Chitchats and Insights

Hello, hello, welcome to Ram and go to astrology. I'm Laura Lee and I'm Helena. Welcome. Welcome. So we, uh, we're just going to do a chitchat today because that's the Pisces vibe. What are we got six six things in Pisces seven? I don't know. North note is there Mars just moved in Pisces Mars is still now. Yeah Mercury's retrograding Venus is at the edge of it.

Yeah, I think that was six. Yeah, so we're just going to flow with the Pisces. Let's flow. Let's flow. We're flowing. So I did, uh, I went to Chicago this past weekend, which is about three hours south of me and taught a class for about nine people and it was so much fun. And the class was about abundance, prosperity, stepping into that being in alignment with yourself to bring abundance and prosperity.

And normally when I do these classes, I have a general idea of how I'm going to kind of dive in, right. So I dove in. I kind of explained how I look at astrology in the chart and how I see it as this musical piece that you can learn to play in each of the planets as an instrument.

So I explained that and they were like, okay, we get it. They're all on board. So then I pulled up a chart and then I started diving in.

Girl, the way I dove in was so bass ass acquires. I can't believe I went this way. And as I was doing it, I heard my like logical brain going, what are we doing? And I was like, I don't know what it would.

So I started reading people's charts, not what their Sun sign, not what their moons sign, not even what they're rising. No girl, I dove into their Kyron. Yeah.

That's how I started class. I was like, let's hit you at your core, right here. Bam.

Sweet.

Literally dove into their core wound. I was like, oh, wow, you don't feel good doing X, Y and Z. And they were like,

Yeah.

And it went well, but I'm not sure why I ended up hitting it from that angle. I've talked lots of classes. I've never gone from that angle before.

But it makes sense. It does. When you say it like that, it's like, absolutely, because that's that's where we can see like, yeah, like what's our fears? What's stopping you? What's holding you back?

Exactly. I was like, how are we going to have abundance? If we do not know where we have this insecurity wound, right?

This, this I'm not blank enough. I'm not good enough smart enough, confident enough, put in your word, right?

But Kyron is that I'm not blank enough. And if we are going to have abundance, if we're going to get an alignment with our prosperity and whatever that looks like financial relational, you know,

we have to know where our wound is. And when it gets triggered, how it gets activated and how it shows up for us. So I'm up in front of these people, literally heal in my wound, right? My core,

my Kyron is in Taurus in the 12th house. So how I interpret that is I have to heal the wound of self-reliance and valuing myself, right?

And being loyal to my uniqueness and 12th house is boundarylessness, right? There's there's no breaks. There's no walls. There's no anything between me and the next realm, right?

Between me and the spirit homies, and between me and the past lives of these other people's, I can just like open their storybook.

And while I'm talking to Marlene, I'm actually talking to Marlene's 86 past lives as well. Yeah, right? So for me, that's me healing my wound, literally in front of these people, yeah, I'm addressing their wound.

It was so amazing. There was no structure. There was no, yeah, it was just me flowing down the dam river and doing all the weird Pisces, everything.

Yeah. Oh, that's cool. I was talking to a friend of mine about actually Kyron related things today, too, because you and I have been talking because I have Kyron in cancer.

Yeah. And you about to become a mama?

I am about to become mama, and I've had a lot of fears around that growing up, like I never thought I would.

I was sure that I can't get pregnant. I've just had a lot of fears that does not come from this life or from me, because I have not experienced anything bad related to any of this before this comes from past lives and, you know,

but I was talking to my doula today, because now I decided, I think we're going to go through. If she can make it work, I'm just waiting for her, like, okay, she's just going to check her schedule.

With a friend of mine, and she's a doula, and she has been on a break, but I just came back to it and just feels amazing to have her there.

Good.

Um, with me side story, she does a raky as well, and I had a raky session with her when I was pregnant, like, I must have been like one week or something.

Um, and in the session afterwards, we talked a little bit about what came up, and she said that she saw a baby being born.

And I also saw, did you know you were pregnant at this time?

No, no, no, no, no, not at all.

So there was not like conscious awareness, there was no positive tests.

No, no, no, but like the D had been done.

The D had been done.

The seed was planted, and I also in the session, there was, there came a time, and I think this, we probably saw this at the same time.

And I saw a small, like a small little baby, like growing, and she saw like a baby being born.

And that was so cool, because then we were like, oh, that was very cool.

And then like fast forward a couple of weeks, and I'm like, I'm pregnant.

So she sort of, like, she was there for the, for the first meeting or whatever with the baby.

So it's, it's been nice to have her involved in this anyway.

Um, I was talking to her and telling her how much being pregnant has healed, is healing me every day.

And I, I know, like I told her, like, I do not know what's going to happen tomorrow.

I don't take for granted, you know, that everything will always be fine or that, um, you know, it can just only hope for the best.

And what will be will be, but I'm so grateful for this pregnancy so far, because it's been so good.

For my healing and my chiron in cancer and this little baby's doing that.

She's helping me heal that wound.

Yeah, chiron wound.

Yeah, absolutely.

And yours is in the sixth house, correct?

Yeah.

Yeah.

So those are the, the daily routines that come with being a mama, right?

The wiping buds, the nurse and babies, the cleaning up, the, like that's that cancer healing, that cancer wound of tending to the home,

tending to the emotions, tending, doing the mama thing, yeah, on a daily basis.

This is going to be an interesting shift for you here in the next, as, as you go through the next cancer season, right?

This summer, and you'll have just had the baby, because you do, like, right?

Before, is it during the day, I'm due, well, I'm due the last day of Gemini season.

So that's also funny that this girl would probably be a cancer.

As well, yeah, that makes so much sense, so much sense, and you do have Venus and Gemini.

So either way, there's going to be lots of connection, energy.

So I think it's interesting because I got a, a message, I did a channeling message for you a few years back.

Now it's probably two, maybe two years back.

How long ago did I do that for you?

My memory is really bad.

Line two.

I want to say it was, oh my gosh, because we've been now meeting online.

Do you know, do you realize we've been talking for four years now, four years?

Oh, yeah, it feels, I always say it feels longer.

It feels like we've been doing this forever.

Yeah, it's like in a good way.

I know.

If I don't get my hell enough fix, I'm like, wait, what's that?

What do you mean we're going two weeks without talking?

Why?

I don't like that.

I'm sorry, you're, I got, I need my hell in a therapy talk.

This is my therapy.

Yeah, absolutely.

So I think it was about two years ago.

I've been stepping into my medium ship.

We were just talking about this before we hit record.

I've been stepping into my medium ship or channeling abilities or whatever language you want to give it.

I don't quite even have the full language for it.

But I specifically have noticed I'm very good at tuning into babies and like baby spirit energy, right?

And it's something I, I was tuned into all of my babies for years before they came.

Before the first three came, we waited for five and a half years and tried for them and tried for them.

So I was writing to them.

I journaled to them all the time.

I would describe their personalities.

Like I knew they were there.

And then it was after those three, Safron and Felix,

I came up in line and they like were in the waiting room sitting there.

And I remember dialing into your little girl and it was very clearly a little girl, right?

Like that was not negotiable.

And she took me back to a past life of yours where you had had quite a few traumas and losses with miscarriages.

And you just, you did not, you had a lot of like conceiving, but not like a lot of the raising of the children.

There was like a break in that.

Like it was the conception part happened, but not the giving birth and the raising of the children.

And I remember feeling into your soul and it was just so sad and broken.

It was so like it couldn't go through that again, right?

It couldn't go through all those losses and heart aches again.

And this little girl was very clear.

Like I'm coming to heal this for you.

Yeah, yeah, because even like, you know, I was so surprised to even.

That I was pregnant.

I'm like, what?

What?

I can't do that.

Am I really?

And I was so like, I was really doubting and then I went for the first ultrasound.

And I was so like relieved and surprised that there was, I saw with my own eyes that there was a little baby in my belly.

But still, it's like really hard for me to wrap my head around.

And sort of.

Think that like it's almost like it's too much to hope.

You know, I don't want to like, I'm almost a little scared still to hope for too much.

Because I'm like, oh, are we going to be that lucky?

Am I going to, am I going to, you know, be able to take part of that magic of actually giving birth to a baby and taking care of and raising a child?

Like that seems so magical to me.

And think about that.

Think about that past life.

Self of yours, right?

That woman who yearned for that.

She was like, I keep seeing her in like a country town on the edge of like Ireland is somewhere.

Like she's like, she was like an Irish woman over and like the seaside, right?

Over on the, with the wind blowing in.

There's a bit of money.

I remember who's with the money, right?

Yes, a lot of mud.

Yes, she was like, like this, this kind of little, not, I don't want to call it a shack, but this little, you know,

very modest home out in the country side of Ireland, right?

In the northern part, it just feels, and she was just like she was working with her chickens and her donkeys and stuff.

And she just, I remember tuning into her and she just longed for this family and longed for these babies.

And her heart was just so broken and this little girl, I was like, I remember like, you have a little girl.

She is coming and she's like, I got you.

I might heal this and like, yeah.

Yeah, a spunky little girl.

And guess what?

I remember that.

Like we've known this and it's so funny because it is the same energy that I'm feeling now and she's so active and she's.

It's really interesting because I also think that because of my past lives and past experience, I have been really shot to those emotions.

I haven't wanted to open up that door because I've been too scared to because it hurt me so much in the past.

So it's been very like shot and I haven't.

I've never like hoped like longed in a way for children.

I've been more like rational, a very Capricorn, uh, well, you're Capricorn mood.

Let's talk about this because your moon is in the 12th house and the moon is what we look to in the chart.

For the way you feel specifically about mother and mothering and the way you mother, right?

So there's the moon is where we look to for that mothering energy.

It's the it's the that's connected to that cancer energy.

So your moon is in the 12th house and it is logical in that sense, right?

Is there is that yeah, practical and very pragmatic kind of energy about your emotions.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So, but I feel like I have been really, you know, like not daring to open that door of soft to softness, like not daring to become to be soft.

And so I haven't really felt her until like we have started talking about her and I've been really, you know, did this past like readings and actively tried to more so dig into this room and like what it was coming from.

But now when I'm when I'm in it and out, by the way, I feel so comfortable being in it, which feels really good.

Like it looks scary sometimes too, but right to be comfortable.

But now I am also feeling like another one.

You know, I can feel I can feel the other one.

I can feel I do know Helen.

I know this feeling well.

And I've never experienced that before because I've never because I haven't been open to that.

I think I've been too scared to hope for for this in my life.

I've been too hurt.

So that door has been closed for me.

Think of I have, I have had that door closed.

I've been too scared to hope.

And I mean, think of that wound and cancer that you're healing right now, right?

Kairan is the key, the key to the healing of our chart.

He literally is a key in his glyph, right?

Is astrological glyph is like a little skeleton key, right?

And so you've never had that, um, that dare to hope and now you're opening to that

and you're softening to that and that wound is healing, right?

The key is healing.

And for me, it shows up with Taurus with money and with trusting myself

because it's at Pisces 12th house of surrender and trust.

So for me, it's surrender and trust that I can make money being a weirdo.

And, you know, the trusting in my abilities that are very, very, very good.

That my abilities are super, super talented and, um, they're really hard to explain.

They're kind of intangible, right?

The things I do is kind of intangible.

Like I can sort of give it a, I can show you your chart and I can sort of give you a tangibility.

But what I do is very nebulous.

It's very, I bring spirit guides in, I bring past lives in.

I bring astrology and I bring your health and wellness in.

And it's this whole little package of stuff that I do.

But it's very 12th house can't really touch it and I have a hard time explaining it, right?

So of course, your moon now that you're opening and have, you know,

further along in your pregnancy and of course, your moon would be like, Hey, I think there's,

hang on, I think someone else is at the door too.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And, uh,

yeah, I love that I'm so, I'm just so great.

Like I, I didn't expect my pregnancy to, I've never even expected a bit pregnant.

And I didn't expect it to be so, um, magical for me that I would do.

Because I've, I've been, I am, I have been, well, I don't know if I still am,

but I have been very much a worrying type of person, like worried and not really,

you know, not liking when things are out of my control so much.

And when your body is changing, things are 100% out of my control, 100% out of

gear control.

Yeah.

And, and feeling so comfortable with it is, I'm just so grateful to it.

And I know that everyone doesn't have, like people have tough pregnancies.

And I'm not saying that this is better, whatever, this is probably what I needed

because I have chiroin in, you know, in cancer.

So if I would have had just, it's just there to help me.

I just need that push of this, like, nice pregnancy to, to help, uh, to help me with

I would absolutely say that, um, would you say that what I said about,

I have been too scared to hope that that also applies to your chirol.

Like you've been too scared to hope for, uh, you know, being reassured.

And in, in, in this plane, like you're chiroin, yeah, yeah, there's a lot as,

and that's my finances, scared to help about finances.

Yeah, Phillip and I, I am about to turn 44.

Phillip and I have been together since we were 16 and 17.

He joined the Air Force right after high school and I followed him.

So he was just kind of always the financial stabilizer for the two of us while I went

to college and was trying to get a degree because in the early 2000s, you go to college

and you get a degree and you go to college and then you get a degree.

And I kept trying to do that.

And finally, after 11 years of college and six different colleges, I finally got

an associate's degree in marketing and, uh, and a dog training certificate.

I'm a certified obedience trainer, animal professional.

And, um, it was, it was something that I think I'm, I'm, I always strived for,

like, financial freedom and financial stuff.

But I felt like it was always this elusive concept, right?

I get a job and, and that job wouldn't work out.

And this, then I'd work for this bozo and he was a bad leader or bad, you know, um,

you know, boss.

So I wouldn't, that wouldn't work out.

And I just kept having these experiences over and over and over.

I mean, 49 jobs.

That's not a made up number.

No, it took me a while to count them all and, like, list them all.

49 different jobs, sometimes at the same place, different roles, sometimes completely

different places, but 49 different jobs, positions and businesses, you know, places I've

worked at to finally figure out that I have to be me in order to make the money.

Yeah.

And that wound of, can I rely on myself to do this?

Can I do this?

Can I really, can I really be financially stable by just being me?

Is that a thing?

Because, you know, when you've been burned and drowned and assaulted many lifetimes as a

witch, you know, just because you're a healer and you're a feminine healer and you know

apothecary and a, you know, a Roman therapy and herbalism and you've been, and you were a

pagan and you were sought after by powerful religious men and persecuted many, many lifetimes

in a row.

It doesn't feel very good when your husband's like, hey, you should do this professionally

and I'll stay home with the kids and you can go do this and support us financially.

And I'm like, wait, wait, wait, what?

I'm sorry, but what?

You want me to read a triggering that?

You want me to advertise that I can do weird shit and tell people out loud?

It's not the same.

Right.

So that when you really dive into these wounds, they're powerful.

And when I was doing this class, girl, the first woman I talked to, I just want to

Andrea, if you're listening, I just want to like send you love.

Like, thank you for being the first one for me to make cry immediately.

Andrea was lovely, but I honed in on her like a heat-seeking missile and I just got her

emotions to come up and out and it was it was a wound of happiness.

Like she's not being happy.

She's not living in joy.

She's not moving her emotions and I honed in on that like and just opened it, right?

I opened it and she was crying and laughing and I'm up there.

I saw the word Zumba painted on like my friend's ceiling.

Now, obviously, it wasn't understanding, but in my mind, it was like a process.

And it was in the bubble like Zumba letters, right?

Now, those of you who don't know, Zumba is in a workout that's like fun, salsa dance kind of stuff.

And I saw this woman.

It's a lot of fun.

It's so fun.

I saw her at Zumba class like shaking her Toshi, shaking her titties.

And I was of course demonstrating this in front of everybody and how this looks.

And they're all laughing with me and I'm laughing.

It's kind of like this comedy skit, right?

But me up in front of people saying, oh, I just saw the word Zumba painted in front of my face and

oh, I'm getting this message and wow, okay, this just came through.

I'm taking the intangible and I'm making it tangible.

That's the Taurus and the 12th house Kyron wound.

That's the only thing I can understand from it.

And then because Taurus has to do with stability and money,

I feel like I have to keep bringing weird shit from the sky into the tangible realm.

And then I'll keep making money.

I think that's how it works.

And I mean, we are here to not to shy away from our Kyron wounds.

We are here to actually put that key in the log and unlock all of those emotions and unsafe

day. That's around that because it's actually in the core.

I think it's it's us feeling not safe when we are in that for you in those themes.

For me in these other themes and for everyone to apply it to wherever your Kyron is in what

in what house and in what sign.

And just to unlock that so so that we can experience it and and grow through it.

But it's not it's not it's I mean, it's not comfortable.

No scary.

I wouldn't say this is fun.

I wouldn't say healing your Kyron wound is fun.

It has to be done.

I usually describe it as like if you just had surgery and had like a knee replacement or a

shoulder replacement, you have to go to the physical therapist after surgery and you have to

exercise that and you have to do movements to get it working again, right?

So nobody likes those exercises.

Nobody's like, yeah, I get to go push myself through the pain.

Nobody's like, woohoo, right?

That's why you have a physical therapist person to slowly help you move and slowly give you

these exercises.

This is why you hire an astrologer to slowly help you work through those wounds and slowly

give you exercises to help you deal with that Kyron.

I love that you say slowly because there's no need to throw yourself out and like

confront your worst fear.

The first thing you do.

No, no, no, there's going to be plenty of opportunities to do this throughout your life.

Take it step by step.

Yeah.

And I think it really starts.

Kyron is the wound that I think we become aware of more consciously.

I would say in our mid 30s.

Like that's when Kyron starts to kind of show up.

And then I've heard of, through a lot of astrologers and a lot of books and stuff,

I've read that your north node starts to kind of show up in your 40s.

And then Saturn's lessons really start to like, you start to embody and embrace Saturn in the 50s.

So we first we heal the wound.

Then we follow the soul's path.

And then we really work hard on the karmic mission.

This is my understanding of it.

Does that make sense for you?

Yeah, sure.

Sounds good. Let's do it.

Yeah, let's do it.

Your chart's so interesting.

When I look at Saturn, though, because you're in that generation of Saturn,

conjunct Uranus, that's a fun little generation of the 88, 87, 88, 89 babies,

right, the end of Sagittarius early beginning Capricorn.

Saturn and Uranus did a little ditty together.

They were dancing and being dance partners for a while in the late 80s.

And Saturn is structure and rules and rigidity.

And Uranus is, fuck that shit.

Yeah, the Berlin wall came down 89.

Yes, ma'am.

That's very much Uranus conjunct Saturn, yeah.

100%.

I love that you brought that up.

That is exactly the epitome of a Uranus Saturn conjunction.

We had this old regime and this old governmental structure.

And Uranus is like,

I don't think so.

That's something new.

Let's lightning strike that thing down, right?

Let's take that down and do something new.

So for you, these are both conjunct each other, but they're in the 12th house.

I find so intriguing because again,

crap from the past is inner integrated or intertwined with your life now.

Whenever you have 12th house stuff,

it's like that.

The experiences you've had as your soul has had

or it lets pretend there is no linear timeline.

Maybe the experiences your soul is yet to have in the future, right?

There's no boundaries between them.

So the karmic stuff you have to work on

is literally understanding the nebulousness and the boundary

of your nervous system and all of the stuff you came here to heal and work on.

It's so interesting to think of those two specifically.

And together.

And then you put them in the 12th house of like,

we've done this before as a society.

And now in this lifetime, I have a role to heal X, Y and Z stuff

that's going to show up again in this society.

Yeah.

And I think it's so, I just love thinking that time is not linear

and that actually, well, past lives like first to understand

we say past lives, but all of these lives,

I think that they are happening all at once.

And I think that you can also go into future lives

in these hypnosis states.

But it's so cool because, okay, so now in this life,

in my body where I'm talking from right now,

I have this astrology chart.

And I am focusing on a couple of things.

And after I've done that, that doesn't mean that I'm done, you know.

In another life, probably happening around the same, you know, at the same time.

And now also, I'm working on something else.

Like I'm still the same soul with the same mission,

but I'm working on a different part.

But because it's so interesting to think that, yes, now I'm working on this

Kairan in cancer.

And the more I heal that, you know, I am able to heal,

to heal myself in different timelines in different lives.

And that doesn't mean that I will take away what happened.

Like if I had, you know, like all of these miscages, it doesn't take that away.

But it helps my soul to understand, accept, and heal.

And I just find that so interesting that we are, we are, you know,

that all of these things are going on at the same time.

And just thinking about the soul's work.

And that makes me feel like astrology also is more

real in a way.

Because to me, it wouldn't make sense.

Like, oh, okay, so I have this Kairan.

And then what I'm done, what I heal that, what's next?

You know, you know, you're not done.

This is just a focus right now.

I hope in some life right now, I'm working on like fixing it more,

like how to make more money as well.

Because I would like that.

But it's not really my, or being more organized.

I would love it.

So another version of me in my soul is doing that somewhere else right now.

Because it's not my focus right now.

And it's things that I'm not that great, you know,

I'm not that great with, you know, memory of my music shit.

Organizing a couple of other things, you know,

but I can't, you know, you don't do everything in one lifetime.

Heck, no.

I mean, I'm trying, but it's, it's, I know.

Yeah, you definitely are trying.

Really giving it a go.

I love when I meet new people for the first time.

And they're like, what do you do?

And I was like, how much time do you have?

And they laugh and I was like, no, let me give this list.

Yeah, I'm like, I'm genuinely serious.

How much time do you have to talk about it?

Because what I do is it's not just a sentence.

Yeah.

And there are a lot of humans who do come here to work on one thing.

Right.

And that is their main focus.

There's one thing like I think about people who are doing like

specifically the space program and the people who design like the James Webb telescope

and put that out into space.

Those people have another language like obviously we have astrology as a language.

They have another language that is very scientific and very,

you know, it's just speaks in the language of telescopes and refractives and

stuff I just don't get.

I don't understand.

And I believe that there are certain humans that came here with a specific mission

to do a very specific thing at this very specific timeline to move us forward or to,

you know, advance us in whatever way is shape or form.

And then I believe there's people like me who come here to do a whole lot of things

and bridge people and make connections and do all of all of the

and like I just keep seeing a bunch of like hummingbirds and dragonflies moving all over.

Like there's like a lot of connectivity and then there's, you know,

there's the one thing that one person is supposed to do.

Girl, there are eight billion people on this planet.

We all have unique missions and unique things and some of us like me have a chart that's like

you are meant to consume and do a lot in this lifetime.

And maybe that's because in a past life I was stuck in a,

I know I was stuck in a mental health asylum.

I know I was and I couldn't do anything in that lifetime, right?

So I feel like with me, I feel like I'm almost making up for lifetimes where I didn't get to do

the mission, right? If I was a healer and I was an herbalist and I had an apothecary,

but I was burned as a witch at age 26.

How would I, I didn't finish that.

I didn't get to finish what I was doing with healing and educating people and making them aware of

their, you know, physical health or whatever.

I didn't get to do that mission.

So in this lifetime, I had 12 years of helping people with their physical health as a health

coach and Roman therapist.

And then in another lifetime, maybe I was a spiritual healer and I was supposed to be helping

people with their spiritual guides and their emotions and stuff.

And that lifetime I got burned at, at the stake, right?

I didn't get to do that.

Well, in this lifetime, I'm also trying to do that as well.

So I feel like me if I really zoom out and think about my soul in this life,

I feel like I'm trying to accomplish a bunch of shit that got cut off early in other,

other experiences.

Yeah.

Making up for the last time.

Exactly.

100%.

Does that make sense?

Yeah.

I never thought about it before and I never like put it towards until right now.

So I'm like trying it out.

I'm just trying it out at the moment.

It makes, it makes a lot of sense to me, though.

And I do know, especially with kids, because I have Saturn in the fifth house of kids

and fun and play.

And I do feel like I'm the killer of fun and play a lot of times.

And I walk in the house and be like, what are you doing?

Have you cleaned the house?

Why are you playing and having fun?

And then I'm like, wow, Laura, whoa.

Who is that principle from Matilda for real for real?

And I watch shows like that.

And I kind of like, I identify with that person a little.

Makes you feel uncomfortable?

A little more.

And then I feel like I should identify with that person, right?

And when I think back on that, what was my experience with children where I was really like,

not good to them?

And every time, every time I think on that subject or that line, I go back to this fat,

balding white man who is like, I want to say in the 1920s, maybe even the 19 teens,

he was a factory owner and he owned a textile factory.

And he had kids as his workers.

And they were paid next to nothing.

And I worked them all that, well, he worked.

I didn't, he worked them all the time.

And I remember, like, I tune into this guy.

And he just, like, he just, if he could eat money, he would have.

Like, he wanted money, money, money, which is probably some of the wounds I have to heal

in this lifetime with money too, right?

And he just didn't give a shit about the kids or their health or their families or anything.

He didn't pay them well.

He just wanted profits and profits.

And he worked these kids to the bone.

So every time I think about what did I do to kids in a past life that,

like, yeah, I have three teenagers and two toddlers.

So I feel like I'm being tortured sometimes, right?

Like, come on, I really am.

And then when I dive in, that's the image that shows up.

Is this ass hat of a guy who is just yucky, right?

The epitome of like corporate white man in America, right?

Like, like everything I kind of hate right now.

Yep.

And that's, that's my soul's experience.

I know it without a doubt.

I 1,000% know without a doubt that that was a life I was, I lived.

And the healing with children in this life and the learning to respect them and

respect their wishes and homeschooling them and letting them choose their life.

And just the way we do it is because of that ass hat that my soul experienced

and the life I experienced as this really gross guy.

Like, he was a gross.

I, in the image too, he's always pulling a hanky out of his pocket

and sapping up his soul.

Like, he's always sweaty and so.

You can totally picture him, right?

And like, balled on top with like the white around the sides, right?

Yeah.

And he wore like a bowler hat or a top hat kind of energy.

And he always wore this kind of like a suit or tuxedo kind of energy.

Like, he wanted to show he had like the evil monopoly man.

Totally.

Yeah, like if he would dress up and go to party, he would have looked like the monopoly.

The evil monopoly man.

Oh my god.

Yeah.

Oh my god.

I love it.

Yes, you're just like slowly fading into the darkness.

I know.

I know.

Now the light is leaving quickly.

We were also happy that we have some light.

Yeah, we were all excited when we started.

I was like, oh, look, it's still light by you.

And she's like, I know it's five o'clock and there's still light.

But now it's dead.

No, yeah, I was so happy because I went to the kitchen.

The kitchen is on the north side.

And I had sun there.

It's like afternoon sun on the north side of my place is something

that I haven't experienced says I don't know October.

It's got to be crazy to live as far north as you do.

Like, I mean, I know I live north, but you're like way more north than me.

I'm the same as like Stockholm as we then we're like the same latitude as Antarctica.

Yeah.

Yeah, you're up there.

So your light shifts are really far.

I mean, Alaska, Alaska, yeah, yeah, your your light shifts are really dramatic.

They are because you'll go, you don't have any light for a while, right?

A couple days at least.

In winter?

In winter, is there a couple days where you don't see the sun?

Yeah, not, I mean, because it's sometimes it's very cloudy, but in Stockholm,

I would say the sun is up for between like 9.40 in the morning until

starts going down again around one in the afternoon.

But far up north in in Kiruna, the sun does not rise above the horizon.

And it doesn't make it over the horizon.

I'm always curious about like people's mental health up there.

Are they okay too?

I'm not so sure, I'm not so sure if they are.

And then, yeah, so it's, you know, that's why

as Swedes, we are crazy about the summer and about sunlight.

Like now, you know, when the sun's out, like everyone goes outside and we just turn our

faces to the sky and I close our eyes and like trying to soak some to soak up those rays.

And just like, kill me.

Give me the vitamin D.

Bring it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's, it's definitely something I love watching because the way our land is set up,

our driveway is positioned towards the west.

And we, the road we live on goes directly north and south.

So we get to actually watch the sun set way over towards the north in summer at the summer

solstice.

And at the winter solstice, it sets way over towards the south.

And it's, and then in the equinoxes, it sets right at our driveway.

So our driveway is like the spring and the fall equinox.

The last couple of days I've been watching it get closer and closer.

I'm like a couple more weeks and it's going to be and it's like the halfway point is our

driveway.

It's a really fun kind of thing that we've noticed.

But I know for me, this Pisces season tends to get a little bit rough.

It's, it's still darker.

It's getting lighter, but it's cloudy.

Like it's, it's slowly starting to come out, right?

The sun is slowly starting to emerge, but it's still that nebulous time frame.

It is.

And I always feel like I'm so tired in, in Pisces season, who's supposed to rest a lot.

But it's also, I feel like it's about the sun, like the sun coming back is almost almost

a little painful because it's, you know, it's, because it's, you know, it's, it's very strong.

And that those strong rays hitting us, it's like something that we up here in North,

haven't experienced for a long time.

And this is Swedish author and poet that wrote a poem that has a line that says, just like,

that doesn't it, you know, I'm not going to be able to translate this perfectly and make

it sound as good, but it goes something like it hurts when the, when the flowers bloom.

You know, when, when, when the bud cracks open, like the bud cracking open is,

almost, it's, it's so beautiful that it's painful.

And it's also, like, this is also so much work.

It's like, both.

And that's how I feel now.

It's like, it's almost like a little painful for the body.

Like it's, because you're so tired.

And then you see the sun, you're like, I'm alive.

But it's hard, you know, yeah.

Like all the grass is waking up and all the bugs waking up.

The other day I started hearing birds chirping.

I was like, oh, birds, cool.

Right? There's, there's a fly flying around in my window that just started to wake up

from his winter slumber.

And I was like, oh, okay.

It's things are starting to wake up.

And I know right before we started recording,

you were asking me where Pisces falls in my chart.

And it's a little interesting because it's in the 10th and 10th into the 11th house.

It's halfway, the 10th, half way the 11th.

So for me, I would love to rest and, but and,

it's hard to rest when the sun is going through your 10th house of work

in your 11th house of community, right?

So there's a, we have to remember Pisces is two fish swimming in different directions.

So there's part of me that absolutely wants to go down to Chicago

and teach people classes, absolutely.

And after I taught that class, I energetically crashed for about 48 hours.

I gave everything I had.

And then I came home and I had to literally plug back in

and recharge.

My batteries were so drained.

Now that happens to me occasionally,

but nothing like this unless it's Pisces season.

Like that's when I get like, completely sucked dry.

So you were saying before, how do you do work, but also how do you rest at the same time?

And the feeling that is coming through to me this year specifically

is that I need to be stepping more into these psychic abilities,

mediumship abilities, connectivity abilities that I'm developing, right?

That are growing stronger in me each year.

And the birth of Felix is definitely one of the biggest propellers for me into that realm.

And now he's going to be, I'll be turning 44.

And then two weeks later, he turns three.

So we're kind of at this, this new age of separation between mama and babies.

So I usually nurse my babies until they're about three.

And then we, I mean, and then they're on their own.

So this is a year of, I guess that separation of where I'm now like really separated from him

completely, right? We're going to, we're going to be weaning.

And now I'm going to be on my own.

And I feel like he's such a magically intuitive child.

He's got the, he's had me channeling while I was pregnant with him.

Like he really opened me into that next realm.

And I almost feel like in a way, he's starting to like slowly set me free.

And like, okay, mama, you can do it on your own now.

And I've never said this out loud.

But the way I'm thinking about it makes so much sense.

We're like, of course, he's the teacher and he's the guide.

And I'm the student, right?

That's how it is when you become a parent.

You don't, you don't know shit.

Okay, by the way, let me just tell you Helena.

You don't know what you're doing.

That baby knows everything, right?

They come here fully programmed with all of the things.

Our job is to let them teach us how to unlearn what we've learned.

Yeah.

That's literally their job is to teach us that.

And so I feel like at three now, Felix is, he's like, okay, I've done my work.

You can go.

Like he's like setting me free in a weird way.

And this year feels really important for me that I really step into

more sessions or more readings with people or, or I guess, sharing my, my abilities more

beyond astrology, like astrology.

Yes, that might be the doorway to open it.

But then there's like a whole, you know, the whole sanctuary of fun stuff to explore.

Once I open the door.

So now I'm supposed to be leaning into that.

And I think you would ask me a question like, what does that look like for you?

And I think it does look like practicing meditation on a daily basis, right?

Yeah.

If I have a Zoom call scheduled for an hour, cool.

Now I need to have a meditation call scheduled for an hour.

And that's literally just me and my spirit guides on on our own little magic zoom.

Absolutely.

Doing that.

Absolutely.

So Pisces season is interesting for everybody because it's in different parts of their chart,

right?

My younger brother, this is rising sign.

So he's having to show up and rise into that mystical, artistic flowing energy.

For you, it's right in the middle of your first house.

So you're learning to step into that identity of it, right?

Yeah.

That shows up so different for everybody based on where it is in their chart,

and what planets they have there.

My friend, Mary Louise, who I'm doing the Journey to the Soul book program with.

She has three planets in Pisces, her son,

and Mercury, and her moon, I believe.

But they're all in the ninth house of publishing and speaking and broadcasting.

And she told me this year I really want to have a publishing company.

And I was like, well, how convenient I have, I have one.

I just started.

Do you do you want to run it?

Because I can't do all the things like I know I think I can, but I really can't.

So it felt very like Piscy and where it just like flowed, right?

She just flowed up to me.

And I was like, hey, I have this role for you.

And she's like, perfect.

And then she took the role and like flowed off.

And very Piscy and in and out,

nebulous kind of energy.

So we just published our Journey to the Soul book.

So it's out available on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.

And our website journey to the soul.

And so our book just got published.

And it's about listening to your intuition.

It's about following your flow and trusting the inner

ping that comes from inside you.

And listening to that divine guidance and what that looks like.

So each, each woman in the book wrote their chapter on their intuitive ping.

Perfect time to publish it during public Piscy season, right?

And then Mary Louise has got all this Piscy's energy in her 9th house.

And she's like, I'm going to become a publisher.

And I was like, here, let me support you.

Wonderful.

So I just, I love watching how this flows and shows up for all the people

in all the different ways.

But girl, I have been hearing so many people lately.

Talk about job changes and their financial changes and their

business changing and things like that.

And I'm over here going, yeah, you can think Saturn.

Thanks, Saturn for that.

He's, yep.

Everyone I know is having a shift with the way they do work.

The way they go to work, the work itself, everything is shifting.

Saturn is the planet of work and structure.

And he's in Aries.

And I don't know if you guys know much about Aries, but Aries gets bored.

Real easy and does not like the same old, same old repetition.

So this energy is asking us to create a structure around new stuff.

That's a lot more fun, a lot more playful, and not so damn boring.

Yeah, it's pretty exciting.

I think so.

It's very exciting.

I think so.

So when you combine that with, you know, just looking at my situation

personally, somebody who's got this astrology gift and this

health and wellness gift and now this intuitive gift, Aries Saturn,

and of course Neptune there is pushing me into this arena of like,

go, do more, expand more, do your weirdness more,

and build a structure around the weirdness.

And then Pisces I think is just all the planets there just helping to support the flow of that.

Now again, how this shows up for you or, you know, my husband or whoever,

completely different, but we're all feeling it.

Yeah, we're all feeling it.

We are, we are, what advice do you have for people who are feeling it?

What's coming for you for advice?

What would you give them?

That are feeling Saturn, the Saturn, Neptune and Aries.

Combined with the six planets and Pisces, what would you tell them?

Yeah, I think that well, for right now, I think that those ideas that you're getting

and that excitement that you're having harness that right now and spend the next three weeks,

you know, maybe doing some research, maybe daydreaming about them.

Like you don't need to do anything tangible yet, but I think it's a great time to

to bring them down into Pisces world and like sort of

blend, you know, mix them in with your soul a little bit.

Like with, with Pisces, like, is this, you know, is this, this is feel aligned with me?

Is this, you know, is this soulful?

Is this soulful?

Oh, I love it.

And then when the sun goes into Aries as well, then you can take action.

Yeah, and it might be that you're having an idea about something and then maybe doing

these couple of weeks because we have Mercury and Retrograde.

There's a lot of, you know, we're still in the Clipsies and maybe that idea is going to morph and

change. Yeah, you know, so you might not look like the idea you initially had,

but it's going to come from that idea and then you act on whatever it is that stays with you

and keeps you excited when we step into Aries season.

Absolutely. I love that advice.

I love that advice so much.

Well, I just want to send love to everybody around the world.

I know there's a lot of hurt right now.

A lot of hard things and Pisces is also known for its compassion and its empathy.

And I'm just going to quote Mr. Fred Rogers, his mother would tell him when there's hard

things in the world, you need to look for the helpers. Look for the helpers.

There are always people helping.

There are always people that are showing love and kindness.

And when you're feeling down or sad or depressed about the state of the world,

look for the helpers because they are definitely there.

And send love, you guys.

I know it sounds cliche, but the Beatles had it right.

All you need is love.

And we really have to learn to love each other.

For our differences.

And we have to learn to appreciate each other in ways that are kind of incomprehensible right now.

Like we haven't gotten to a point in our society where we really can love each other for our

differences instead of fighting over them.

And I'm just working on it with five kids in the house right now, right?

Like I'm working on it every single day about like that.

Your brother doesn't function like you.

Stop getting mad at him for, right?

I'm literally trying to teach it on a core basis here with my children.

So I mean, we're all doing the work.

And I just want to send everybody some love from my little office here in Wisconsin.

Just sending everybody who's hurting.

Just know that you're not alone.

And we will all get through this together.

Find a community of people that you can share your your hurts with and that you can learn to laugh

with and have some joy with and do some good in the world, right?

How can you be a helper?

Yeah, that's amazing.

Well, thanks everybody for tuning in.

And if you feel so compelled to go pick up a copy of Journey to the Soul and check that out,

I certainly would appreciate it is I think it's a very good book.

I'm very proud of it.

And yeah, thank you for listening, everybody.

We'll catch you next time.

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