BIG DADDY FOREVER - THE LIFE

0:00Folks, what's going on this big daddy coming at you for the big daddy forever podcast like I said This is coming to a close and we're gonna be moving on a little some mouse Hope y'all are doing well despite all the madness going on in this crazy ass society nowadays and Don't mind me right now. I'm just kind of piddling around the house and Making me some coffee dogs a quiet. So if you're kind of expecting the dogs to sit there No, no, they're quiet. They're quiet right now. They're asleep I decided to do this at the at a decent decent good morning So I'll be there. Hope everyone's doing well. Hope you're getting out there getting some sunshine in your face as we head into As we headed more to spring. You know, we got daylight savings time this coming weekend and most of all we got life, don't we? While others unfortunately have gotten taken away, you know I just wanted to give a few shout outs, right? And this is real quick to my aunt Sally. I love you They're gone, but you will never be forgotten

1:01You I still remember the first day I met you and when I was a kid and you just had this big old smile on your face because I would look at you And look at my grandma and look at you and then look at my grandma and I was like, okay Who? No, this is your my grandma You're no, you're my grandma because folks. They look just alike. I mean they look they were the split image of each other and sometimes I would I'd get confused But the only reason why I know my grandma was my grandma It's because she would just give me the tortilla first and That was my grandma I said my aunt Sally would just look at me like you can't shift for me Oh My gosh, she did she was you look at me like yeah, you you ain't you ain't get shit for me So you just you just sit there and suffer like everybody else. I don't I don't do tortillas and plus to her dog Maggie Little Chihuahua would always go run up to her first and my grandma didn't like Maggie. I'm sorry

2:03My cousin's going here. This one. I'm sorry the truth is truth grandma didn't like that damn dog I The shot I want to give out to my boy richest later may you forever rest in peace as well No Richardson's I was a kid and he was a He wasn't my when my pop here's my popcorn football coach and well, I tried to play pop Warner But I was you know, I was this Huskier than the other kids and they wouldn't and they wouldn't let me play Well, the other coaches are the pop Warner league who didn't want me to play because I said no He's not this age. He's too damn big Well my other homey Meachie he was bigger than me, but they would let him play and they would let others play But they wouldn't let me play and I think what it was that one day they saw this running practice drills and They saw me tackling the shit out of Johnny and and my cousin read and everybody they're like no, no, no, no, no, he's He is not Nineteen y'know how no so I went on to play baseball

3:05I played baseball and he was mad he knows me. He Richard was good for talking shit people Richard was wonderful kind of just like my aunt selling I love not always miss him, but you know Even though the physical bodies are gone I still know that they're that their spirit their soul is still around and you know I'll see him again someday not well. I'll see him again someday if I'm lucky enough So shout out to them. I love y'all shout out to the families. I love you too Be strong for each other during this time. Don't fight don't don't don't beep in their holes and pin their husk Don't fucking fight, okay? It's not gonna change nothing. They're gone. They're at peace. You be at peace as well. I That's just my Tough love family Vice for y'all

4:06So how y'all doing amidst all this bullshit? What's going on in the world? No, I run was just bombed and everything does a war going on after Mr Pedophile boys said that there would be no more wars and stuff like that, but you know that's that's too good to be true that Military industrial complex they need money. So what are they gonna do? They did they were just looking for excuse they sat outside been this way for the last six to eight months just waiting and then they got homeboy And then this thing with Iran No, peace talks is supposed to be peace talks. Okay, they're not supposed to break down because you're not having your damn way You think that you are who you are and people gonna just roll over. No, no, it doesn't work that way, but no right now I have nieces and nephews over there too who are who are stationed out there and no, I haven't talked to them But I know them they're they don't like this. I've talked with other Families who have kids over their nieces and nephews and stuff like that. They've actually managed to talk to them and they're not they're not happy

5:08They they said they said yeah our kids are scared So we didn't sign up for this we signed we signed up for peace, but at the same time They knew that this was gonna be expected I Think personally, I think We need to put Trump's kids in the middle of that damn war And I wholeheartedly stand by that none of this while I was born with burnt bones birds, you know what ain't nobody born with bone spurs nobody is hereditary to Bone spurs. That's just some cowardly bullshits And if you honestly believe that then you know what you just do it can go to hell just like his little taco face orange ass pedophile self god damn All them all those fuckers up there whether you're a democratic republican man. They're all those senators They need to they need to ship their kids over there, you know You want you want to start this shit or you don't want to stop this fool from doing what he's doing

6:09You know what sent all your children over there It's only right. It's only fair none of this none of this special privilege shit. I fuck you guys It's bullshit But the only thing that's gonna happen is that People gonna get no they've never announced casualties no u.s casualties and stuff like that This is gonna be more excuse me for my sniffles. I'm gonna try to minimize the sniffling because His allergy season over here right now, but anyway I hope everyone's over there safe What made me mad is just hearing some of the the talk of People about the slow Iran war right now Did you see the third that they're killing us? Yeah, would you expect? You can't roll into someone's house since it's not expect them to fight back It's like you get in into a fight people do this. I won't beat this person's ass Okay, do you expect them just to stand there and let you do it? And sometimes I've told people that they'll sit them. They'll look at me like who side do you want? No, I'm just I'm just really stating the fact you're talking about beating somebody's ass

7:12What are you gonna we'd expect them to do just stand there and let you do it? I don't think so I know I wouldn't We came to their house and they thought that they were just supposed to sit still and roll over and just let them Oh, yeah, come on. Yeah, come on. We'll let you kick our ass. Hey, I don't know This is one word we're gonna lose munitions almost depleted The Iran has just been stopped pounding me, but Iran has built for war You're talking about a country us the United States who stopped progressing for war after The Cold War we're still using not the 20th century bullshit when we should be in the 21st century You know, maybe weapons, you munitions and stuff like that instead of hoarding that technology Maybe they could win in there. They could us so-called steamrolled like everyone said that they were like like we're supposed to But it's not happening Yeah, it's not happening

8:13We'll get us someday. We'll we'll actually get that peace and love as better than war and ego and one man's ego is really gonna destroy us all Then again That's probably the same with all pedophiles. It's me me me. I I I of nasty motherfuckers And it's always old nasty motherfuckers who always always Always got to be the sickos Trump don't give a shit about that right now because why he has Immunity as long as he's president. He was granted you immunity from any and all actions During his presidency, which is why he's trying to get a third He's not he's not trying to get a third term because he feels only he can do what he has to do No, he's seeking the third term because he knows the minute he steps out of that presidency They're gonna nab his ass If that fucker don't die first while he's in While he's in office and then he looking too good for his ass and just put this way. I won't miss him. I ain't gonna fucking miss him

9:18I don't my cousin when my cousins on her Facebook. She always she comes at she comes at a hard with with the with the political stuff lately. No, but it's it's all it's all truth and some people get mad at her Personally because she said well, you you're putting all these memes and it's not fact It's it's not based on fact their opinions and stuff like that. How much more facts do you need to get to say that this Fucker's name is on all these files him and a whole bunch of people Republican Democrat And people was asked me Well, do you want me to go out to Democrats too? Well, yeah, I want him to go after both sides of them Don't come at me with that Democrat shit because I don't like neither. I don't like neither side They're both full of shit. They both don't come together to do what's right? They don't come together to hash out the problems that we elected them for Nope We let them run rough shot. We let them do all this crazy shit and then we got people on there who getting their damn feelings And especially on this one post as she had this one cat

10:18Only targeted what I say because I said and I said You know the reason why they support Mr. Taco boy because They might be pedophiles themselves. He took it as I called all them all Trump supporters pedophiles I said, you know, I said I was gonna respond back I said they're thinking you know what reading comprehension is very critical in these times So I'm just gonna let this fool just Sitting what he said because apparently he can't comprehend reading You know he's too used to a standardized double-digital vocabulary Which you know that's sad and all the other parts, but I Really hope this shit gets resolved. I really hope to victims And it's not just women. I wish people would just quit saying it or the women the women the men are being silent as usual There were guys involved who were involved in this whole pedophile ring and They've been very quiet

11:20They have been they've been very quiet. I'm not saying that they should go out there and make noise like the women now because I mean To each their own and to certain degrees it was worse for certain parties and people However Everyone keeps dismissing the men And I hear I've heard someone well, you know you guys don't Come out of the closet like that because they're too embarrassing and no one would really believe them anyway exactly No one would believe them anyway The one I can't remember the guy's name who's come out and said hey, yeah, I was No, Trump break me and everything and people not believing him I've heard women I seen women's comments in social media, which you know social media is kind of a fucking sick ass place anyway Some women said that oh, I don't believe him. I don't believe he's just he's just trying to bandwagon off this it's like no bitch, it happened This is why this is why I See what's happening? I

12:20Don't fully talk about it, but you know what I can't be cried about anymore because I had nieces of nephews They're young even even they're older now, but it doesn't matter Whether some nasty motherfucker comes snatches them up. Hey, whether some nasty motherfucker tries to come snatch my old ass Oh, come on. You're not you you still got you know No, this is why I always carry a knife around with me I actually I care several knives around with me. I got one that's out in the open. I got one that's hidden So that way if someone tries to come I don't give them you know if you pull a gun on me, you better pull the trigger Because I can reach that knife faster than you can pull the trigger trust me. I can't I've tested it I have tested it with with people before it. I'm like, huh, huh. Yeah People you don't took a knife to a gun fight shit. You know how do you that motherfucker go for it? Because some people may have guns, but they don't know how to use them Some people keep them perpetual safety and I'm just like here. Fuck that

13:26Anyway folks Look out for each other is one basement. We'll try to say make sure that people don't try the snatch of your family Don't try the snatch of your loved ones. Keep eye on them. Check in on them. I don't give a damn if you guys are mad at each other Check in on each other. You can get over mad feelings. You can get over being hurt What lasts longer if something happens to that loved one and Will your madness or will your ego or your attitude towards them? Will you have won still Ask yourself that Hello, I got to take a drink and get this coffee. I kind of got fired up Oh good shit good shit Well, I'm looking around this place one month down. I've been here in Phoenix now for one month and I ain't a lot folks. I almost didn't make it. I got I got in my head really bad About a week or so ago. I almost I almost came back to Flagstaff. I

14:28I mean, I was right right freaking there. I said no, I can't do this. It's too hard. It's too this is too that I'm out of my comfort zone and I would think about Flagstaff and then I would think about Flagstaff I'm thinking okay, but if I wasn't Flagstaff, what exactly would I be doing right now? the same routine Sitting in the same single room all damn day Not getting outside. Not getting no air feeling the same funky ass energy feeling the same funky ass attitude and Flagstaff feeling the same non-communication Between friends even though I know everyone's out doing their own thing. I get it but in the past year and a half two years that started building myself up doing the medicine ceremony journaling taking deep dives into myself to really see what makes me tick I'm not that much of a damn loner as I thought I was

15:30I was the loner because I didn't find people who understood me or I understood them so I would do different different I will childish and stupid ass behaviors and so I finally realized that you know what? This is the person I want to be. I want to be this type of person who is brave and strong and yeah he's still going to have his fears but he's going to face him head on he ain't going to be no goddamn fucking womanizer like I used to be he's not going to do all that he's going to be a he wants to be a good father he wants to be a good brother a good son and I come to realize I'm already all that I just don't get it reciprocated all the time and that's fine to each their own but I don't want to be somewhere where it's not reciprocated so that's why I left that's why I came down to Phoenix and then that's why that's when I realized

16:32that hey you know what you're down here for a reason because you level up up there so damn much and only so far the flags have to can't take you know further it's time to move on and I'm glad I'm glad I made that choice I'm glad I have family who took me in which is another thing but people always ask me about hold on one second folks oh good stuff oh that's good stuff people have asked me lady because they it's a post that slip past people excuse me it's a post that slip past people and I have some folks ask me recently what did you mean that you're divorcing all best friends only sticking with family here's why every single person who has called me their best friend this one way or another has to end up just drifting away from me well I'm gonna lie you call me your best friend you call me family I'm going to be right there okay no if-hands but that's just me I'm gonna be right there now if that is too much for you

17:37which apparently to many people it was and they've kind of drifted on and I don't even hardly ever talk to them anymore if I don't call you if us as friends don't level up to family status then your ass is gonna stay right there I don't have time or the patience to sit there and try to try to build something that's not for either one of us right now I'm looking at social media and I see a lot of people on there who are just brands that's fine we have that energy towards us we don't we don't have that level hey we're gonna we're gonna level up together yeah that's big that's that's pretty much what it is if I if I feel I can't level up with y'all then we're gonna stay right we're at we're gonna stay at friend status and I know a lot of people focusing on this design that's fucked up you know so that's that's why you consider me yes because you haven't showed anything otherwise I'm I'm reactionary people gotta understand I'm reactionary you know you I will

18:39show you first at times but me showing people at first at times is really backfire on me that I care and I love them and everything but their own past their own bullshit gets in the way of receiving any kind of you know genuine feelings or any kind of genuine kindness or niceness or whatever so they start rejecting it they would rather go where the energy is bad because that's all they know and you gotta let them you can't sit there and try to convince somebody that you're a good person or you don't mean them no harm I've learned you I've learned to just walk away now or learn to hey okay when you're ready cool you come to me I've done this with family I've done this with friends I've done this with acquaintances while they haven't acquaintances anymore they're I they're gone friends they are whether I the ones I really stick to nowadays if I call you family honestly if I call you family we're good y'all the ones who I want to fuck with

19:43if you're a friend we're friends that's it that's it I know I'm repeating myself but what's your level up seriously if you're listening to this what's your level up how do you how do you move about the world when it comes to family and friends how do you how do you come at certain things seriously comment below I want I want to I want to hear I want to hear how you level up and I want to hear what you had to sacrifice in order to get to where you're at because every every story is different and some people stories as I've sat back and I've heard recently especially down here in Phoenix man there's so many there's so many ways people have leveled up down here I've leveled up you know I I've gotten voice over jobs I had to stop one recently though because I just I just couldn't I couldn't handle it so many things going on with with the passing of no family recently it did kind of get me low in my feelings depressed I couldn't focus on I couldn't focus

20:48on the assignment so I had to do them the biggest favor and I had to exit the project with I have no like maybe get future projects from them probably not but at the same time my mental health and my heart mean more more projects have come more good stuff will come I'm sure of it I'm I'm not sweating it but I do I do feel bad because I like I like finishing what I started and doing so it's just it's just me I'm hurting myself so that will pass the one thing I have learned in this voice over game excuse me I think it got time for no racism bullshit none of your no nobody's prejudices and stuff like they're not saying it doesn't exist because there are some voice over artists out there they have their ways they have their likes and dislikes they do have their racisms they have their prejudices they have their all that

21:53shit they have all that okay I've learned that I still had a little bit of my prejudices okay and I didn't like it I didn't like it and what made me realize all this is okay I'm going to be working with some top tier talent from across a huge spectrum okay black white Hindi African Chinese or Asian okay I'm going to I'm going to work with so many people in this field and I've gone to their groups and I've seen how they all get along and none of that shit rises up and once in a while someone would come in with that bullshit boom they're off the group and they've said to me on a time for this bullshit we have a hard enough time trying to look after each other to make sure that we're taking care of to make sure that you know our jobs are our spot on and we're doing right by our people yes we understand this all this shit exists out there and one of the groups I mean as it's led by one one of the top

22:59like one of the top voiceover people in the world as she said fly it out she goes yeah she goes we we don't tolerate that bullshit she goes I had she goes I had to get it out of my head years ago that I'm not going to be for everybody my ego led me and I used to think that no blacks and Asians used to take my jobs away from me she goes they didn't do nothing she goes I can't sound this way I can't have this lived experience that they can that they have in order to voice certain characters so I had to get that shit out of my head real quick and out of my life and she goes I'm a better person for it she goes are there other people who feel the same way she goes no that's them only I can do me she was better you move forward and voiceover please realize that you're going to come across many people many lived experiences and either you work with these people and have fun and realize that we're all just here trying to do a job and that we all breathe the

24:03same air we all feel the same rain we all feel the same wind we all feel the same sunshine you won't last long in this career at all and that made me think that made me think long and hard about about certain words I say certain aspects of myself that I was like damn I still do this I still say this I don't like it it makes me feel it makes me feel nasty yeah yeah it makes me feel nasty and given how a lot of people are nowadays and I see it especially around this neighborhood a lot of trumpers a lot of trumpers they say hi they say hi they're cool you know though uh hi how you doing good good good I just I don't have time for that anymore I don't and people are going to say well no you you you still have you still you still can't hide who you are no dumbass I can't hide who I am I'm not going to hide who I am this is who this is who I am I've had racism against me

25:06but then so of other people I've had people be prejudiced towards me and so of other people I've been racism prejudiced towards other people as well point I'm trying to make insane is get over your fucking self get over your fucking self because shit is going to happen okay you can't control people's mouths you can't control what people say you can't control how people act the only thing you can do is control your world you're in the world that's that's what matters the most and here she goes so what's happening right now birds are landing in the backyard and she's she's chasing them a goofy ass anyway folks that's my spill you made agree to disagree or be like I hit yeah if this happens I bitch if ice gets his ass no I've already had my semi little semi encounter with ice they didn't uh they didn't they didn't say nothing I seen them from a distance they looked

26:08at me I kind of got my car and hauled ass real quick and that was it but well I'm I'm not trying to aggravate no damn body I just wanted to live my life I want to level up I want to do my voice over I want to be creative I want to do I want to do everything that I denied myself growing up that I'm not going to deny myself anymore because that voice of saying that oh you can't do there's no with with with the people going to think and you know don't do honestly feel that we were just meant to be built in this life no if you want to stay in this life if you want to be built this way then please do so with my blessing I know this family can be so much more and when I say family I'm talking about my blood relatives right now who are still kind of divided of well this is our family we take care of our family we know what motherfucking you're still my cousin she's still my cousin he's still my cousin all your children are my cousins too so this whole well I

27:10got to take care of my family fuck you I'm gonna take care of my family and that's all of you you have that tribal bullshit all you want to you go fuck yourself I'm only saying right now with your afraid folks whoever's listening I'm saying right now with your afraid to say to your goddamn Kim folk sometimes a shit just needs to be said we are all family don't fuck with us okay and you know yeah we all have those people say all they're those cousins I'm part of those cousins but when shit hits the fan who did they come to uh-huh shout out to all those cousins I love y'all we get it we get it we're we're the outsiders looking in and stuff like that and hey sometimes we're fine with it we're fine with it we're also kind of fine with having that little sneaky little shit grin on our faces thinking yeah it's about to drop I'm expecting your phone call in five four three bring in oh shit damn you called quick again shout out to all those

28:15cousins I love you we those cousins we are cousins we're family I'm getting off this I got work to do I gotta do some couple of uh VO contracts and some lessons to study and yes I'm still with stretch lab I'm learning the paces of that I'm a little frustrated with it but that's a whole different spiel and ballgame but it's working out it is it's working out it's just a lot oh my god it's just a lot to take in a lot to learn it's like taking a hole honestly it's like it's like it's like I'm literally trying to cram in my year of massage therapy into a month that's how it feels right now but I'm like you know what if I couldn't handle it I wouldn't be trying to do this but it doesn't mean I'm not gonna stop working all my creative endeavors anyway folks I love you all you take care good talking with you good talking with you and the other reason why I'm getting

29:16on smoke because these dogs are about to act up and I don't hear all that damn barking right now I love them but I damn so if that being said get out there having the venture take care of yourselves take care of each other and as always peace