but basically you've got to private all your social media if you want to continue working for us and I was like well you don't get to police what I do outside of work, so no, so then basically I couldn't go back, but the school really took it to the extreme, the rang the council and reported me to the Lado, which is the local authority designated officer, the person who looks after all the teachers and stuff like that and they tried to report me to that person and he basically looked at my social media in his words where this is very law level, basically you're being dramatic over a lot. So they wanted to ruin your income and your career for eternity? Yes, basically, yeah, they also loads like him and all of his like gay mates, they were all I was at the time, I was still at university, I was still studying aerospace engineering and there were calling my university, trying to have me thrown out for racism and all the other labels that they'd

6:22given me, but thankfully you need just laughed it off. What were you studying in the uni? Aerospace engineering. Fair place, you've got a very good brain on you, which I have noticed hence why I reached out because I think you make a very good guess and I know that your story is interesting, so I hope the audience stick around for this one because it's different to others that I've had on here. On what grounds did they accuse you of racism? I actually really don't know because everything that they accused me of, there wasn't any sort of evidence or anything behind it whatsoever, it was just a social media post with words, he'd obviously got his feelings hurt and just had a big dramatic gay reaction about it and then just totally threw me under the boss and tried to ruin my life. Do you think there's a probability that he wears sunglasses indoors? Do you think that's what it was? Nothing to do with his sexuality, it's like that's a bridge too far. I wear them indoors. I clop when the airplane lands, I'm not oven this.

7:24When your social media platforms were examined by whatever board it may be, in your bio, did you have the words holy and horny in there? Yes, okay. Do you think that may have caused a bit of a problem? And also I want to know what you mean by that. Me personally, I don't think that there's anything wrong with that. We're all human, we all get horny sometimes and what I mean by is like in the world that we live in now, society, western society, or culture is just completely normalized. It's just so normal for girls to be taught or sluts now and I just do not subscribe to that whatsoever. I've just got to the end of eight years of celibacy. Don't get me wrong, I've broke a few times during that time, every couple of years, but still. It's not an iconic saying. I've been some of the eight years, but I've been pissed 12 times in between. Not only about three times during then, but

8:29you know, I didn't want to lie and say it was the full eight years because I have broke it a couple of times during that time, but predominantly you were celibate. Yeah, yeah. At a choice. Obviously, duh. There's no shortage of many who want to fuck me, but nobody wants to love me unfortunately, so. So what's the holy and horny that mean your religious, but you've got the horn? No, so I don't necessarily, I'm not religious whatsoever. I know some people might think that I am because I'm wearing like a cross and stuff, but I mean, holy like, like I was basically a fucking nun. Do you know what I mean? That's what I meant. Oh, I see. Yeah. Oh, so holy and horny could be could mean your sexually frustrated? Basically, yes. Right. Okay, that makes sense because I was going to say, what's the holiest and horniest thing you've ever done? But the answer will be fuck all. Yeah. Set their twirly with thumbs. Wait, wait, if I missed a riot. Yeah. I can't get this interesting. I did wonder for I'll save that for the podcast. So let's go back. Let's talk about your childhood briefly. Any trauma in there because I know that there was a traumatic

9:29experience down the line within a relationship. So just give us the audience a bit of a background of who you are and what you're all about. Well, it was the 90s, wasn't it? So I think a lot of us grew up with very violent childhoods, didn't we? Yeah. It was just normal to get levied, wasn't it? Like, it was not everybody. It was still frowned upon. But my mother, God bless us all. She was a bit of a psychopath, to be honest. Everybody was scared. She was, she was a terrifying woman. I'm not going to lie. In what sense? She was just very violent. It was physical to violence. Yeah. Like, so this is one of them things. Yeah. So my mom like she had really, really bad mental health basically my whole life. So like from when I was born, she had post-natal depression. So she just, we didn't bond at all. Like it was my old siblings who took care of me. So like my old siblings, they're like between like eight and 15 years older than me. They're like a lot older than me. So

10:33luckily there was like people that like actually like look after me. And also my mom and her mental health. Like she tried to like commit suicide and stuff as I was growing up. Like she got sectioned multiple times as I was growing up. Like one of them really stands out to me because I was a teenager and I was at my sister's house. And she just, it was always to do with men. So her like long term, like on off-boyfriend who was a total continent used to beat the shit out of her. Like one time you beat her so bad that she ended up having a fit. And then after that she had epilepsy. Off the back of her head injury. I don't actually really know what it was. But she ended up having like a seizure. And then after that she just had epilepsy after that. Yeah, it's really awful. But one of the times with my mom, with the suicide, the one that really sticks out to me, she'd broken up with him. And she was just, I was at my sister's house and my old sister. She'd

11:35just got a phone call off my mom where she'd, my mom had regretted it. She'd made angel delight, smashed up loads of tablets, mixed it in with the angel delight, and then ate it. And then I think she start to feel myself gone unconscious. So then she regretted it and shit herself and rang my sister. So then like my sister and her husband and all of us flew round and basically took at a hospital. Fucking hell. Yeah. And when you found the man dead at 14. How did that happen? So basically the road that I lived on, it was only like a small little road with about like maybe eight houses on one side and on the opposite side. There was like three blocks of flats that were like three stories high. And as I was going past the bottom flats, I could just hear a girl screaming and just, and it just really got my attention. I was walking past and I was like, looking thinking, what the hell's going on? And then there was a man just standing on the balcony and I, he really had my attention and I just was walking, but I couldn't, there was just something about him

12:39that I couldn't stop looking at him. And then I'd got like quite far past it like maybe about like 20 feet past it. And I just stopped and I was just staring at him for some reason. I don't know why what compelled me to do that. And then I just noticed there was something going up from there. And it didn't click to me at first because his feet were actually touching the floor. And then I realized, oh my god, he's hanging. That's why there's a girl screaming. So I basically went like running back. And I was like pressing the buzzer for the girl. And she opened the door, let me in. And I ran up the stairs and there was two other boys as well who'd noticed were all teenagers. And basically the three of us just booted into the door and and what had happened was that young girl, it was his niece. He'd rang her to say that he was going to kill himself. So she'd gone round to try and stop him. And when she'd got there, lock the door, put the keys in his pocket then hung himself. And she didn't want to go over and take the keys out of his pocket. So she was just locked in his flat screaming while he was like hung up on the balcony in front of her.

13:43Did you get close enough to touch him? No, I didn't go into the flat. I basically built the door in and she just come running out. And then I don't know who it was who would like called emergency services or whatever. But I just remember sitting on the like the field outside of her and just waiting with her until I think about all the time and I wonder where she is. And I felt emotional there for a second. I was just sitting on the grass waiting with her like until like her family and stuff got there. I pick her up. So by this stage now to keep it focused on you, abusive mum, severe mental health issues, suicide attempts, then you find somebody that actually has committed suicide. So by the age of 14 you've experienced I'd say more than your fair share of trauma. What's your state of mind like by now? At that point, I think I was still pretty like resilient if I'm honest. I was still like just getting on with life as normal, I think at that point I don't maybe I probably was traumatised but I don't think it was having any effect on my

14:45day-to-day life. When you're young you just think things of the norm when you see them, didn't you? You don't really know. It's only when you look back retrospectively and you think, fucking hell, that was heavy. Yeah, yeah. Like, well, that was not a normal childhood. Yeah, that's not nice. And it shits dicks it last of you and it comes back to haunt you in different ways. Strange. Well, not nice. You've mentioned that you were tortured. Can we unpack that? Yes. So basically I had a boyfriend with a face deformity and he was extremely insecure because he just could not understand why I was with him. So like, one side of his face was like that, basically. What's that? What service does the loners got where you've sort of lose the feeling of one side of your face? It was born like it. Right. So he was just super insecure because he could not understand why I was with him and he just had like, it was sometimes he was queer and then over time he just wouldn't be and then we lived in Swansea

15:45and we had this absolutely unbelievable apartment on Meridian Bay. One side of us was the beach, the opposite side of us was the Marina. It was a mint location. We had this huge, huge, huge apartment and one night he just lost it and he was basically like, I'm going to kill you and I y'all going to die tonight. Y'all going to be seeing your mother at night and he was just saying the most horrible evil things to me. Was he, was he out of his own drugs? No, I can't even fully remember what triggered it. We just switched on, yeah. Yeah, like parts of my memory is blacked out. So he was basically just beating the shit out of me. I was absolutely fucked up. He'd like bitten me all of my bodies. Well, like I had these bruises where it's like really, there were weird the bruises because you could tell that there were bite marks because you could see it was green where the teeth were in but then all around it and like inside of it it was like black. So there were really odd, you could tell that the bruises were bite marks.

16:46But what he was doing was he had me on the floor and for literally two hours straight while like I was like layered on my back on the floor and obviously I was crying so my nose was completely bunged up. I could only breathe through my mouth and he was on top of me like had me pinned down and while he sent me y'all going to die at night, I'm going to kill you. He was holding my mouth so that I couldn't breathe and he had me like pinned so that I couldn't move and he was waiting for me to go like so basically once you get to the point where like you're desperate for a breath for your body start to go on like that like your lungs are like doing its best to try and get a breath. So every time I got to that point and my body was doing that, he would let go. He would let me go like take a big breath and then boom straight back down, straight back to your y'all going to die at night. I'm going to fucking kill you and I was doing that to me for two hours and then oh lucky me, he got a text so he got off me and went like round like the other side of the bed to go get his phone and I took that as my opportunity

17:48I jumped up and I ran for the bedroom door but there was like two ways to go so I could have went left where I'd have to run down like a big hallway, go personal for bedroom, go pass the bathroom, try and unlock the door, then try and run down on the stairs, I'll get in the lift and I was just like he's going to catch me and he's just going to drag me back and lever me. So I was like my best option is to run that way in like the front room kitchen and I just literally grab the biggest fucking knife and just stood in the corner like this and I backed myself in at the corner so that you couldn't get behind me and I was like if you fucking come near me I will stab you and he must have thought I was bluffing. So he launched for me and I just went whoosh stabbed him like that but then immediately fear kicked in even though I was completely fucked up. Like all I could think of here was oh my god I'm going to go to jail, I've just fucking stabbed somebody. Whereabouts did you stab in? In the arm. Okay, it's lucky. Yeah, yeah. So I was like panicking and then he was like also pretending to be scared and he was like Maria just put the knife

18:48down, put the knife down, give me the knife and I was thinking like fuck fuck fuck and I very mistakenly gave him the knife and the next thing it was at my throat. So I fucked up there but that's where my memory goes a little bit like hazy as well after that. I don't really remember how we got to the next point. So the next point after that was what I remember was it was all over and I was on the sofa with like a dressing gown on top of me like I'm sleeping on the sofa and I and he was like no you're not you're coming to bed and he went and got a massive jug of water poured all over me all over the sofa so that I couldn't sleep on there and basically just dragged me to bed, bed forced me to sleep in the bed next to him and then the next year when he went to work I like immediately rang the police. Police came round and I'll honestly never ever ever fucking forget what the police said to me like after I told them the full story they looked traumatized from me telling them the story because obviously at that time I remember really been a lot better so I have had so many more details on and the police officers said to me we deal with domestic violence

19:51every single day and we've never ever seen anything as vicious as this before and I'll never ever forget that. He attacked you like a rabid fucking dog. Basically yeah. So what was the outcome? Basically nothing. CPS just said like I went in I had to give a big statement so he got away with it because basically none of the neighbor even though I was fucked up where did all that come from none of the neighbors had heard anything and also his mate was in the spare bedroom at the time and what he did was he turned his music up dead loud so that he couldn't hear my screams so because the police interviewed him and he was like I didn't see anything I didn't hear anything it didn't happen so he got away with it. Okay so two things so before he attacked you like a frenzied dog was there any signs that he could switch like that? Was it a build up or did he just one day turn? Just one day turned there was only like little things what I'd noticed like we'd be out together like we'd be out at the pub or whatever and if a boy spoke to me he would like

20:54drag me out of the way and stuff like that just small things like you know like possessiveness and stuff like that but nothing to that level actually nor he did get violent a few times but my memory must have just taken it away because I remember one time um because we worked together I were bossing something about us I tried to reach out to my boss for help basically and mentioned to my boss that he was violent will be sometimes but just you know I dropped it in in a subtle way and it just got completely ignored. It's a shame you never got convicted for that so the CPS chose not to charge through lack of evidence that must have taken its toll on you yeah even if a man gets attacked like that that normally results in PTSD yeah am I right in saying that would have took its toll on you yeah what was your coping mechanism was what did you lean into drink drugs sex did you cling onto something to make the weed there you go yeah weed um but to begin with I was just raw dog in it because I didn't even realize that I had PTSD I was just I was a very very vulnerable and I didn't realize what I how fucked up I was

21:59mentally and emotionally at the time and then I ended up getting into another violent relationship because I was just so vulnerable and this person made me feel like you're going to be safe from me I'll take care of you I'll look after you and that was just another person who I needed protected from basically that's why I went eight years celibate because I had two fucked up relationships in a row it can't and then also with my fucked up childhood as well emotional my brain is just like don't cry don't cry don't cry this episode is brought to you by redfin you're listening to a podcast which means you're probably multitasking maybe even scrolling home listings on redfin saving homes without expecting to get them but redfin isn't just built for endless browsing it's built to help you find and own a home with agents who close twice as many deals when you find the one you've got a real shot at getting it get started at redfin.com own the dream my day kicks off with the refreshing Celsius energy drink then straight to the gym pre-get pick up back onto meal prep time for my fire session shift one more Celsius

23:04gotta keep the lights on when the three alarm hits I'm ready Celsius live fit go grab a cold refreshing Celsius at your local retailer or locate now at Celsius.com you can take a breather anytime yeah and you're in good hands I've had a very traumatic past so I get it I feel it don't worry yeah it's like my brain is taken on the belief the people who are supposed to protect me and the people who aren't protecting from and you know what that second abusive boyfriend you probably lent into him because he felt familiar they were probably similar similarities between number one and number two yeah is dad was a gangster as well so it like we had a crazy relationship I'm not number two yes any bits that you look back and think that was quite nice or was it all just chaos and abusive no there was part of it that were nice um I'm I'm absolutely not gonna slug him off in the slightest because we were both toxic in that relationship and I do have to take accountability

24:05for myself as well um I was also violent towards him as well but obviously he's tougher than me so he would beat the shit out me that's good that you said that because not a lot of people would I mean especially now like we're living in uh in times where victimhood seems to be fashionable yeah so I always I mean I always put my hands up if I'm in the wrong I say do you know what I thought about it retrospectively I was in the wrong sorry yeah and then done tell me about the time you met the devil so um in 2020 are you started all the people to meet yes yeah well it's actually just so wild because I started experimenting with DMT the fucking best thing I've ever ever done it before no and we don't advocate DMT on this channel either well it's amazing maritas yeah I do we don't so basically it just oh wow but the first time I met the devil I'd

25:07actually done it in my garden I was sitting in my garden and it was just the most unbelievable amazing experience which sounds odd to say meeting the devil's amazing experience because he carry in a file effects no so the first you were in sunglasses indoors so basically he came out from behind like a bush and he um looked like he tumness from um the land which in the wardrobe yeah he had little goat legs and he came over and he basically was so friendly and so nice and so lovely and he introduced himself to me as the devil and he was like um the history about me is so wrong um I'm a good person blah blah blah and he basically convinced me that he was good and it was really unfair history and how it'd been portrayed over the millennia or whatever and I believed him and then every time I did DMT after that he would turn upon my trips and he would take me a certain realms and anyway I would come back and I would like discuss my trips

26:07my friends because DMT only it's a very intense experience but it only lasts between 10 and 15 minutes and it's kind of like a dream it goes away so when you come back you need to either write it down or talk about it immediately or you've just forgot it and it's and it was a pointless experience so I would come back I would tell my friends about it and they would they were really concerned like Marie this is the devil his trick and yeah and I was like you haven't met him you haven't felt what his energy is like he's good he really really did trick me and then the moment I realized it was he it was basically slowly pulling me to the dark side slowly slowly taking me these realms that were getting darker and darker did you consider breaching your celibacy open up and funnily enough funnily enough he actually came and we one time on one of my trips and he basically asked me to must a bit give him my sexual energy and he said I will teach you how to how to manifest and have what you want using your sexual energy and I said no to him

27:09sounds like he was steering you to prostitution who knows but he took me to a vampire realm I actually wouldn't mind going back to be fair but that's what the line is tell me all about that vampire realm so basically when I went there as far as I'm aware everybody there was a vampire and it was just the normal thing and I got there and I was a vampire as well and he was encouraging me to feed on somebody and I did and when you're like drinking the blood and like it's like drinking pure sexually literally can't stop you just like just one more and one more and there was like all bored coming down here it was like oh my god and I came back and I was telling my friends about it and I was like oh and when I saw my friends face is that's the moment I realized and I was like oh and then I'll sink like shit like what I'm gonna do now like I've made friends with the devil is like literally turned up on every trip and then I'll sink like everybody talks about meeting all these different things why am I not meeting these and then I realized it's cause I'm knocking about with a devil of made friends that no it was gonna come and want to see me when I'm knocking about the devil so then I'll sink and how am I actually gonna get rid of

28:12him now like shit and I was a bit scared like thinking oh this is gonna be a nightmare so net on my next trip I kind of had to do like kind of like a break up with him sort of thing and I was like listen we've had a really good time did you say it's not you it's me and I was like um I don't want to I would like it if you just like left me alone now and let me explore the realms on my own and he basically was just like yep okay and he has left me alone since I've done um DMT since I've done mushrooms and stuff since he's never ever appeared to me again and from the back of that how I perceive the devil is now because he was never it was never necessarily bad to me he was just a bad influence and that's our seem now I see him more I was like I think the devil is more of like a toxic friend and he's a toxic person who likes to pull all the people to embrace their toxicity and I think that that's really that's our perceive him now is not necessarily

29:14a an evil person his more of a toxic person he wants everybody else to be toxic like him so you perceive the devil now as an influence as opposed to an actual thing like an entity yeah but you have claimed to be the messenger of God previously have I arc angel oh so that wasn't me I guess I kind of took it on board at one point so okay right during the pandemic I met somebody who oh god what a nutcase he was um someone from Manchester and basically he wholeheartedly believed that he was Archangel Michael and he basically convinced me that I was Archangel Ariel and I basically got pulled into this cult I didn't realise it was a cult at the time but I was just mesmerised by this person and I was like a fool basically um and it just turned out that basically he's a total nutcase but then there's there's a rival cult in Manchester as well

30:16there's not just one there's a rival cult what are these cults what what do they prescribe to like so he believes that he's not only Archangel Michael he believes that he's also Jesus he believes that and his girlfriend is the mind of God and them two together are supposed to like take over the world be the world leaders and they're supposed to make the world a better place but they're both crazy absolutely crazy like they've just both got like side courses or something you you bought into that yeah it's giving love about it how big is this cult how many followers um so do you know what I don't even know if it's still going now but um I'd asked him like how it like how much of a secret is it that like your Archangel Michael like who who knows and he said like there's about 50 people in Manchester who actually know about it um but there there was a rival cult who tried to porch me um cult poaching yeah yeah they tried to porch me and um so some guy

31:18who believed that believes that he's Buddha tried to get me to join their cult and he was like the it's the a woman called this there's people from Holy Orcs and Coronation Street in in these cults in in Manchester I'm not going to name any names but I'm sure that people from Manchester will know exactly what I'm talking about and I'm sure they'll put it in the comments it's what the comment sections built for yes but he'd convinced me to go and meet this woman called Ann and she was supposed to be the person who was like gonna like a prove of me or whatever um and I was lit because I was doing a DMT ceremony for some footballers wives in Manchester actually obviously obviously yeah so um I was lit and he just got insanely angry with me he was like you've wasted my time how dare you this this man who believes that he's Buddha how dare you like and just got really angry and aggressive with me and then I was like yeah I'm not like seal it and then I've just like never sport him again Buddha lost his chill yeah yeah yeah yeah and then I

32:24applied them both off after that because did you have to do the whole it's not you it's meeting again yeah yeah well like that was was what I mean we laugh and joke but normally where there's cults there are dangers and there's dangerous people I've taken the piss out of them but was either of those men dangerous yes so um the other call I don't really know much about them the Buddha one do you know what I'm not even gonna slag him off because Lord's people know who he is and he hasn't necessarily done anything bad to me but the other one the one who believes his archangel Michael believes he's also um Arthur pulled the sword from the stone like oh he's just got the hugest ego spiritual ego um he's a very dangerous person because he's also a hypnotist and there are girls who've told me that they've gone him he does raki as well he's a um I though how I met him was he I did my raki courses within my raki one and two let's have

33:25we got into you yeah and then that's when he was like your archangel are yelling all this stuff he he was actually he didn't actually see it to me to begin with he just kept saying you're like me you're one of us you need to work it out yourself and it like basically that he was he groomed me basically groomed me but anyway there's um he sounds a bit like Keefer Sutherland Keefer Sutherland from the Lost Boys oh yeah I love that movie yeah um so yes there's girls he does need to work out who he is though with a greedy cunt who Keefer Sutherland no the cult leader he thinks he's messenger of this soul in the stone that yeah he's all over the place and how does that mind control process work I mean that's a drip feed process in it coming for raki you're one of us and how does it escalate to like you then believe in that you're a messenger of God because I totally like fell for it so naively just like he had a lot of followers on Instagram as well like and he was the same as always speaking out about all stuff it was like

34:26during covid and he was doing the exact same as me on social media and trying to like raise awareness sent people stopping stupid like trying to get people to like understand what's going on so I thought he's he's like me I've related to him but he wasn't like me he's a predator so there's girls who've told me that they've gone to him for raki and when they've gone him for a raki session there couldn't remember anything and the belief that they've been hypnotized and he's done stuff to them well they've been like hypnotized so there's one girl she told me like after she come back she was like she said she immediately started crying she was like why can't I remember anything why can't I remember anything is he well known in the area where people know who you're talking about without naming him Paul boys is called I don't give a fuck I'll call him out he's a cunt is he been arrested ever I don't know he's dangerous so he after I left the cult I had fucking loads of people reaching out to me loads of people and I heard that

35:29they'd done this like ceremony where they sacrificed a cat or yeah that's holy isn't it they literally killed and sacrificed a cat get this his girlfriend had collected up her period blood and he convinced everybody that they should smear her period blood onto their face and they fucking did it he needs sectioning he does he does he needs locking up for good if that's what he's actually doing yeah in fact the people that are smearing period blood on their faces could do with a fucking check up from the neck up to yeah was that the final straw for you I'd already left by then so basically his girlfriend oh god I don't actually what so his girlfriend is a girl who are from Maya even though he's from Manchester his girlfriend's from my area she used to be my best we don't speak or anything anymore and I'd actually introduce them I'd take her to Manchester one time to go to one of his protests and I'd take her with me and I didn't produce them never thought anything of it fell out with her stop speak at where and then it was ages later I was

36:32actually making like YouTube videos about him like call him out letting people know like this is a dangerous man this is what is done did you not get arrested or even visited by the police for malicious communications because that's why unless it's in the public domain that he's been arrested and charged for something if you name somebody it could land you in trouble which is why I was sort of treading carefully because I don't need to get in trouble oh okay did you never paid a visit by anybody no no because what happened was I actually took those videos down because then I found out that my old best friend was with him and then I thought that's embarrassing for her because then loads of people in our area were getting in touch with me saying um we're really worried about her like a family and all of her close friends at that time were extremely worried about her and they'd been sent my video about him and then they were reaching out to me like how can we get her away from him and so then I took them videos down because I didn't want her to be embarrassed like I had to compassion for her even though we weren't friends anymore

37:33so when he first started grooming you and you were doing the rakey he wasn't with your friend no do you think he was trying to get you to fall in love with him then he could really get you under his spell maybe because that's what he did with a lot of the other girls so that there's there's another girl um who she was archangel Ariel after me and um almost all of the girls had a thing with him so one of one of my friends as well who she didn't actually like properly joined the cult but she was like in it and witnessed so basically he'd we'd gone to visit him one time in Manchester and said you guys can stay at my house so we assumed that there was a spare bedroom he must have been thinking he was going to have a fucking freezer with us or something we got there not it was just a one bedroom apartment so then we were like ready to sleep on the sofa and he kicked Alan it's weird the way that he shamed her to go like get into bedroom to know what I wish I should have watched my video back where I talked about it so I could remember what he said to her because he like we were like literally on the sofa together me and her

38:35ready to go sleeping like off sound there's no extra bedroom but I can't get he came storming angrily out of the bedroom and said something along the lines of to her like how dare you think that you can come here and just sleep on the sofa and not get in my bed um something like along the lines of I'm archangel Ariel like what I'm archangel Michael like get up now and basically she just got up and went with him so I think the majority of the girls who weren't involved he's not my type whatsoever you can't know um but yeah a lot of the girls were mesmerized by him CRM was supposed to improve customer relationships instead it's shorthand for customer rage machine your CRM can't explain why a customer's package took five detours reboot your inner piece and scream into a pillow it's okay on the surface now AI platform CRM stands for something better AI agents don't just track issues they resolve them transforming the entire customer experience so breathe in and breathe out

39:37bad CRM was then this is service now fucking hell you know what the more people I speak to the more mad I realized the world is at it's just insane out there and nothing surprises me at all I don't doubt for a split second that everything you've just said is absolutely 100% gospel I dare say he used the how this is this is God's message you know mine he wants you to sleep with me yeah well do you know what he did at one time to me I'd like made a post on um Instagram and it's got like proper viral and then he'd like remade it word for word but put his name on the bottom and then his went viral as well and then like I'd confronted him and I was like you've literally like plagiarized me and put your name at the end and he was like no you got that message from God so that I could receive it and put it out like that's the way that he would speak to people hey go anyone that's out there stealing people's content just tell him it's fucking it was God's will so from the men that you've spoke to me about number one abusive number two abusive this third guy off his fucking rocker

40:42from a female's perspective what are men lacking these days strength leadership there's just not enough real men anymore obviously that there is still some but the majority of men now are just sore law testosterone they're like we can pathetic little soy boys like the most men tell me that I'm intimidating look you know I'm mine if you find me intimidating like oh what would your ideal man be like dominant aggressive no dominant direct yeah direct but a gentleman basically but general men have like that that pretty much a dying breed yes very hard these days for men to be strong charming empathetic understanding dominant when need to be take control society has watered them down yeah well it's now to be a man it's considered toxic yeah so maybe men maybe men I mean this is not me answering your question but I think men are lacking strength

41:45yes to be what they're supposed to be yeah I mean how the fuck can you protect if you too scared to yeah exactly and I think that that's why people men find me intimidating because they're like she's so fucking brave she's so fucking strong how can I match up to that when I'm supposed to be a man and I'm supposed to be stronger and brave than her and the know that the not who leads the way normally in a relationship with you who takes control it should always be the man I think like if I walk all over yeah it's I'm gonna lose attraction figure I'll just think that you're pathetic if you let me walk all over yeah I could see that you could be a tricky customer so do you think for a man yeah well you're strong and forceful aren't you and I do submit if you're a strong person like but I think that's a bad thing yeah for me fine but I know a lot of men out there would would crumble in modern day society because but they're weak I mean ever the fucking the church is weak men are weak yeah society tells you need to be weak you're too scared to do anything in case you get arrested you cut you you you don't raise your voice to someone

42:46because you'll be considered abusive it's kind of a loose loose situation for men I won't buy into that fucking bullshit I'll still always be me and fucking if you don't like it too bad yeah fuck you well that's the thing about society now isn't it like toxic masculinity is like shoved down our well about toxic femininity it goes both ways there's positive and toxic to both genders but when do you ever hear about toxic femininity like why are nobody talking about all of the toxic women who are causing men to kill themselves the passive aggressive covert narcissists that are just chipping away at them in yeah and it's like just use them for the money and all that stuff like there's so many total bitches out there but we only concentrate on the men you speak out against feminism isn't yeah yeah it's fucking bullshit although would you say you are a feminist to a certain extent no what is it what is it you dislike about feminism the most the idiots the really are like their whole belief in ideology is mostly about hating men it's not about women being empowered it's

43:50about men of this men of that are shut the fuck up I think a strong person allows somebody else to take the lead from time to time because they're comfortable and they and they are strong but talking about weak men and we lead loathsome to that description of man where I'm going with this I mean I don't know yeah I mean fucking hell who knows what you what's going to come out of your mouth but you you may love him Keir Starmer what are your thoughts on him I would like to fucking head what a cunt he needs thrown in jail now he needs the shit kicking out of him do you know what how is it why right of people not realized now there's so many of us who hate the government there's what thousands of politicians but millions of us why haven't we fucking stormed down in street why haven't we stormed the house is a parliament why haven't we stopped paying council tax they'll stop fucking being constable once we stop giving them the money people don't realize how powerful we are I'm glad

44:52you you attacked that we've asking why aren't we doing this rather than inciting it yeah something else I need to keep my eye on you I don't want you getting in trouble being charged to start coos since 2020 yeah nothing was nothing just kidding nothing was surprised me Jeffrey Epstein dead alive I believe he is alive I believe is in Israel there's no footage of his actual death and there's where's the body where's the body apparently he's in an unmarked grave that man was astonishingly powerful he had the police he had the government all wrapped around his finger and people actually believe that he's dead no literally it was it was a publicity stunt him gone jail it was a publicity stunt and then they've got him out pretended that he's dead he is in Israel he is a Mossad asset 100% what makes you think he's a Mossad asset his role for Israel and for Mossad was to honey trap

45:52very powerful influential people so that Israel can control America and everywhere else because obviously the the royalty here as well the control knows in America you've got air park here you've got the friends of conservatives friends of labor and that they're all Israel Israel controlling everything the behind everything even all the Muslims flooding our country now that's the Jews they were doing it sorry not not the Jews because you can't lump them all into one thing it's the zinists it's the Israelis they are causing all this and allowing all of this so that they come flooding into our country because basically what they believe is they haven't had their Messiah yet and they believe that their Messiah is coming once they get like attacked off everybody so they're trying to create this whole problem so that their Messiah can come I always leave a percentage in my mind for doubt because the world is crazy and I haven't got it right all the time in fact

46:57a lot of the time I get it wrong which is why I ask a lot of questions because I want to seek the truth and most people that come on here their anti-HMS pro-Israel other than David Ike son and a couple of others we've not really gone down the Israel rabbit hole so I want to know how against them both I'm against the zinists and I'm against extremist Islam as well what is it about Zionist as far as I know Zionist is somebody that believes that Israel should have their own bit of land why does that mean that you've got to murder lots of people yeah fair enough have your own piece of land but just because it says in an ancient book from thousands of years ago one day you're going to inherit this land why does that mean that you need to go murder everybody who's there now that's not very holy that's not a religious thing to do that's a conty thing to do but they are surrounded by countries that are full of people that want to kill them so they're in the way I did the pull himself there because the warning being there since the 40s or 50s they

48:00chose that piece of land because they want to be in Palestine don't put yourself in the middle of people who think you're a cunt if you don't want shit to happen here so were you pro-Palestine throughout that conflict um so there was a time when I was pro-Palestine simply because I knew it was guilt knowing that my tax money our tax money is paying for the destruction of that entire country the murder of those children and it's partly guilt that made me it and then I just thought do you know what the both the both cunts the both cunts like so now I just try not to try not to get into it at all you try to focus more on the UK now yeah because Israel is so deeply embedded into our politics they're the ones who are allowing all this to happen they're fucking up and Kia Starmer's ass and they're controlling him but he he's he's a total puppet as well he's been this is a role that he's been building up to for a long long long long

49:05time since it's 20s like there's he's in some um Slovakian spy files where he was like I don't know whether the right word is groomed but they were looking for up and coming influential um politicians from throughout the west and they got them all over there and they were like in still in communism into them and then look what's happening now with the country we're pretty much we are communist we already are communist there's no argue in the fight like it's just cancelled a lot of um elections there's no democracy anymore then is there no go back to the jew things i'm interested in this because normally we don't touch base on that on this channel i'm actually accused of being funded by the jews people people people going next i've got a hand last like yeah i'm not that important well are you always I was questioning at one point whether you were Mossadasset and i was but me it's a franick and i was like um thinking i'm not thinking like all noisy like uh uh uh uh israel trying to like get me shot by and i think because i think

50:09that so you keep invited me to speak up one of their things and then i found out they're um thingy to buy israel but it's probably just paranoia oh i would say it definitely and i think israel interested in you keep or fucking anybody else but i definitely do fund you keep as well and when i um when we're like sat down to dinner i was at the table with the the leader of the party and the chairman who nick tencony yes nick tencony and i asked him what is your stance on israel and he fucking danced about it like a politician does and he was like what do you mean israel are you talking about there and he was just trying to dance around it and i was like i'm talking about the government what do you think about the government and he was like uh uh uh he didn't have an answer for it and then ben walker who is the um chairman he was like oh god marie what are you asking him these questions for like they did not want to answer any questions about israel whatsoever and then when i've researched it they're funded by it i also met the CEO of turning point you care and i was in um i was um what's happened with him to potentially

51:15join them but then he stopped relating to me i think it was because of all the shit that i say online about israel or was i've chilled out a bit now because it's got me deleted so i just need to relax because they control all of social media every the control everything so this is what confuses me because i know a lot of people are of the same mindset of you but if the Jews the Jews if they control everything including the media yeah and they're part of the influx of these illegal migrants now i'm sure that there's liberal elite jewish fucking lunatics that are a part of that yeah like a lot of lefty lunatics are yeah but if they're part of the influx of illegal migration why they import in people all around the west that want them dead which like islamist want them dead it's in their curriculum you know you you learn about science sports history english in that curriculum in iran and places a lot you know islamist countries yeah they're talked to hate and kill christians and Jews from from birth so why would they want more

52:18of them to surround them and if they control the media why do they allow people to lambass them so freely on social media because they are and anti-semitism as fucking hit the roof yeah you think that puts you think they'd stamp that out well they they are like when i got deleted the last time i got deleted in december the last restriction on my basically i'd posted on my story um with all the evidence shown how the Jews control the media the six main corporations that own everything and they're owned by Jews they control every aspect of the mainstream whether it's like news magazines like everything even like well you've only got to look at like maxelkeberg Jew he owns facebook and instagram like it's they're deeply embedded into the hall of the media they are clever cunts so aren't they yeah they're high like you yeah they're just you don't like them dear it's it's the z-inists i don't like the control and the oppression

53:24and and everything that the the putting us through because they're trying to collapse the west because they want to be in control of the world that's why because the west are the main europe's the main like powerhouse of the world really and they're trying to collapse us by letting all of these muslims come in because the control all of the governments the control like the weft you know you will all nothing and be happy by 2030 they want that because if they can collapse the country then we are easier to control if they collapse the country then it's easier for them to say right use a role in universal credit now use all let's take just like what they're doing now in oxford where the city has been split up into six sections you you got that you've got your 15 minute section you can't go at these other sec you're allowed a hundred permits a year to go to another section that will slowly slowly reduce until get your car taken off yeah you're not allowed anymore now you want to use public transport and it will slowly getting more

54:24and more and more communist and that's what the Jews want because then that's how the con control is all and have you formed your opinion on the Israeli elite based on influencers people you follow stuff you've read as opposed to actually going out there and investing have you ever been to israel or gaza i've not not there was a time when i did really want to go um but i just really don't think i would because i know how much the zinists fucking hit christians as well they hit anyone who's not a zinist like i've seen horrible videos where they're like there's a woman who was like trying to like preach the bible and the word people were just smacking us bit and out of because they believe that they are the chosen ones the thing is about Jews about all religion to be perfectly honest you brainwashed from birth by your parents when you were brought up religious you are brainwashed into a certain belief in Jews a brainwashed into believing we are the chosen race and one day we will take over the world and they they think that

55:28we are subhuman in comparison to them so the hate us all i wouldn't i'm not going to go out with place where i know that the people are going to hate me because i'm not one of the chosen ones the world moves fast you work day even faster pitching products drafting reports analyzing data Microsoft 365 co-pilot is your AI assistant for work built into word excel powerpoint and other Microsoft 365 apps you use helping you quickly right analyze create and summarize so you can cut through clutter and clear path to your best work learn more at microsoft.com slash and 365 co-pilot life is full of choices but the choice between getting crispy chicken nuggets or a crunch wrap slider isn't one you'll have to make the new crispy chicken crunch wrap slider at Taco Bell all white meat chicken nuggets breaded into her t-a chips wrapped up sauce and all inside a slider size crunch wrap choose from creamy chipotle or jalapeno honey mustard

56:28well there we go life still full of choices the new crispy chicken crunch wraps later a brand new classic only at Taco Bell and participating in those Taco Bell locations for limited time and loss of place last well i have been to Israel just for the record not that anyone fucking paid me to go there but i went there to see for myself i got an invite so basically that they had an influx of where they was inviting influencers to go out there and just have a little look around it was a bit of a tour yeah but i thought well fucking if i'm i mean yeah of course i can see what's going on so i look around everybody i met out there every single Jew was beyond friendly and welcome in and helpful and they were lovely so that's why i struggled to i struggled to dislike them because every single Jew that i come across was very very very apart from them fucking acidic weirdos they weren't for me but like you normal average Jew very family orientated pro family uh pro having more and more children and pro business and sort of pro

57:32nationalist which i think the UK need because we're just we we don't respect ourselves anymore so yeah as if anyone that's coming over on a boat is going to respect up if we don't respect ourselves exactly it's it's the government here with a problem not necessarily the people who live down she with the people who live there are lovely people but it's the government it's it's the state the thing about Israel is they have no ability to separate state from religion but the people over there the the ordinary Jew that's spoken about getting on with their day-to-day life they think that your opinion is madness so they don't see for me i i'll speak out against my government i fucking hate labor and the conservatives they're both responsible for the destruction and i haven't got an ounce of loyalty to either of them i think they're fucking filthy what they've done to the country i don't trust Nigel Farage either i don't think he's the answer i don't think there's anybody out there right now who is the answer i think the full government just needs to to go it's if an apple is rotten from the core you wouldn't decide yourself i'll just nibble

58:39around the edges and and hope that the inside fixes itself and no you shot it in the bin and get something brand new and that's what we need because it's been decades now where to just get in worse and worse and worse and worse none of those people in place not not a single person within that system can be trusted the full thing needs to be abolished and we need to sit down and decide what is actually better what is what's best and we need to look at other countries such as like Poland who do it well and and do a good job with their country and see take an example from the ones who do it well i think they need to pass the DMT pipe round parliament so i had a blast on that folks yeah and like come to your senses so who do you think's the biggest threat to the to the UK israel or islam both it's hard to say because i don't blame you for having these views by the way because i mean they're they're being pumped out they're unrepeat by a lot of people a lot of smart

59:43people and if you really do your research it's fucking confusing out there at the moment yeah very confusing well just want to think just what i think i've got it's sust i see or hear something i think fucking actually then you were wrong but i don't mind being wrong i'm not i'm not pickheaded because that's your smart i've got i've got no ego because i want to know the truth i can't be i can't be definite yeah and i think it's dangerous to be definite that's our war star that's that's stupid as well to be definite a stupid person can't change their mind when they're given new evidence a smart person gets new evidence and they're like oh okay maybe i should rethink that so could you be wrong about the Jews possibly yes of course yeah i could have i could have been brainwashed i'm gonna get called an agent agent because i'm pushing back what you want my cold your free was mustard so islam islam israel you think they're both as dangerous as each other yeah because we've got israel who are controlling the government and the government and the ones who are like making everything bad happen to us but then you've got these muslims who are flooding

1:00:46the country and just raping like it's a sport and now with a rape capital of europe like there's many were raping teenage girls in broad daylight and gone oops the daisy i didn't even know it was a legal oh i didn't know beaten yet a death was illegal like a can i get away with that do you feel safe as a woman in the UK now no and you do do jitsu and you're very fiery and you're very confident so you think you know if if there was a woman out there that was going to feel safe it would be you say if you don't feel safe i'd like to think how like a timid young you know yeah definitely yeah because i i am a very confident person as well i have got this little issue as well where i'm not really scared of anyone i would fight my katai's and if push compassion of no and i'm going to die um or about netanyahu i would fight him to the death yes more certainly so you don't feel safe as a woman in in in the UK no not really not to be fair where i live we don't really have any illegals i can touch wood that that doesn't change and we get control

1:01:47of this before the make it to my area so like but like go to london stuff like one of my best friends lives in london it it's disgusting london now like oh oh all the cities are like oh no well here's a promise that i'll make because i call out my own and no one's safe with me if i think someone's a danger to women or children society or innocent people i like and there's receipts out there that prove that i will come fucking gunning for you like a wild bull if i'm ever presented with hardcore concrete evidence that the Jews are responsible and i'm pushing this fucking invasion onto the uk i will switch sides just like that and i will target them like you've never ever fucking seen and you and everyone listening has my word but until then send you some stuff yeah until then i'm uh yeah i'm not i'm not convinced but let me tell you something you said once this is totally off topic now we're going to end it with something completely different

1:02:49of a scrolling through your instagram and you said something i thought that's interesting i'm going to ask you today at the end of the interview have you ever tried getting over somebody that you was never with this was very recently um it's so annoying with like so like i'm back to like dating again and attempting to like meet people and with like situation ships and stuff now i hate the date in a world now it's it's awful i wish we could just go back to like 90's style like men will literally like pretend that the one a relationship with you and then they'll just be like actually i only want to focus yeah and then it's like it because you then start thinking yourself like if you have like a really good connection with someone i've been single for eight years i'm not going to pretend that i'm not a little bit lonely i don't just miss sex i miss cuddles and stuff as well so like when once you start like getting that attention and stuff again it's easy to let yourself get carried away and then when

1:03:53you get paid afterwards it's like oh actually it's like i allowed myself to get attached there where i really shouldn't have and i think it's a really common thing with not just women but men as well let's just say you grew fond of somebody and you got intimate with them and then you noticed that they had no foreskin would you think there was a mouset agent would you go jume so you're back on the date in scene yeah but do you know what i'm even apprehensive because last year roundabout marchist time march time i decided i'm ready to date again and stupid me i went on to hinge oh jesus so i'm never ever using date and apps again i'll let this this man come pick me up from a house and then we went for a coffee we got on like a house on fire we had lots of the same opinions and we you know when you're just like you just can't stop talking it went really really well but then he just got like a bit too like obsessive with me and saying like creepy things he was like creeping me out a little bit so i said that i didn't want a second date and then

1:04:56i said i get in death threats and stuff from him and he really really scared me so now it's just like every time i try and like do it again i'm just like some crazy motherfucker appears yeah like i'm i'm a magnet for idiots but i'm gonna put all of your social media links in the description here youtube x instagram facebook so if you're homophobic racist anti-Semitic and you hate and you've got your false getting transphobic you've got your false getting text unvaccinated unvaxed uh give me give me read the m and uh you may be the chosen one so final question final question what do you want at a life what's the dream wow um do you know what it's funny that you should ask me that question because i'm at this point in my life where i'm feeling lost again where i feel like i've got no direction i don't know what direction i want to go in so like i've finished uni and um obviously i lost my job as a teacher and i don't necessarily even want to go back to that

1:05:58because that was just my job while i was at uni and i'm just finding it really hard to find a job in engineering and i'm just like feeling like a bit lost like what do i actually really what what direction do i want to take my life in because then i've got like my own little business and stuff as well and it's just like i don't i don't know lost professionally or spiritually as well both yeah yeah both of them i feel like i'm just like i'm not a hundred percent right now sure what my path is because i feel like there's so many different paths in front of me i don't know which one i'm supposed to walk down because i think for so many years i've been jumping from path to path i'll do a bit of this bit of that bit of that and i was like i want to settle into one lean and i don't know what lean i want to settle into if you've got a few lanes that you're thinking of though if you've got options yeah i just we'll edit that burp out or should we keep it in you keep it in i don't give a fuck the burp stays in ladies and gentlemen so i've forgotten what we're

1:07:03talking about now i've distracted myself with that but yeah you said you're a bit lost and i said if you've got a few lanes that you can shift into because i tried i like to end every conversation on a on a on a positive yeah with with everyone with a we agree we don't agree you know even if the story is really sad because a lot of time a lot of people lean into me that have had trauma because they know that i have and i know that making lighter situations is kind of the cure and it does get you through to the next to the next stage so i'd like to think of something positive to say what are your aspirations although i space may be finding your feet being it being more definite yeah we've established it being too definite dangerous what we're going to do i don't know um if there's if there's any engineers out there would like to give me a job then that would be great but you know what also feeling a little bit lost is also feeling a little bit free it means that you're not really tied down to nothing you haven't got a commit because you haven't committed yeah and to leave it the half the glass half full rather than half empty it's like well i've got lots of freedom the world's your oyster then yeah it's that of which way you're going to go the next stage is to sit here and ponder and wonder where am i

1:08:03going to go yeah well i hope you make the right decision everything pans out lovely for you and i'll put everything out there if you've enjoyed this conversation give her a follow she's a bundle of joy great energy in the room it's a shame you can't feel the energy in it but that's that was a thoroughly enjoyable hour and five minutes that we just spent like and subscribe to this channel you're not going to get conversations like this on the mainstream media you know that and i know that and the devil knows that and marina knows that and on that note i wish you all the luck in the world and thank you may you stay safe thank you thank you